Friday, December 31, 2004
In Search of Happiness : )
So fast, another year is going to end...
Time really flies when you didn't notice it. As if in a flash, I've gone through many important chapters and milestones of my life this year and I'm glad about it.
Though my life is of really what LIFE is, full of up and downs, I've enjoyed the best and overcome the worst, I've added experiences to fulfill the the value of my own life.
I've now I have reach the time another year of which it is going to end, and another new year of hope to begin with.
Firstly, for a good start, I wish all my family and friends a Happy New Year and find their own happiness in their lives.
For my new year resolution, it is pretty simple and straight forward;
I want to find my own happiness, in anyway I can, as to fulfill the value of my life and of others too!
This week. Anyway, I've actually gone through a pretty tiring week of training. I've been through technical handling tests of some weapons, navigational training exercises, Exercise GYPSY I and II (though I'm not really in the exercises and as tired as my friends who were in it, I've also stayed up late to do sai gang "support services" and some "administrations") and lastly, one of the worst things to do in army life, the ultimately boring guard duty.
Because I was still on the the so-called "recovery" period (although I've recovered already) from my medical excuses of my back pain, I wasn't allow to join the two important, consecutively runned exercises this week, and I could not join another SOC practice.
And so I was appointed to do my regimented guard duty on Wednesday.
So for me, the main event for this week is the guard duty, which is very boring and tiring. I was doing the prowling or patroling around the school camp compound of SISPEC.
I did it with a fellow SISPEC Bravo dude. We did our prowling around the camp for 2 times, 2 hours each with 4 hours break in-between. Ultimately, the prowling was so slow and boring that it was tiring. It is not that the dude with me was boring, it is the work duty that is.
During the prowl, we had to do 2 rounds around the school camp in 2 hours. But the school camp is so small, we had to go on our pace very slowly, in about one small pace per second. I almost went nuts on that speed.
Of course, on the next day of the guard duty, no extra rest was given. I had to continue my training according to everybody's main schedule like others. I almost fell asleep several times during the training lecture lessons.
In amidst of the busy training, I'm pretty disconnected from the world outside Pulau Tekong. Though last Sunday, I knew that there was an earthquake and tsunami disaster, I didn't realise that is the extend of the devestation of the mayhem of the disaster.
An unbelievable 126,000 of death toll were lost to date due to the South Asia Earthquake and Tsunami Disaster, and the death toll is still clibing. Thousands were displaced and homeless. Some Singaporean lives were also lost, some were missing.
All around the world, everybody were contributing money and other types of relief to this disaster. Even in Singapore, many donations were open up to help those in need. Even in the Singapore Armed Forces, soldiers are asked to donate a small sum willingly for a great cause. I've donated some money too during in the camp.
For now, all we can do is to pray for merciness of the lives lost and the homeless, and hope they recover quickly from this tragedy.
Looking at this situation, you might realise how lucky we are to live out pass one day...
Its really a kind of blessing and happiness to live on the time God gave to us.
The time you use to treasure your own life, your family and friends.
Once again, I wish all a really Happy New Year!
: )
So fast, another year is going to end...
Time really flies when you didn't notice it. As if in a flash, I've gone through many important chapters and milestones of my life this year and I'm glad about it.
Though my life is of really what LIFE is, full of up and downs, I've enjoyed the best and overcome the worst, I've added experiences to fulfill the the value of my own life.
I've now I have reach the time another year of which it is going to end, and another new year of hope to begin with.
Firstly, for a good start, I wish all my family and friends a Happy New Year and find their own happiness in their lives.
For my new year resolution, it is pretty simple and straight forward;
I want to find my own happiness, in anyway I can, as to fulfill the value of my life and of others too!
This week. Anyway, I've actually gone through a pretty tiring week of training. I've been through technical handling tests of some weapons, navigational training exercises, Exercise GYPSY I and II (though I'm not really in the exercises and as tired as my friends who were in it, I've also stayed up late to do sai gang "support services" and some "administrations") and lastly, one of the worst things to do in army life, the ultimately boring guard duty.
Because I was still on the the so-called "recovery" period (although I've recovered already) from my medical excuses of my back pain, I wasn't allow to join the two important, consecutively runned exercises this week, and I could not join another SOC practice.
And so I was appointed to do my regimented guard duty on Wednesday.
So for me, the main event for this week is the guard duty, which is very boring and tiring. I was doing the prowling or patroling around the school camp compound of SISPEC.
I did it with a fellow SISPEC Bravo dude. We did our prowling around the camp for 2 times, 2 hours each with 4 hours break in-between. Ultimately, the prowling was so slow and boring that it was tiring. It is not that the dude with me was boring, it is the work duty that is.
During the prowl, we had to do 2 rounds around the school camp in 2 hours. But the school camp is so small, we had to go on our pace very slowly, in about one small pace per second. I almost went nuts on that speed.
Of course, on the next day of the guard duty, no extra rest was given. I had to continue my training according to everybody's main schedule like others. I almost fell asleep several times during the training lecture lessons.
In amidst of the busy training, I'm pretty disconnected from the world outside Pulau Tekong. Though last Sunday, I knew that there was an earthquake and tsunami disaster, I didn't realise that is the extend of the devestation of the mayhem of the disaster.
An unbelievable 126,000 of death toll were lost to date due to the South Asia Earthquake and Tsunami Disaster, and the death toll is still clibing. Thousands were displaced and homeless. Some Singaporean lives were also lost, some were missing.
All around the world, everybody were contributing money and other types of relief to this disaster. Even in Singapore, many donations were open up to help those in need. Even in the Singapore Armed Forces, soldiers are asked to donate a small sum willingly for a great cause. I've donated some money too during in the camp.
