Tuesday, November 29, 2005
Christmas is coming...
The time has come again for another Christmas. But this time I'll swear its not going to be the same old Christmas I had every year at home... alone.
Though not entirely a Christian, I always think Christmas is not just a great holiday to celebrate the birth of Jesus, but it is really the season of giving love to anyone whom you treasure around you.
And I think I am going to be real busy this season.
I had to buy Christmas gifts and a birthday gift (it could also be a Christmas gift too!). Planning how to party on the great Chirstmas Day's Eve and beyond.
Thinking of all this really got me into some sort of an excitement and a bit of sweetness in the face of this festive season.
Guess the only thing is really the snow and cold.
Perhaps the only cold I could get is from a Carlsberg!
The time has come again for another Christmas. But this time I'll swear its not going to be the same old Christmas I had every year at home... alone.
Though not entirely a Christian, I always think Christmas is not just a great holiday to celebrate the birth of Jesus, but it is really the season of giving love to anyone whom you treasure around you.
And I think I am going to be real busy this season.
I had to buy Christmas gifts and a birthday gift (it could also be a Christmas gift too!). Planning how to party on the great Chirstmas Day's Eve and beyond.
Thinking of all this really got me into some sort of an excitement and a bit of sweetness in the face of this festive season.
Guess the only thing is really the snow and cold.
Perhaps the only cold I could get is from a Carlsberg!
Friday, November 25, 2005
Face... Unexposed.
Hey... There's finally some exciting on my job today as I was working as a safety specialist for a range shoot today.
The range live firing was part of some SAF experience for some JC students. So there's also media covering news for the event.
Sadly, though I was in the few seconds of the news segment footage, I was always in a squatting position at at either the last or the third last of the range lanes...
My face is always down because I'm always doing something on the weapon magazines or round cartridges on the floor... My face remains unexposed... LOL.
Anyway, at least I'm still excited to see some of my fellow colleagues... Who is one black, one white...
Haha... Just kiddin' yah. It was not meant to be a racist joke. Haha...
Hey... There's finally some exciting on my job today as I was working as a safety specialist for a range shoot today.
The range live firing was part of some SAF experience for some JC students. So there's also media covering news for the event.
Sadly, though I was in the few seconds of the news segment footage, I was always in a squatting position at at either the last or the third last of the range lanes...
My face is always down because I'm always doing something on the weapon magazines or round cartridges on the floor... My face remains unexposed... LOL.
Anyway, at least I'm still excited to see some of my fellow colleagues... Who is one black, one white...
Haha... Just kiddin' yah. It was not meant to be a racist joke. Haha...
Wednesday, November 23, 2005
All in A Day's Work.
Normally, everyone has something to bitch about in their own work and with people whom they're working with. I'm not the exception too.
Today, my platoon mates were all interviewed by my platoon commander (PC) on our welfare regarding our psychological and financial needs, if any.
As of my previous blog, I had a man who sounded his problems to me, in which I had referred to my PC. But during the interview he said nothing to my PC about what he told me. Well, neither my PC seems to be seriously the issue seriously, the interview was done in a joking manner.
Well, perhaps maybe that man had really made up his mind. Maybe he decided that that's really the way for him. Anyway, he was still able to laugh and smile throughout the interview, so I thought there's nothing I could really do more for him except that I wish him the best.
There's finally an order for a major area cleaning today, which actually I'm happy to hear today. This is especially because my locker room is extremely dirty. The room is essentially a bunk room full of cupboard lockers which would contain our belongings, but without any sense of belongings.
This is truly how I felt about that room.
Although initial times I did made an effort to maintain the room as well as ordering as well as asking people to keep the room as clean as possible, in the end, the room still ended up like a storeroom rather than a locker room.
The room was simply too bad in condition at start for anyone to felt the room was theirs, even after a major clean up was done. So the cleaniness of the room deterioted, people throw rubbish in the old rusty lockers... Dust thicken underneath and over the lockers like nobody's business.
Without anyone's support, I also didn't bother already.
The only cleaning I ever did was just to sweep the exposed floors.
As much as I like to work after slacking for so long, I really hated redundancies, especially with work.
