Monday, December 28, 2009
Reflect, Plan, Willpower: Do it.
Its been along time I've talk to myself. I rarely whine on blog, because I believe its unhealthy to bitch about your life now and then.
But now I need to vomit out my mind.
A new year is coming. But I am not going to set any new year resolutions. Simply doesn't work for me. And I can guess new year resolutions are more "wants" than"needs".
2009 I had loads of fun. I had a nice short-term career which provided me the financial means to reach many things I wanted to do for myself and that little for my family.
And when my career stopped, and I've been into 3 months still looking for a job, now it was quite an agony.
Not because just I am jobless. I am in agony cos' for the past one year plus almost 2 years, although I have work experience improving on my soft skills, my technical skills did not really much improve much because I was dealing daily issues with the same kind of skill sets, although I did find innovative processes to deal with problems.
I did not manage to learn from anyone who can teach me new technical skills, nor I have the heart and time to imrpove during my free time after work, even now I still have not start on anything concrete.
So here am I now, try to figure what went wrong.
Willpower; an important aspect of our lives to go through things and get them done.
I just read up on the psychological aspects on willpower; it is basically a glass of red wine, which only when you enjoy it wholly, up till the end of the taste, you then would like and can have a second glass of red wine.
Willpower, when you focused on too many things, is like drinking red wine with many different dishes, the tastes of the dishes and the wine itself will not be the best, hence you will not get what you like, cos' only one fine wine goes with one particular kind of dish.
A major event happened within my family also made me feel insecure about my future. Now, I feel more vunerable as ever, as I am not ready to take any major responsibility. I feel that I even have troubles standing up.
So now, I am looking into my mind, trying to figure out what to do.
I decide I have to grow my own discipline.
These are what I will do:
1) Immediate environment organisation - prepare for Chinese New Year
2) Leisure cut-down - hide all my toys
3) Personal project - e-Book guide writing & research on Singapore history
4) Job search - continue with job serach with long-term stability and growth in mind
Its been along time I've talk to myself. I rarely whine on blog, because I believe its unhealthy to bitch about your life now and then.
But now I need to vomit out my mind.
A new year is coming. But I am not going to set any new year resolutions. Simply doesn't work for me. And I can guess new year resolutions are more "wants" than"needs".
2009 I had loads of fun. I had a nice short-term career which provided me the financial means to reach many things I wanted to do for myself and that little for my family.
And when my career stopped, and I've been into 3 months still looking for a job, now it was quite an agony.
Not because just I am jobless. I am in agony cos' for the past one year plus almost 2 years, although I have work experience improving on my soft skills, my technical skills did not really much improve much because I was dealing daily issues with the same kind of skill sets, although I did find innovative processes to deal with problems.
I did not manage to learn from anyone who can teach me new technical skills, nor I have the heart and time to imrpove during my free time after work, even now I still have not start on anything concrete.
So here am I now, try to figure what went wrong.
Willpower; an important aspect of our lives to go through things and get them done.
I just read up on the psychological aspects on willpower; it is basically a glass of red wine, which only when you enjoy it wholly, up till the end of the taste, you then would like and can have a second glass of red wine.
Willpower, when you focused on too many things, is like drinking red wine with many different dishes, the tastes of the dishes and the wine itself will not be the best, hence you will not get what you like, cos' only one fine wine goes with one particular kind of dish.
A major event happened within my family also made me feel insecure about my future. Now, I feel more vunerable as ever, as I am not ready to take any major responsibility. I feel that I even have troubles standing up.
So now, I am looking into my mind, trying to figure out what to do.
I decide I have to grow my own discipline.
These are what I will do:
1) Immediate environment organisation - prepare for Chinese New Year
2) Leisure cut-down - hide all my toys
3) Personal project - e-Book guide writing & research on Singapore history
4) Job search - continue with job serach with long-term stability and growth in mind
Thursday, December 10, 2009
木兰情
by 孙燕姿 Sun YanZi
我看得见云在天上混乱地飞
我听得见滚滚沙场埋一滴泪
这是谁的沙漠 我忘了我是谁
又是谁 让这 天灰
醒在黑山 睡在黄河 风吹往北
昨日故乡 东市骏马 在等着谁
铁衣下的你我 从患难到心碎
我问天 是白是黑
一颗心葬了几滴泪
一生情背我往前飞
记住这天地中的美
沧海世界 一眼成灰
我想喝家里的井水
却吞下生死的滋味
就让我敬往事一杯
对自己说 绝不后退
醒在黑山 睡在黄河 风吹往北
昨日故乡 东市骏马 在等着谁
铁衣下的你我 从患难到心碎
我问天 是白是黑
by 孙燕姿 Sun YanZi
我看得见云在天上混乱地飞
我听得见滚滚沙场埋一滴泪
这是谁的沙漠 我忘了我是谁
又是谁 让这 天灰
醒在黑山 睡在黄河 风吹往北
昨日故乡 东市骏马 在等着谁
铁衣下的你我 从患难到心碎
我问天 是白是黑
一颗心葬了几滴泪
一生情背我往前飞
记住这天地中的美
沧海世界 一眼成灰
我想喝家里的井水
却吞下生死的滋味
就让我敬往事一杯
对自己说 绝不后退
醒在黑山 睡在黄河 风吹往北
昨日故乡 东市骏马 在等着谁
铁衣下的你我 从患难到心碎
我问天 是白是黑