For now, all we can do is to pray for merciness of the lives lost and the homeless, and hope they recover quickly from this tragedy.
Looking at this situation, you might realise how lucky we are to live out pass one day...
Its really a kind of blessing and happiness to live on the time God gave to us.
The time you use to treasure your own life, your family and friends.
Once again, I wish all a really Happy New Year!
: )
Saturday, December 25, 2004
Ouchies... and Merry Christmas!
Today is Christmas Day... and I wish everyone a Merry Christmas...!
This week. Another... duh... training week in SISPEC... which is the usual mixture of stresses, boredom, sianness and tireness. ...
Though this week's training not as sian and tiring as the first week, it was not too bad for me bah... The only real boring and stressful things about this week's traing was quick lecture lessons.
I had OUCHIES happening in this week's training.
Sadly, I was medically excused from any running, marching and jumping activities, as well as excused from heavy load due to that I'm had back pains and backaches at my lower back... which cost me to miss my physical training activities like a SOC practice, a 5km Endurance Training or ET run and 5BX (5 Basic Exercises).
I didn't really knew how I got the pains and aches. I never felt anything after Monday's full of physical training activities. I was well before I went to sleep that Monday night. But after I woke up, I was in pain and I couldn't stand up for too long as well as sitting cross-legged for too long...
I really dislike missing my training, especially of those physical (though I don't really say I like physically training all the time). I know missing physical trainings may lead to degression of my performance in combat fitness level, as I've learnt that during my BMT days...
Anyway, I am feeling better now... Hope my days of excuse can be cut down... I don't want to miss my next SOC practice, cos' after that, it will be the SOC trial run. I want to performance the best as I can, in the best conditions.
Christmas Eve, yesterday Friday evening and night. I went to Chee Wee's house to "celebrate" Christmas and its eve, along with Chee Wee, Chee Wee's little bro and sis. Hong Yun, Bryan, Alvin and Huimin. We had steamboat together for dinner. There was really way too much food prepared for the steamboat. The remainder food were stocked up I think.
Huimin and Alvin went home, while the rest of the guys stayed on. After that we all went to watch MEN's magazines, TV, DVD movies and PlayStation 2 console games... all night...
And yeh, we basically stayed awake throughout last night till morning... till now!
Christmas Day today, Saturday afternoon. We went to have out lunch. After that, we took Chee Wee's dad's vehicle to our usual complimentary movie place at Shaw Tower in Bugis, to watch the movie, Stephen Chow's Kung Fu Hustle.
We had few "scary" happening crop ups on the road, while I'm asleep in the vehicle. I was told by Hong Yun that Chee Wee went a bit veer off on the road lanes while driving as he was tired and sleepy (Woah... Dangerous... Please don't tried this next time... For the sake of safety of everyone...)
So Hong Yun overtook Chee Wee in the driver's position. But Hong Yun also gave us scares as the vehicle went jerkily fast and slow at initial times (and we stopped at an exiting ramp just off the ECP Benjamin Sheares Bridge) as he was not familiar with the goods vehicle driving operation, as he didn't drove it for quite some time.
Anyway, as for the movie, Kung Fu Hustle by Stephen Chow. It was very entertainingly nice, very comedically funny and visually impressive and apprehensive in both its storyline and also its exaggerated kung fu choreography. With Stephen Chow as the lead, director and excutive producer himself, the movie is still of Stephen Chow's unique saddistic, slapstick comedy.
(^o^) I really like laughing at Stephen Chow's movies!
Today is Christmas Day... and I wish everyone a Merry Christmas...!
This week. Another... duh... training week in SISPEC... which is the usual mixture of stresses, boredom, sianness and tireness. ...
Though this week's training not as sian and tiring as the first week, it was not too bad for me bah... The only real boring and stressful things about this week's traing was quick lecture lessons.
I had OUCHIES happening in this week's training.
Sadly, I was medically excused from any running, marching and jumping activities, as well as excused from heavy load due to that I'm had back pains and backaches at my lower back... which cost me to miss my physical training activities like a SOC practice, a 5km Endurance Training or ET run and 5BX (5 Basic Exercises).
I didn't really knew how I got the pains and aches. I never felt anything after Monday's full of physical training activities. I was well before I went to sleep that Monday night. But after I woke up, I was in pain and I couldn't stand up for too long as well as sitting cross-legged for too long...
I really dislike missing my training, especially of those physical (though I don't really say I like physically training all the time). I know missing physical trainings may lead to degression of my performance in combat fitness level, as I've learnt that during my BMT days...
Anyway, I am feeling better now... Hope my days of excuse can be cut down... I don't want to miss my next SOC practice, cos' after that, it will be the SOC trial run. I want to performance the best as I can, in the best conditions.
Christmas Eve, yesterday Friday evening and night. I went to Chee Wee's house to "celebrate" Christmas and its eve, along with Chee Wee, Chee Wee's little bro and sis. Hong Yun, Bryan, Alvin and Huimin. We had steamboat together for dinner. There was really way too much food prepared for the steamboat. The remainder food were stocked up I think.
Huimin and Alvin went home, while the rest of the guys stayed on. After that we all went to watch MEN's magazines, TV, DVD movies and PlayStation 2 console games... all night...
And yeh, we basically stayed awake throughout last night till morning... till now!
Christmas Day today, Saturday afternoon. We went to have out lunch. After that, we took Chee Wee's dad's vehicle to our usual complimentary movie place at Shaw Tower in Bugis, to watch the movie, Stephen Chow's Kung Fu Hustle.
We had few "scary" happening crop ups on the road, while I'm asleep in the vehicle. I was told by Hong Yun that Chee Wee went a bit veer off on the road lanes while driving as he was tired and sleepy (Woah... Dangerous... Please don't tried this next time... For the sake of safety of everyone...)