And as much as I'm happy about an order for a major area cleaning, I didn't agree that the officer-in-charge of the order requested such stringent requirements of cleaning all the rooms which is of "trainee standards".
Pulling out the cupboards and lockers to clean all the dust and dirt below and behind was simply the line of such "trainee standards" as of what it has been done to most recruits.
In some way, it is some sort of an insult to most of the men and specialists when he requested for such a standard. Its like we were being treated like recruits in which oftenly referred by boot camp sergeants as "the lowest life forms in the SAF".
As most of the people's recruit life is happily over, no one would ever want to deal with such recruit redundancies. Afterall, this redundancies are used to instill basic solier discipline.
As much as I know that my company, SSC, is not pretty much regimented at all and substantial disciplinary measures should still be enforced.
I disagree more with the officer-in-charge that he always used the term that the specialists are also commanders and we're not in control of our men.
Yes, we're commanders. But please don't always put that as sort of a pressure over our heads.
We all didn't like that, and its irritating.
We're not control freaks who always have the damn time to babysit and nanny our men everytime.
We lead by mixing with our men as much as they are our friends. We know its our job and duty to supervise work, but don't make things difficult for us by saying we're commanders as we're not only dealing with subordinates, we're also dealing with friends.
Our working relationship with our men is sensitive.
We have to work with them every single day, you know?
That was especially important as this is generally how our working culture is between all officers, specialists and men, which is based on mutual trust.
And trust me, you don't want a mutiny by the men after the trust is breached. I could also understand all commanders, either officers or specialists don't want their men to climb over their heads.
I know everyone has to do their jobs, including the officer-in-charge. But don't step on other people's working integrity.
I'm sure we can always find a balance in our work.
So don't be extra and anyhow destroyed the balance! Duh!
Normally, everyone has something to bitch about in their own work and with people whom they're working with. I'm not the exception too.
Today, my platoon mates were all interviewed by my platoon commander (PC) on our welfare regarding our psychological and financial needs, if any.
As of my previous blog, I had a man who sounded his problems to me, in which I had referred to my PC. But during the interview he said nothing to my PC about what he told me. Well, neither my PC seems to be seriously the issue seriously, the interview was done in a joking manner.
Well, perhaps maybe that man had really made up his mind. Maybe he decided that that's really the way for him. Anyway, he was still able to laugh and smile throughout the interview, so I thought there's nothing I could really do more for him except that I wish him the best.
There's finally an order for a major area cleaning today, which actually I'm happy to hear today. This is especially because my locker room is extremely dirty. The room is essentially a bunk room full of cupboard lockers which would contain our belongings, but without any sense of belongings.
This is truly how I felt about that room.
Although initial times I did made an effort to maintain the room as well as ordering as well as asking people to keep the room as clean as possible, in the end, the room still ended up like a storeroom rather than a locker room.
The room was simply too bad in condition at start for anyone to felt the room was theirs, even after a major clean up was done. So the cleaniness of the room deterioted, people throw rubbish in the old rusty lockers... Dust thicken underneath and over the lockers like nobody's business.
Without anyone's support, I also didn't bother already.
The only cleaning I ever did was just to sweep the exposed floors.
As much as I like to work after slacking for so long, I really hated redundancies, especially with work.
And as much as I'm happy about an order for a major area cleaning, I didn't agree that the officer-in-charge of the order requested such stringent requirements of cleaning all the rooms which is of "trainee standards".
Pulling out the cupboards and lockers to clean all the dust and dirt below and behind was simply the line of such "trainee standards" as of what it has been done to most recruits.
In some way, it is some sort of an insult to most of the men and specialists when he requested for such a standard. Its like we were being treated like recruits in which oftenly referred by boot camp sergeants as "the lowest life forms in the SAF".
As most of the people's recruit life is happily over, no one would ever want to deal with such recruit redundancies. Afterall, this redundancies are used to instill basic solier discipline.
As much as I know that my company, SSC, is not pretty much regimented at all and substantial disciplinary measures should still be enforced.
I disagree more with the officer-in-charge that he always used the term that the specialists are also commanders and we're not in control of our men.
Yes, we're commanders. But please don't always put that as sort of a pressure over our heads.
We all didn't like that, and its irritating.
We're not control freaks who always have the damn time to babysit and nanny our men everytime.
We lead by mixing with our men as much as they are our friends. We know its our job and duty to supervise work, but don't make things difficult for us by saying we're commanders as we're not only dealing with subordinates, we're also dealing with friends.
Our working relationship with our men is sensitive.
We have to work with them every single day, you know?
That was especially important as this is generally how our working culture is between all officers, specialists and men, which is based on mutual trust.
And trust me, you don't want a mutiny by the men after the trust is breached. I could also understand all commanders, either officers or specialists don't want their men to climb over their heads.
I know everyone has to do their jobs, including the officer-in-charge. But don't step on other people's working integrity.
I'm sure we can always find a balance in our work.
So don't be extra and anyhow destroyed the balance! Duh!
Monday, November 21, 2005
A Life Fading Away...?
A human life is fragile and precious. That's all I understand and that is why I'm livin' up to it.
I've already seen an acquaintance who given up his life, leaving all his belove ones in doubt of what happen to him.
I do not wish to see another person around me disappear from me just like that too.
Now I have a fellow man (a subordinate and a friend) who's have heart problem since birth. He could not do strenuous sports. Even simple loading work could make him pant, not to mention running for him.
About a month ago, he told me that he need to go for an important operation in order to prolong his life. But he's worried that the operation might not be a success, moreover the operation could only make him live maybe for another few years.
I've advised and encouraged him to go for it.
But he is still relunctant to go for the operation and thought of it as wasting money.
Although it seems to me that he's doing fine right now, his recent actions made me worry about him that he has given up the hope and will to live and that he didn't want to go for the operation.
I haven't asked directly how's he's going to decide about his situation, cos' as far as I know Its somewhat beyond me to help him alone, I need more help and perhaps even professional help.
So I've decided to refer this matter to my superior who seems to be taking it abit lightly...
But at least I'm not taking this lightly (even though I hope I'm not over-sensitive about this).
My gut feeling tells me that something is not right and I hope everything is going to be fine.
I don't want to see a friend as if he's committing sucide slowly...
A human life is fragile and precious. That's all I understand and that is why I'm livin' up to it.
I've already seen an acquaintance who given up his life, leaving all his belove ones in doubt of what happen to him.
I do not wish to see another person around me disappear from me just like that too.
Now I have a fellow man (a subordinate and a friend) who's have heart problem since birth. He could not do strenuous sports. Even simple loading work could make him pant, not to mention running for him.
About a month ago, he told me that he need to go for an important operation in order to prolong his life. But he's worried that the operation might not be a success, moreover the operation could only make him live maybe for another few years.
I've advised and encouraged him to go for it.
But he is still relunctant to go for the operation and thought of it as wasting money.
Although it seems to me that he's doing fine right now, his recent actions made me worry about him that he has given up the hope and will to live and that he didn't want to go for the operation.
I haven't asked directly how's he's going to decide about his situation, cos' as far as I know Its somewhat beyond me to help him alone, I need more help and perhaps even professional help.
So I've decided to refer this matter to my superior who seems to be taking it abit lightly...
But at least I'm not taking this lightly (even though I hope I'm not over-sensitive about this).
My gut feeling tells me that something is not right and I hope everything is going to be fine.
I don't want to see a friend as if he's committing sucide slowly...
Sunday, November 20, 2005
=oooo Blade =oooo Battle Scars =oooo*
Went blading at the East Coast today along with Elvin.
My god, we blade for 4 hours and more, from Marine Cove to the end of the track towards Changi and back again... Never had such pain on my feet since my missions marches in Taiwan.
But then again its chicken feet.
The longest binding to my feet was a 6-hour ice-skating at Fuji Palace. Ouch.
The long blading back and forth at the East Coast track also made my buttocks suffer. Not to mention I also made alot of battle scars on my $250 K2 rollerblades...
Poor Norrin...
(Named after one of my fav the Marvel character, Silver Surfer, whose orginal name was Norrin Radd . After all the blades is chroming silver too and it got a spacey-look actually.