So Hong Yun overtook Chee Wee in the driver's position. But Hong Yun also gave us scares as the vehicle went jerkily fast and slow at initial times (and we stopped at an exiting ramp just off the ECP Benjamin Sheares Bridge) as he was not familiar with the goods vehicle driving operation, as he didn't drove it for quite some time.
Anyway, as for the movie, Kung Fu Hustle by Stephen Chow. It was very entertainingly nice, very comedically funny and visually impressive and apprehensive in both its storyline and also its exaggerated kung fu choreography. With Stephen Chow as the lead, director and excutive producer himself, the movie is still of Stephen Chow's unique saddistic, slapstick comedy.
(^o^) I really like laughing at Stephen Chow's movies!
Sunday, December 19, 2004
Non-Stop Training.
This week... I've just went through my first week in the SISPEC. I was posted to the famous "siong" Bravo company.
Although first week was the so-called "orientation" week, no harsh punishements, but we sure did a hell lot of things. No more personal admin (administrative) or free time for us to relax like we did in BMT.
Basically, everyday was non-stop training.
Luckily, my new section mates (along with some of my previous section mates in there too) are nice people and are basically cooperative, these factors will help everyone's lifes in this SISPEC Basic Section Leader Course or BSLC course more easier, and will help us to overcome the many difficulties together in the future.
I had also many other familiar friends in Bravo company (friends like Chee Wee, Elvin, Marcus, Alex, Andy Ng, Zwee, Eddie and others). And I can say we were all pretty unlucky to be there, together?
Ha ha...
Anyway, just to summarise the things we did in SISPEC, I think we did about 3 action-packed SOCs (and I finally cleared the damn low wall. And... the step-up was a bluff, where got step-up?), half an IPPT and lots of other physical trainings like chin-up regimes everyday, and also lecture lessons everyday.
It was absolutely a hectic week...
I have only this to describe this week, absolutely SIAN and TIRING...
Actually I can't imagine when the real waves of hellish aura attcks when my sergeants starts to impose strong disciplinary actions like physical punishments and extra guard duties on us next week...
But all I can do now is hope to go through all these as peacefully as possible... and also try not to think too much of the hardships.
Saturday. We book-out late in the early evening on yesterday (to most of us, it was considered a late book-out). So we got basically about less than 24 hours of freedom...
And with that limited time of freedom, I really didn't want to stay home to rest. So I went out almost immediately when I got home to settle some of my stuff, before I went out again.
So I had got the chance to catch a midnight movie, National Treasure, along with Hong Yun, Chee Wee, Alvin and Huimin.
I find the movie not bad actually. I quite like it (maybe its associated with history, which is on of my favourite subjects of study).
Its like a modern-day Indiana Jones movie. The story did basically intoduced some of the many national monuments and archives of the United States' Washington DC and Philadelphia, along with some of their basic history.
But I also find the storyline of the movie going a bit too fast and the intriguing treasure hunting trip was lacking in detailed historical definitions. It would be more interesting if they added more details? The history they said inside was pretty much making the general history.
This week... I've just went through my first week in the SISPEC. I was posted to the famous "siong" Bravo company.
Although first week was the so-called "orientation" week, no harsh punishements, but we sure did a hell lot of things. No more personal admin (administrative) or free time for us to relax like we did in BMT.
Basically, everyday was non-stop training.
Luckily, my new section mates (along with some of my previous section mates in there too) are nice people and are basically cooperative, these factors will help everyone's lifes in this SISPEC Basic Section Leader Course or BSLC course more easier, and will help us to overcome the many difficulties together in the future.
I had also many other familiar friends in Bravo company (friends like Chee Wee, Elvin, Marcus, Alex, Andy Ng, Zwee, Eddie and others). And I can say we were all pretty unlucky to be there, together?
Ha ha...
Anyway, just to summarise the things we did in SISPEC, I think we did about 3 action-packed SOCs (and I finally cleared the damn low wall. And... the step-up was a bluff, where got step-up?), half an IPPT and lots of other physical trainings like chin-up regimes everyday, and also lecture lessons everyday.
It was absolutely a hectic week...
I have only this to describe this week, absolutely SIAN and TIRING...
Actually I can't imagine when the real waves of hellish aura attcks when my sergeants starts to impose strong disciplinary actions like physical punishments and extra guard duties on us next week...
But all I can do now is hope to go through all these as peacefully as possible... and also try not to think too much of the hardships.
Saturday. We book-out late in the early evening on yesterday (to most of us, it was considered a late book-out). So we got basically about less than 24 hours of freedom...
And with that limited time of freedom, I really didn't want to stay home to rest. So I went out almost immediately when I got home to settle some of my stuff, before I went out again.
So I had got the chance to catch a midnight movie, National Treasure, along with Hong Yun, Chee Wee, Alvin and Huimin.
I find the movie not bad actually. I quite like it (maybe its associated with history, which is on of my favourite subjects of study).
Its like a modern-day Indiana Jones movie. The story did basically intoduced some of the many national monuments and archives of the United States' Washington DC and Philadelphia, along with some of their basic history.
But I also find the storyline of the movie going a bit too fast and the intriguing treasure hunting trip was lacking in detailed historical definitions. It would be more interesting if they added more details? The history they said inside was pretty much making the general history.
Saturday, December 11, 2004
I'm Still on ^Vertigo^!
Today, Saturday.
I think I still feel lively and very high, high, high and up, up, up!
After effects of a one good night's clubbing and dancing at ChinaBlack last night perhaps?!
The song below simply explained how I felt it all, last night till now!