And why do I like Silver Surfer? Simply becos' he's a hot bod silvery surfer!)
Oh what the heck, its a pair of rollerblades anyway.
Its suppose to have some battle scars here and there.
Especially when I'm still amateur who doesn't know how to brake with style, except falling down.
Along the way, I did some criss-crosses. Cool.
Its definitely cool finally able to fix some skills at the "Beginners' Corner" inline skating rink. I'm able to do a 180 switch to reverse. I also manage to do the 180 switch to reverse and then 180 switch back to forward again.
Since my skills is getting cool now, I'm more willing to practice more at my void deck alone now when I'm free.
Went blading at the East Coast today along with Elvin.
My god, we blade for 4 hours and more, from Marine Cove to the end of the track towards Changi and back again... Never had such pain on my feet since my missions marches in Taiwan.
But then again its chicken feet.
The longest binding to my feet was a 6-hour ice-skating at Fuji Palace. Ouch.
The long blading back and forth at the East Coast track also made my buttocks suffer. Not to mention I also made alot of battle scars on my $250 K2 rollerblades...
Poor Norrin...
(Named after one of my fav the Marvel character, Silver Surfer, whose orginal name was Norrin Radd . After all the blades is chroming silver too and it got a spacey-look actually.
And why do I like Silver Surfer? Simply becos' he's a hot bod silvery surfer!)
Here's Norrin..
Scratched...! So much for being "Titanium"...
Even more serious damages... Costing the physical beauty of it...
Oh what the heck, its a pair of rollerblades anyway.
Its suppose to have some battle scars here and there.
Especially when I'm still amateur who doesn't know how to brake with style, except falling down.
Along the way, I did some criss-crosses. Cool.
Its definitely cool finally able to fix some skills at the "Beginners' Corner" inline skating rink. I'm able to do a 180 switch to reverse. I also manage to do the 180 switch to reverse and then 180 switch back to forward again.
Since my skills is getting cool now, I'm more willing to practice more at my void deck alone now when I'm free.
Saturday, November 19, 2005
Boring, Empty Weekend Schedule...
Look at my day's astrology:
"You're used to being in total control of your daily schedule, aren't you? Well, that probably hasn't been the case for the past three weeks. The good news is that, as of today, it will be far easier for you to make your way through your agenda -- in fact, if you give it a day or so, you may actually be able to make your appointments -- as will the folks you're set to meet."
Somewhat true. Its either suddenly I have alot of sudden appointments like last weekend or I have nothing planned to do, like now.
I wanted to do something fun, exciting or something with adrenaline. But now I have nothing to do.
I need some plans from my friends now!
Look at my day's astrology:
"You're used to being in total control of your daily schedule, aren't you? Well, that probably hasn't been the case for the past three weeks. The good news is that, as of today, it will be far easier for you to make your way through your agenda -- in fact, if you give it a day or so, you may actually be able to make your appointments -- as will the folks you're set to meet."
Somewhat true. Its either suddenly I have alot of sudden appointments like last weekend or I have nothing planned to do, like now.
I wanted to do something fun, exciting or something with adrenaline. But now I have nothing to do.
I need some plans from my friends now!
Friday, November 18, 2005
第一天 {FirSt Day}
作曲 {Compose by}* FirSt Day = {F.I.R. + Stefanie Sun + MayDay}
作詞 {Lyrics by}* 阿信 {Ah-Xin of MayDay}
下過雨的 夏天傍晚 我都會期待
唱歌的蟬 嘿 把星星都吵醒月光曬了很涼快
就是這樣 回憶起來 第一次告白
尷尬的我 看 愛裝得很哲學的你其實很可愛
你說活在明天 活在期待 不如活得今天很自在
我說我懂了 會不會太快
未來 第一天要展開
第一天 我存在 第一次呼吸暢快
站在地上的腳踝 因為你而有真實感
我存在 第一次能飛起來
愛是騰空的魔幻 第一天的純真色彩它總是 永遠 那麼 燦爛
你很搞笑 你很奇怪 你頭髮很亂
有的時候 你 又突然為我的事情變得很勇敢
這麼說來 很不單純 你陪我看海
海那麼藍 我 又好像不應該把你想得有點壞
壞的是我 發現不知不覺 不見到你不是很習慣
你的眼神裡 好像也期待
期待 不一樣的未來
第一天 我存在 第一次呼吸暢快
站在地上的腳踝 因為你而有真實感
第一天 我存在 第一次能飛起來
愛是騰空的魔幻 第一天的純真色彩它總是 永遠 那麼 燦爛
藍色的海 海上的雲 雲的那端 不轉彎 是未來
你說活在明天 活在期待 不如活得今天很自在
我說我懂了 會不會太快
未來 第一天要展開
第一天 我存在 第一次呼吸暢快
站在地上的腳踝 因為你而有真實感
第一天 我存在 第一次能飛起來
愛是騰空的魔幻 第一天的純真色彩它總是 永遠 那麼 燦爛
作曲 {Compose by}* FirSt Day = {F.I.R. + Stefanie Sun + MayDay}
作詞 {Lyrics by}* 阿信 {Ah-Xin of MayDay}
下過雨的 夏天傍晚 我都會期待
唱歌的蟬 嘿 把星星都吵醒月光曬了很涼快
就是這樣 回憶起來 第一次告白
尷尬的我 看 愛裝得很哲學的你其實很可愛
你說活在明天 活在期待 不如活得今天很自在
我說我懂了 會不會太快
未來 第一天要展開
第一天 我存在 第一次呼吸暢快
站在地上的腳踝 因為你而有真實感
我存在 第一次能飛起來
愛是騰空的魔幻 第一天的純真色彩它總是 永遠 那麼 燦爛
你很搞笑 你很奇怪 你頭髮很亂
有的時候 你 又突然為我的事情變得很勇敢
這麼說來 很不單純 你陪我看海
海那麼藍 我 又好像不應該把你想得有點壞
壞的是我 發現不知不覺 不見到你不是很習慣
你的眼神裡 好像也期待
期待 不一樣的未來
第一天 我存在 第一次呼吸暢快
站在地上的腳踝 因為你而有真實感
第一天 我存在 第一次能飛起來
愛是騰空的魔幻 第一天的純真色彩它總是 永遠 那麼 燦爛
藍色的海 海上的雲 雲的那端 不轉彎 是未來
你說活在明天 活在期待 不如活得今天很自在
我說我懂了 會不會太快
未來 第一天要展開
第一天 我存在 第一次呼吸暢快
站在地上的腳踝 因為你而有真實感
第一天 我存在 第一次能飛起來
愛是騰空的魔幻 第一天的純真色彩它總是 永遠 那麼 燦爛
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Self-improvements.
I finally got to do some simple artwork last night drawing sakura blossoms showers from the cover page of my TIME magazine titled "The Making of the Geisha".
I guess my artwork is not bad bah... though it is still abit amateurish... Its a start to work hard to improve my storyboarding and scritpwriting skills, right?
Anyway, I also started to do some reading up on scritpwriting. But I first, I had to start from scratch on revising all the basic techniques and the ways of scriptwriting.
So I went all the way to the Library @ Esplanades after work. I found a book titled Scriptwriting 101. Its really like a revision, but I've leart a bit more.
I also discovered that actually the book contains wisdom to how one can lead his or her life and how to deal with problems.
Cos' the way of storywriting is just like the way one person live his or her life.
After all, life is drama, and drama is life.
That's why humans loves to listen or watch stories. Cos' people could be related to the characters in those stories, and they could learn from the stories. It is a form of avoidance and escapism to put oneself into the shoes of someone elses' stories.
: )
I finally got to do some simple artwork last night drawing sakura blossoms showers from the cover page of my TIME magazine titled "The Making of the Geisha".
I guess my artwork is not bad bah... though it is still abit amateurish... Its a start to work hard to improve my storyboarding and scritpwriting skills, right?
Sakura blossoms are my favourites flowers of hope... They're like angels from the Heavens...
Anyway, I also started to do some reading up on scritpwriting. But I first, I had to start from scratch on revising all the basic techniques and the ways of scriptwriting.