Vertigo
by U2
Unos, dos, tres, catorce
Turn it up loud, captain
Lights go down
It's dark, the jungle is
Your head can't rule your heart
A feeling so much stronger
Than a thought
Your eyes are wide
And though your soul
It can't be bought
Your mind can wander
Hello, hello
Hola
I'm at a place called Vertigo
Dond' esta
It's everything I wish I didn't know
Except you give me something I can feel
Feel
The night is full of holes
These bullets rip the sky
Of ink with gold
They twinkle
As the boys play rock and roll
They know that they can't dance
At least they know
I can't stand the beats
I'm asking for the check
Girl with crimson nails
Has Jesus 'round her neck
Swinging to the music
Swinging to the music
Hello, hello
Hola
I'm at a place called Vertigo
Dond' esta
It's everything I wish I didn't know
But you give me something I can feel
Feel
Shot dead
Shots fall
Show me, yeah
All of this, all of this can be yours
All of this, all of this can be yours
All of this, all of this can be yours
Just give me what I want
And no one gets hurt
Hello, hello
Hola
We’re at a place called Vertigo
Dond' esta
Lights go down and all I know
Is that you give me something
I can feel your love teaching me how
Your love is teaching me how
How to kneel
Kneel
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Today, Saturday.
I think I still feel lively and very high, high, high and up, up, up!
After effects of a one good night's clubbing and dancing at ChinaBlack last night perhaps?!
The song below simply explained how I felt it all, last night till now!
Vertigo
by U2
Unos, dos, tres, catorce
Turn it up loud, captain
Lights go down
It's dark, the jungle is
Your head can't rule your heart
A feeling so much stronger
Than a thought
Your eyes are wide
And though your soul
It can't be bought
Your mind can wander
Hello, hello
Hola
I'm at a place called Vertigo
Dond' esta
It's everything I wish I didn't know
Except you give me something I can feel
Feel
The night is full of holes
These bullets rip the sky
Of ink with gold
They twinkle
As the boys play rock and roll
They know that they can't dance
At least they know
I can't stand the beats
I'm asking for the check
Girl with crimson nails
Has Jesus 'round her neck
Swinging to the music
Swinging to the music
Hello, hello
Hola
I'm at a place called Vertigo
Dond' esta
It's everything I wish I didn't know
But you give me something I can feel
Feel
Shot dead
Shots fall
Show me, yeah
All of this, all of this can be yours
All of this, all of this can be yours
All of this, all of this can be yours
Just give me what I want
And no one gets hurt
Hello, hello
Hola
We’re at a place called Vertigo
Dond' esta
Lights go down and all I know
Is that you give me something
I can feel your love teaching me how
Your love is teaching me how
How to kneel
Kneel
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
^High^...!
Friday evening + night!
Friday evening. I went meet up with Chee Wee to watch the complimentary movie, Blade Trinity, at the Shaw Tower.
While waiting for Chee Wee, I was waitng at the Digimagicians' mama shop enjoying a glass of ice milo, when I met Nur, Jason and even Wong from Malaysia and another Digimagician I do not know.
Actually, I've met my Digimagic kakis, Jason, Nur and Shahid too earlier last Tuesday. But I forgot to blog it in due to certain amount of slight mood depression.
Anyway, I've watched the Blade Trinity movie. I say the movie was okay bah.
Not much surprises from this movie, except Triple H from the WWE being a bad guy performing some of his wrestling moves against the Blade Trinity trio vampire hunters. The big bad guy, the pure vampire king, or Dracula, or Drake, which they called in the movie, wasn't bad enough to convince me that he was a match to Blade at all (Bah...). Blade's new sidekicks was nothing much too as they only use technological gadgets and such (no skills sia).
I like the more powerful, more emotional and more individualistic Wesley Snipes as Blade in the last previous Bladey movies.
After the movie, we went to have our dinner at a eating place at the Liang Seah Street along with Chee Wee's cousin, Siwei, the usher who always offer us free complimentaries.
Had a nice chat about our different NS lifes now and then.
After the dinner, Siwei left. Chee Wee and I went to Selegie to LAN game for about near 2 hours. Both of us had felt no kick though. We didn't played enough.
But I was sorry I was leaving Chee Wee to continue on his LAN mission alone as I was to go chiong with my BMT platoon mates at the ChinaBlack club...
So I took a short train ride from Dhouby Ghaut to Somerset. From there I went to The Heeren's entrance to meet up with the guys, who had dinner together. I was quite surprised to see Damien and Raj (a rookie LT being a new PC in Charlie)around too.
Anyway, from there we took a "short" car trip in Raj's big car BMW 5 Series. But Most of us couldn't enjoy the car ride as there were (could you believe it) 7 men in the car.
But along the way to China Black, some left and didn't went to chiong with us.
Friday night. So the attendants to chiong at the ChinaBlack were Damien, Raj, Y, Darren, Eddie, Qunjie, Kai Xiang, Chee Keong and Chee Keong's small godsister.
Everyone was pushing me around the sweet-looking, Chee Keong's small godsister... But I absolutely hated it...
No, its not that I don't like befriending new girls or neither I'm gay or something. I just hate it the way they disturb me like that just because I'm quite an introverted person... (God damn it! I admit it! OK?!)
(Simply to say: Look, I have an attitude here. If I wanted to tackle girl, I'll do it on my own, my own pace!)
Anyway, fuck it. I know they just like to kachau and irritate me. Let it be now. There will be resentment in my history anyway. Just watch out! For there will be "bloodbath"!
But at least I show what I'm capable of, dancing, all night! And I was high!
I love dancing at ChinaBlack. The music mixings are not boring, very up. The club's ambience also rocks too! I haven't be clubbing in such a good time since don't when!
Hope I have another chance to go chiong with my friends at ChinaBlack next time! Its really nice and up there!
(^o^)
Friday evening + night!