So I went all the way to the Library @ Esplanades after work. I found a book titled Scriptwriting 101. Its really like a revision, but I've leart a bit more.
I also discovered that actually the book contains wisdom to how one can lead his or her life and how to deal with problems.
Cos' the way of storywriting is just like the way one person live his or her life.
After all, life is drama, and drama is life.
That's why humans loves to listen or watch stories. Cos' people could be related to the characters in those stories, and they could learn from the stories. It is a form of avoidance and escapism to put oneself into the shoes of someone elses' stories.
: )
Tuesday, November 15, 2005
Time to Imagine.
Finally... I'm able to get my PhotoShop image editing program back online. I can now start to do my creative expressions.
Its even better now that my sis' digital camera is back too... from the U.S. after her boyfriend took it for a overseas work trip there. I finally can go for some snapping spree.
Then later have some digital image alterations.
: )
I've also started on my own artistic self-improvement work. Since my story-scripting and storyboarding works is not really that good last time, I thought it would be good to start to read off some stylo-milo English action comics, which I could borrow from my comic fanatic cousin.
From there, maybe can inspire my ways of drawings and I can start practising some techniques bah.
But the thing is... I pray it is not one of my 3-minute heat passion... LOL.
Finally... I'm able to get my PhotoShop image editing program back online. I can now start to do my creative expressions.
Its even better now that my sis' digital camera is back too... from the U.S. after her boyfriend took it for a overseas work trip there. I finally can go for some snapping spree.
Then later have some digital image alterations.
: )
I've also started on my own artistic self-improvement work. Since my story-scripting and storyboarding works is not really that good last time, I thought it would be good to start to read off some stylo-milo English action comics, which I could borrow from my comic fanatic cousin.
From there, maybe can inspire my ways of drawings and I can start practising some techniques bah.
But the thing is... I pray it is not one of my 3-minute heat passion... LOL.
Monday, November 14, 2005
Tiling Up, Splurge + Feast!
Nicey weekend, last week. Although having failed attempts to blade with Miss Linda for that couple of days to let myself get sporty.
It is still not bad having to sit around to play a whole day of mahjong at Ros' house with the usual people on Saturday. Though losing some money, I think of that as buying some great fun from a social activity.
Sunday was even more lazy as I slept late till the noon and had a big fat dinner the the Suntec's Marche Restaurant for just $6 but having to feast a great variety of dishes!
*Burp!* Hope I wouldn't get fat cos' I still have another IPPT physical fitness test next week! Time to train harder!
I also had a small shopping spree buying some clothes and a music album named "Home" by The Corrs when I was around in the big town.
Looks like I need to curb some of my shopping temptations. I can splurge quite a sum without thinking too much but just enjoy it. Haha. But frankly speaking, I didn't really spend that much ever since my shopping days in Taiwan.
Or am I too kiam siap on my spending or should I spend more?
Hee... : P
Nicey weekend, last week. Although having failed attempts to blade with Miss Linda for that couple of days to let myself get sporty.
It is still not bad having to sit around to play a whole day of mahjong at Ros' house with the usual people on Saturday. Though losing some money, I think of that as buying some great fun from a social activity.
Sunday was even more lazy as I slept late till the noon and had a big fat dinner the the Suntec's Marche Restaurant for just $6 but having to feast a great variety of dishes!
*Burp!* Hope I wouldn't get fat cos' I still have another IPPT physical fitness test next week! Time to train harder!
I also had a small shopping spree buying some clothes and a music album named "Home" by The Corrs when I was around in the big town.
Looks like I need to curb some of my shopping temptations. I can splurge quite a sum without thinking too much but just enjoy it. Haha. But frankly speaking, I didn't really spend that much ever since my shopping days in Taiwan.
Or am I too kiam siap on my spending or should I spend more?
Hee... : P
Friday, November 11, 2005
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6!
Last night, I went to watch my long-awaited horror film, The Exorcism of Emily Rose! The movie is certainly one of best English horror film I've seen so far.
I went to watch it with a whole bunch of people, Vel's usual friends. I got acquainted another two new fresh face dudes.
Anyway, the movie was surprisingly not scary at all, but the horror suspense build-up was definitely stressful for all who were preparing to get themselves
scared. It was doing so well that one of the dude went to the exit doors for a breather...
Wendy was scared till she was like hiding behind Vel's curly hair...?
The movie doesn't scares you, but it plants the fear of what Emily Rose is dealing with and shows you that supernatural demons exist.
I'll give this movie an 8 out of 10 for a-must-watch rating!
Personal Opinion on the Good and the Evil:
So if you ask me whether demons and ghosts exist, I will say they do. But so far I've never see one, thankfully.
I believe in ghost becos' I want to believe that I'll still exist and there is still "life" after death. Maybe I did see ghosts, but I always treat them like humans. So not all ghosts are all bad, after all they lived as humans who also consist of good and evil.
As for demons, I think they are our inner evils we must overcome everyday.
Some evil is neccessary. Just as we would need to do mistakes to learn.
If there are really demonic entities around, I think they would like to possess in the most extremely kind and good people. Why? I think that because it is some sort of a "balance" in every living soul. Nothing can be too good or too bad till it is "pure".
If it is "pure", it was to be either God himself and Satan the devil, who are the purest forms.
As we know, nothing in this world is perfect.
The cleanest things will still be at least a little dirty no matter what. And the ugliest things with always have an undiscovered beauty in them.
So in life, nothing is absolute, so we must always figure out how to do the best of the balance everyday.
Last night, I went to watch my long-awaited horror film, The Exorcism of Emily Rose! The movie is certainly one of best English horror film I've seen so far.
I went to watch it with a whole bunch of people, Vel's usual friends. I got acquainted another two new fresh face dudes.
Anyway, the movie was surprisingly not scary at all, but the horror suspense build-up was definitely stressful for all who were preparing to get themselves
scared. It was doing so well that one of the dude went to the exit doors for a breather...
Wendy was scared till she was like hiding behind Vel's curly hair...?
The movie doesn't scares you, but it plants the fear of what Emily Rose is dealing with and shows you that supernatural demons exist.
I'll give this movie an 8 out of 10 for a-must-watch rating!
Personal Opinion on the Good and the Evil:
So if you ask me whether demons and ghosts exist, I will say they do. But so far I've never see one, thankfully.
I believe in ghost becos' I want to believe that I'll still exist and there is still "life" after death. Maybe I did see ghosts, but I always treat them like humans. So not all ghosts are all bad, after all they lived as humans who also consist of good and evil.
As for demons, I think they are our inner evils we must overcome everyday.
Some evil is neccessary. Just as we would need to do mistakes to learn.
If there are really demonic entities around, I think they would like to possess in the most extremely kind and good people. Why? I think that because it is some sort of a "balance" in every living soul. Nothing can be too good or too bad till it is "pure".
If it is "pure", it was to be either God himself and Satan the devil, who are the purest forms.
As we know, nothing in this world is perfect.
The cleanest things will still be at least a little dirty no matter what. And the ugliest things with always have an undiscovered beauty in them.
So in life, nothing is absolute, so we must always figure out how to do the best of the balance everyday.
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
I'm better cos' I've got great advices.
I am fine now. I've reorganise my mood and I'm at least 65% back to myself.
What what was wrong with me. Perhaps some I'm having my PMT (thinks its Pre-Male Tension in full, something that is like a woman's PMS) or something.
I've felt better with my friends talking me out of it and I appreciated their great advice. You know who you are, I'll say, "Thank you."
And *muackz!* this is for my cousin Vel...!
The rest of my friends can just shake hands... Or else there'll be misunderstandings and rumours again...
: )
Anyway, here's another advice from my Friendster astrology which I think its quite true what I need:
"You've had it with being nice. It might have been one too many tough days lately, or maybe that phone call from someone who knows just how to irritate you. Regardless, you need a vacation."
Perhaps the bugger phone call isn't true, but I'll be sure to hang it up if it comes.
As for the vacation, I'm not sure I'm going to have one soon but I hope I'll just drown myself in happiness situation. Like getting to some nice beach and enjoy the blue sea and waves... I'll feel so great then...