Friday evening. I went meet up with Chee Wee to watch the complimentary movie, Blade Trinity, at the Shaw Tower.
While waiting for Chee Wee, I was waitng at the Digimagicians' mama shop enjoying a glass of ice milo, when I met Nur, Jason and even Wong from Malaysia and another Digimagician I do not know.
Actually, I've met my Digimagic kakis, Jason, Nur and Shahid too earlier last Tuesday. But I forgot to blog it in due to certain amount of slight mood depression.
Anyway, I've watched the Blade Trinity movie. I say the movie was okay bah.
Not much surprises from this movie, except Triple H from the WWE being a bad guy performing some of his wrestling moves against the Blade Trinity trio vampire hunters. The big bad guy, the pure vampire king, or Dracula, or Drake, which they called in the movie, wasn't bad enough to convince me that he was a match to Blade at all (Bah...). Blade's new sidekicks was nothing much too as they only use technological gadgets and such (no skills sia).
I like the more powerful, more emotional and more individualistic Wesley Snipes as Blade in the last previous Bladey movies.
Cool is Blade, but where are all his opponents? All dead?
After the movie, we went to have our dinner at a eating place at the Liang Seah Street along with Chee Wee's cousin, Siwei, the usher who always offer us free complimentaries.
Had a nice chat about our different NS lifes now and then.
After the dinner, Siwei left. Chee Wee and I went to Selegie to LAN game for about near 2 hours. Both of us had felt no kick though. We didn't played enough.
But I was sorry I was leaving Chee Wee to continue on his LAN mission alone as I was to go chiong with my BMT platoon mates at the ChinaBlack club...
So I took a short train ride from Dhouby Ghaut to Somerset. From there I went to The Heeren's entrance to meet up with the guys, who had dinner together. I was quite surprised to see Damien and Raj (a rookie LT being a new PC in Charlie)around too.
Anyway, from there we took a "short" car trip in Raj's big car BMW 5 Series. But Most of us couldn't enjoy the car ride as there were (could you believe it) 7 men in the car.
But along the way to China Black, some left and didn't went to chiong with us.
Friday night. So the attendants to chiong at the ChinaBlack were Damien, Raj, Y, Darren, Eddie, Qunjie, Kai Xiang, Chee Keong and Chee Keong's small godsister.
Everyone was pushing me around the sweet-looking, Chee Keong's small godsister... But I absolutely hated it...
No, its not that I don't like befriending new girls or neither I'm gay or something. I just hate it the way they disturb me like that just because I'm quite an introverted person... (God damn it! I admit it! OK?!)
(Simply to say: Look, I have an attitude here. If I wanted to tackle girl, I'll do it on my own, my own pace!)
Anyway, fuck it. I know they just like to kachau and irritate me. Let it be now. There will be resentment in my history anyway. Just watch out! For there will be "bloodbath"!
But at least I show what I'm capable of, dancing, all night! And I was high!
I love dancing at ChinaBlack. The music mixings are not boring, very up. The club's ambience also rocks too! I haven't be clubbing in such a good time since don't when!
Hope I have another chance to go chiong with my friends at ChinaBlack next time! Its really nice and up there!
(^o^)
Friday, December 10, 2004
I'm Posted to SISPEC!
I've just receive my ePosting to my new vocation today.
And I'm glad that I've been posted to the School of Infantry Specialists, SISPEC!
: P
Specialist Creed
I, am a specialist of the Singapore army
With pride I lead
I excel in my specialist field
Ensure the discipline of my soldiers
And readiness of their equipment
I overcome adversity with my fighting spirit
I will defend Singapore with my life
SISPEC School Song
School of infantry specialists here we come,
Soldiers of every creed and race.
Soldiers to specialists we will become,
Leaders of six men to set the pace.
Sispec warriors we are the warriors,
Sispec warriors with pride we will lead.
Fearlessly we lead with pride,
we train hard full of might.
Trained to lead by day and night,
We will strive for greater heights!
I've just receive my ePosting to my new vocation today.
And I'm glad that I've been posted to the School of Infantry Specialists, SISPEC!
SISPEC at Tekong! The next place where I'll love and hate to be in!
: P
Specialist Creed
I, am a specialist of the Singapore army
With pride I lead
I excel in my specialist field
Ensure the discipline of my soldiers
And readiness of their equipment
I overcome adversity with my fighting spirit
I will defend Singapore with my life
SISPEC School Song
School of infantry specialists here we come,
Soldiers of every creed and race.
Soldiers to specialists we will become,
Leaders of six men to set the pace.
Sispec warriors we are the warriors,
Sispec warriors with pride we will lead.
Fearlessly we lead with pride,
we train hard full of might.
Trained to lead by day and night,
We will strive for greater heights!
Wednesday, December 08, 2004
Back to LIFE!
Today, Wednesday...
Today. Ahhhhh... I was suddenly rejuvenated back to life, right here and right now.
I was "telling" the world how I was lost these recent days. I tried to go out with friends.
Watching the lame but funny B-grade movie, Without A Paddle, on Monday with Elvin on Monday. And going out LAN gaming almost a whole day (not exactly whole day, but long hours enough to kill your brain) with Chee Wee and Meng Kiat on Tuesday.
But I wasn't much too livin' up...
I was lost. Lost in what, I don't even knew. But NOW I KNOW, I know what I am lost in...
I'm lost in LIFE, I didn't actually knew where I was going... I was lost for my career or even my academics.
Why I was lost?
Simple, I'm stuck in the conformity of the military life. Day in,day out, it was the same thing in the military, I was basically trying to focus on my training and survive it.
There and then through time, I was lost. I even lost my foresight on where I was going in life...
But now I found it back again, the live in my life. Recovered from the upset and lost days of mine. Free from conformity.
Now I GOT IT all back, I'm going to have some life planning.
(Erm hem, hope these plans ain't my temporary 3 minute heat, microwaving bye-bye plans.)
Firstly, my career or academic life line after NSF.
I was of course, going to pursue a degree for my acaedemics. Nevermind the school fees part first, or else it'll certainly stop all dream thinking clockwork. For that I know I'm bloody poor.
(My parents wasn't the kind who really did any education finance plannings for me, neither they were pretty rich. And I don't think my father's CPF account is really enough to support this degree dream of mine some how. Moreover, they're retiring in a few years. As a good son, I should really depend on myself. We'll take it step-bystep, we'll see how life goes then.)
I am most probably going to go purue a local degree. The current one I really found interesting was NTU's School of Arts, Design & Media or SADM. The only degree they're offering right now was BFA or Bachelor in Fine Arts.
Arts? I'm going artistic like Picasso or Michael Angelo right now?
Nah! More like Leonardo da Vinci! LOL! (He's one of the earliest and craziest designers.)
What I am going in is more like design art, especially in the visuals and contents.
I'm going to be a multi-leveled designer, designing lifes' needs.
So don't ask me why they named it Bachelor in Fine Arts, because they also included performing arts and those really fine arts. I'm sure, there are specific majors in the degree name later. So the general degree name is BFA.
I've read a bit about what NTU-SADM's BFA is all about. It was about the same thing I always preach about when I'm telling people what is my diploma is about, jack-of-all-trades in media design. Of course for the BFA also included classic arts.
Actually, the BFA degree course sounded worse than my diploma.
But all and all, it came down to one thing, the portfolio, which I didn't really have for now. I was GOING to do it, but most probably after NSF, which I think it would be up-to-date to the technological relevance then.
But now I realise, that wasn't going to work.
It wasn't the technological advances or ill-updates that will fail my portfolio. These things are basically are on my own initiative. I should learn along my way.
The most vital element for any portfolio will be good contents.
Anyway I don't think I will have the time to do a really, really good portfolio after NSF. I doubt I will be diligent to do such a "last minute" job then.
So I might as well start now and do it in any way and every way I can when I got the free time.
And so I thought, what kind of contents in my portfolio would make people be interested in my work that will show its uniquely mine?
These unique contents will definitely be about how I live, my lifestyle, reflecting my own life process.
Now, that generally pretty much settled the concepts into working on my portfolio. The rest of the working details are instincts and common sense.
Now to display my way of life in my portfolio, I needed some basic equipments.
For my life photography, I needed a semi-pro digital camera, capable of taking the images of my life going-ons, in work and in fun when I'm with my family, friends and environment.
(Why I wanted a semi-pro digital camera instead of a lifestyle digital camera?
Simple, I can use it for both work and well as at play. But I judging by current circumstances, I could still opt for a lifestyle camera for a more simpler start.)
Why photography you ask?
Photography is one of the simplest ways (yup I'm lazy but I also don't have so much time during NSF)to produce quality contents without much hassles and explainations.
After all, a picture is worth a thousand words (or even more than that!)...
Simply said than done, for digital cameras are still considered expensive items nowadays, especially with semi-pros or even pro ones!
With such a meagre conscript's pay I got every month, it is going difficult to buy. I can try by saving some money every month, so that I keep missing lots of my life, which defeats the purpose of having a camera to photograph my life.
This digital camera budget problem will be solved later, anyway.
For all things in life, it is always needing of money, money and money...
So to have money, we got to know how to make money.
And the best way is to start a business. I think I'm going to start one, related or not relating to my current diploma. I'm not sure what business I'm going into, but I'll just have to figure this out later with my friends first through innovation I guess...
For that, it'll be another set of plans I'll have to work it out another day...
Today, Wednesday...
Today. Ahhhhh... I was suddenly rejuvenated back to life, right here and right now.
I was "telling" the world how I was lost these recent days. I tried to go out with friends.
Watching the lame but funny B-grade movie, Without A Paddle, on Monday with Elvin on Monday. And going out LAN gaming almost a whole day (not exactly whole day, but long hours enough to kill your brain) with Chee Wee and Meng Kiat on Tuesday.
But I wasn't much too livin' up...
I was lost. Lost in what, I don't even knew. But NOW I KNOW, I know what I am lost in...
I'm lost in LIFE, I didn't actually knew where I was going... I was lost for my career or even my academics.
Why I was lost?
Simple, I'm stuck in the conformity of the military life. Day in,day out, it was the same thing in the military, I was basically trying to focus on my training and survive it.
There and then through time, I was lost. I even lost my foresight on where I was going in life...
But now I found it back again, the live in my life. Recovered from the upset and lost days of mine. Free from conformity.
Now I GOT IT all back, I'm going to have some life planning.
(Erm hem, hope these plans ain't my temporary 3 minute heat, microwaving bye-bye plans.)
Firstly, my career or academic life line after NSF.
I was of course, going to pursue a degree for my acaedemics. Nevermind the school fees part first, or else it'll certainly stop all dream thinking clockwork. For that I know I'm bloody poor.
(My parents wasn't the kind who really did any education finance plannings for me, neither they were pretty rich. And I don't think my father's CPF account is really enough to support this degree dream of mine some how. Moreover, they're retiring in a few years. As a good son, I should really depend on myself. We'll take it step-bystep, we'll see how life goes then.)
I am most probably going to go purue a local degree. The current one I really found interesting was NTU's School of Arts, Design & Media or SADM. The only degree they're offering right now was BFA or Bachelor in Fine Arts.
Arts? I'm going artistic like Picasso or Michael Angelo right now?
Nah! More like Leonardo da Vinci! LOL! (He's one of the earliest and craziest designers.)
What I am going in is more like design art, especially in the visuals and contents.
I'm going to be a multi-leveled designer, designing lifes' needs.
So don't ask me why they named it Bachelor in Fine Arts, because they also included performing arts and those really fine arts. I'm sure, there are specific majors in the degree name later. So the general degree name is BFA.
I've read a bit about what NTU-SADM's BFA is all about. It was about the same thing I always preach about when I'm telling people what is my diploma is about, jack-of-all-trades in media design. Of course for the BFA also included classic arts.
Actually, the BFA degree course sounded worse than my diploma.
But all and all, it came down to one thing, the portfolio, which I didn't really have for now. I was GOING to do it, but most probably after NSF, which I think it would be up-to-date to the technological relevance then.
But now I realise, that wasn't going to work.
It wasn't the technological advances or ill-updates that will fail my portfolio. These things are basically are on my own initiative. I should learn along my way.
The most vital element for any portfolio will be good contents.
Anyway I don't think I will have the time to do a really, really good portfolio after NSF. I doubt I will be diligent to do such a "last minute" job then.
So I might as well start now and do it in any way and every way I can when I got the free time.
And so I thought, what kind of contents in my portfolio would make people be interested in my work that will show its uniquely mine?
These unique contents will definitely be about how I live, my lifestyle, reflecting my own life process.
Now, that generally pretty much settled the concepts into working on my portfolio. The rest of the working details are instincts and common sense.
Now to display my way of life in my portfolio, I needed some basic equipments.
For my life photography, I needed a semi-pro digital camera, capable of taking the images of my life going-ons, in work and in fun when I'm with my family, friends and environment.
(Why I wanted a semi-pro digital camera instead of a lifestyle digital camera?
Simple, I can use it for both work and well as at play. But I judging by current circumstances, I could still opt for a lifestyle camera for a more simpler start.)
Why photography you ask?
Photography is one of the simplest ways (yup I'm lazy but I also don't have so much time during NSF)to produce quality contents without much hassles and explainations.
After all, a picture is worth a thousand words (or even more than that!)...
Simply said than done, for digital cameras are still considered expensive items nowadays, especially with semi-pros or even pro ones!
With such a meagre conscript's pay I got every month, it is going difficult to buy. I can try by saving some money every month, so that I keep missing lots of my life, which defeats the purpose of having a camera to photograph my life.
This digital camera budget problem will be solved later, anyway.
For all things in life, it is always needing of money, money and money...
So to have money, we got to know how to make money.
And the best way is to start a business. I think I'm going to start one, related or not relating to my current diploma. I'm not sure what business I'm going into, but I'll just have to figure this out later with my friends first through innovation I guess...
For that, it'll be another set of plans I'll have to work it out another day...
Sunday, December 05, 2004
POP goes my BMT!
This week...
Finally I've just POP (Passing Out Parade) from my BMT yesterday. I'm finally promoted to become a private from being a recruit.
How do I feel POPing?
I'm actually feeling great for the freedom I've recovered, but I'm have also felt a bit sad to leave my friends I've gained in during my BMT.
Sad I was, but I've learned to recover quickly from it. As much as I learnt in life that there isn't a banquet that isn't going to end.
Frankly speaking, I enjoyed the company from my friends who are my fellow recruit mates (from platoon, especially my bunk mates) as well as my instructors, namely 2LT Farhan, 3SG Fok, 3SG Damien Lai and 3SG Ivan.
* (3SG Fok, along with another sergeant, 3SG Alex, left us on Friday to be posted to the 3rd Guards, to become instructors there.
We celebrated early for 3SG Fok's birthday, which is on 7th December, and his posting to the 3rd Guards during Friday's free time in my bunk. My platoon had lots of fun and food with our instructors.
(Small is 3SG Fok too, but he does his job! For that I admire him!)
CLASSIFIED: Where is Charlie 2.3?!
I am really grateful to all this people who helped me went through many difficulties I've encountered through this meaningful course of my life and I truthfully thank them (even though I've my reservations for some of them).
Now back to this week's story.
Nothing much diversity of events were happening but milestones of events have happened.
This week were mainly full parade drilling for my Graduation Parade (which still crops up during my day of POP). The Graduation Parade rehersals or GP rehersals are absolutely tiring. Almost everyday, we had GP rehersals and we always sweat like squished sponge.
These GP rehersals however, certainly damaged our morale some how as we're the last batches of recruits to pass out and we're always tired of these rehersals.
Worst, our Company Sergeant Major (CSM), Mani, was so far the worst instructor I've seen.
All I know is that, CSM Mani is nothing much but a lousy and certainly quite a stupid instructor who only come to "instruct" us, pointing here, pointing there, with absolutely no sense of what he did.
One time we were setting up something like a queue barricade. CSM Mani looped the plastic chain around queue stand and walked away. And then he came back asking, "Which idiot go and loop this thing?"
My friend, Y, laughing in his heart, said it was Sergeant Major, referring to CSM Mani.
Then another sergeant, Sergeant Yeo asked again, "Who go and chain up this thing one?"
Y, again replied softly, Sergeant Major.
Duh! What a joke right? The rest of us simply giggled softly... Haa...
Not only CSM Mani is senseless, he don't know even know how to drill us properly. His execution of a drill command is a drag, instead of pre-execution drill command to be a drag.
For Example:
Correct Way of Commanding Drill- Sedi~~~-a!
Incorrect Way of Commanding Drill- Sedi-a~~~!
~ = dragging the sound of syllable
The worse thing is that is kept trying to drill us "properly", along with other instructors, after our GP rehersal. But then we're already too tired to listen to him. What kind of baisc military welfare is this?
I doubt he even knew. Even a NCC cadet specialist knew this better than him! (Y and I, along with other fellow friends who were in NCC, agreed to this!)
Sometimes when he gave a wrong command. He simply gave an excuse that "I was testing you! Be alert! Wake up your bladdy (suppose to be "bloody" but it sounded like bladdy. He's Indian) idea!"
CSM Mani, I think YOU should be the one to wake up YOUR idea!
We had our 24km Graduation Route March on Thursday. The whole of BMTC School 1's 8 companies, including my company were involved.
It was not as fun as the one we had for our 16km route march. Our platoon morale was low, and we were missing our best platoon performer, Eddie Tan Hock Chai, who felt sick on that day... Some bad things also happened... But anyway, its over.
As for my last SOC in BMT. I'll still failed to climb that stupid low wall. So I didn't try to complete the whole SOC properly, skipping my low rope (sian liao lah, after failing to clinb over the low wall) and ending my SOC time with an astonishing 20 minutes plus time... Hee hee...
My BMT life ended just like that... With both a bit of disappointment and a bit of happiness...
I'm actually a bit lost, who will save me?!
Well, life's like that. Now what's next?!
: )
This week...
TOP SECRET: Passing Out Parade (POP) of Charlie 2.3!
Finally I've just POP (Passing Out Parade) from my BMT yesterday. I'm finally promoted to become a private from being a recruit.
How do I feel POPing?
I'm actually feeling great for the freedom I've recovered, but I'm have also felt a bit sad to leave my friends I've gained in during my BMT.
Sad I was, but I've learned to recover quickly from it. As much as I learnt in life that there isn't a banquet that isn't going to end.
Frankly speaking, I enjoyed the company from my friends who are my fellow recruit mates (from platoon, especially my bunk mates) as well as my instructors, namely 2LT Farhan, 3SG Fok, 3SG Damien Lai and 3SG Ivan.
* (3SG Fok, along with another sergeant, 3SG Alex, left us on Friday to be posted to the 3rd Guards, to become instructors there.
We celebrated early for 3SG Fok's birthday, which is on 7th December, and his posting to the 3rd Guards during Friday's free time in my bunk. My platoon had lots of fun and food with our instructors.
(Small is 3SG Fok too, but he does his job! For that I admire him!)
CLASSIFIED: Where is Charlie 2.3?!
(Spot me if you can! I'm well camoflaged and is in great concealed expression!)
RESTRICTED: The centred three guys with jungle hats in front first row (from left to right),
3SG Fok (My platoon's child-like acting platoon sergeant), 3SG Damien (The one with the small, funny jungle hat. My section commander and my platoon most favourite tough as well as nice sergeant) and 3SG Ivan (The sergeant who really like to talk cock with us).
Behind in the crowd, the one with the jungle hat with funny camo disguise is 2LT Farhan, our platoon commander.
I am really grateful to all this people who helped me went through many difficulties I've encountered through this meaningful course of my life and I truthfully thank them (even though I've my reservations for some of them).
Now back to this week's story.
Nothing much diversity of events were happening but milestones of events have happened.
This week were mainly full parade drilling for my Graduation Parade (which still crops up during my day of POP). The Graduation Parade rehersals or GP rehersals are absolutely tiring. Almost everyday, we had GP rehersals and we always sweat like squished sponge.
These GP rehersals however, certainly damaged our morale some how as we're the last batches of recruits to pass out and we're always tired of these rehersals.
Worst, our Company Sergeant Major (CSM), Mani, was so far the worst instructor I've seen.
All I know is that, CSM Mani is nothing much but a lousy and certainly quite a stupid instructor who only come to "instruct" us, pointing here, pointing there, with absolutely no sense of what he did.
One time we were setting up something like a queue barricade. CSM Mani looped the plastic chain around queue stand and walked away. And then he came back asking, "Which idiot go and loop this thing?"
My friend, Y, laughing in his heart, said it was Sergeant Major, referring to CSM Mani.
Then another sergeant, Sergeant Yeo asked again, "Who go and chain up this thing one?"
Y, again replied softly, Sergeant Major.
Duh! What a joke right? The rest of us simply giggled softly... Haa...
Not only CSM Mani is senseless, he don't know even know how to drill us properly. His execution of a drill command is a drag, instead of pre-execution drill command to be a drag.
For Example:
Correct Way of Commanding Drill- Sedi~~~-a!
Incorrect Way of Commanding Drill- Sedi-a~~~!
~ = dragging the sound of syllable
The worse thing is that is kept trying to drill us "properly", along with other instructors, after our GP rehersal. But then we're already too tired to listen to him. What kind of baisc military welfare is this?
I doubt he even knew. Even a NCC cadet specialist knew this better than him! (Y and I, along with other fellow friends who were in NCC, agreed to this!)
Sometimes when he gave a wrong command. He simply gave an excuse that "I was testing you! Be alert! Wake up your bladdy (suppose to be "bloody" but it sounded like bladdy. He's Indian) idea!"
CSM Mani, I think YOU should be the one to wake up YOUR idea!
We had our 24km Graduation Route March on Thursday. The whole of BMTC School 1's 8 companies, including my company were involved.
It was not as fun as the one we had for our 16km route march. Our platoon morale was low, and we were missing our best platoon performer, Eddie Tan Hock Chai, who felt sick on that day... Some bad things also happened... But anyway, its over.
As for my last SOC in BMT. I'll still failed to climb that stupid low wall. So I didn't try to complete the whole SOC properly, skipping my low rope (sian liao lah, after failing to clinb over the low wall) and ending my SOC time with an astonishing 20 minutes plus time... Hee hee...
My BMT life ended just like that... With both a bit of disappointment and a bit of happiness...
I'm actually a bit lost, who will save me?!
Well, life's like that. Now what's next?!
: )