But as for nowadays, I'm just burying myself in my mundane work even though I'm not suppose to be working to keep all the unhappy things off my mind.
And I've been thinking of getting into some outside job to earn for money for my dreams and future... But I gotta need some capital...
Hope I can figure it out.
Hmm...
I am fine now. I've reorganise my mood and I'm at least 65% back to myself.
What what was wrong with me. Perhaps some I'm having my PMT (thinks its Pre-Male Tension in full, something that is like a woman's PMS) or something.
I've felt better with my friends talking me out of it and I appreciated their great advice. You know who you are, I'll say, "Thank you."
And *muackz!* this is for my cousin Vel...!
The rest of my friends can just shake hands... Or else there'll be misunderstandings and rumours again...
: )
Anyway, here's another advice from my Friendster astrology which I think its quite true what I need:
"You've had it with being nice. It might have been one too many tough days lately, or maybe that phone call from someone who knows just how to irritate you. Regardless, you need a vacation."
Perhaps the bugger phone call isn't true, but I'll be sure to hang it up if it comes.
As for the vacation, I'm not sure I'm going to have one soon but I hope I'll just drown myself in happiness situation. Like getting to some nice beach and enjoy the blue sea and waves... I'll feel so great then...
But as for nowadays, I'm just burying myself in my mundane work even though I'm not suppose to be working to keep all the unhappy things off my mind.
And I've been thinking of getting into some outside job to earn for money for my dreams and future... But I gotta need some capital...
Hope I can figure it out.
Hmm...
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
Unhappy.
Did I say that I was on an issue and it was lame...?
Guess it was not... I later found it to be a wild fire of rumours due to just a misunderstanding...
I kind of over-reacted to it... Cos' I worry about how any individual feel about me... and to protect myself... But to get the best of these both, I over-reacted... I became pretty upset over it...
I am unhappy... Simply because I wasn't understand... nor I'm given a chance to explain... or to do any other thing as to ask for certain forgiveness that I might have done wrong or to hurt...
It was that same fear again. A fear of losing someone I know. I hated to face this again, something I had before one and a half years ago, in the end, I've hurt myself... almost totally... It was an emotionaly and psychological turmoil.
Cos' I've learnt that, people around you could simply dissappear forever in just an instance... Even if you're just acquaintances... So as hard as I've tried I want to treasure every each of them...
Perhaps I couldn't have all in the world... Is it really that some people that is just not meant for me to be cared about... and I should just give up?
As far as I know I've even learnt to patch up peace with my enemies... But it is always so hard... I'm not great... But I am trying...
Perhaps patience and forgetting everything will help, a friend says...
I hope so...
I'm so psychologically and emotionally tired...
: /
Did I say that I was on an issue and it was lame...?
Guess it was not... I later found it to be a wild fire of rumours due to just a misunderstanding...
I kind of over-reacted to it... Cos' I worry about how any individual feel about me... and to protect myself... But to get the best of these both, I over-reacted... I became pretty upset over it...
I am unhappy... Simply because I wasn't understand... nor I'm given a chance to explain... or to do any other thing as to ask for certain forgiveness that I might have done wrong or to hurt...
It was that same fear again. A fear of losing someone I know. I hated to face this again, something I had before one and a half years ago, in the end, I've hurt myself... almost totally... It was an emotionaly and psychological turmoil.
Cos' I've learnt that, people around you could simply dissappear forever in just an instance... Even if you're just acquaintances... So as hard as I've tried I want to treasure every each of them...
Perhaps I couldn't have all in the world... Is it really that some people that is just not meant for me to be cared about... and I should just give up?
As far as I know I've even learnt to patch up peace with my enemies... But it is always so hard... I'm not great... But I am trying...
Perhaps patience and forgetting everything will help, a friend says...
I hope so...
I'm so psychologically and emotionally tired...
: /
Monday, November 07, 2005
1 + 3
Yupz. I went clubbing again on Saturday night. But actually its more like going pubbing bah.
I went with my new friend June, along with her is her two friends, Andy and Cheryl.
Went to ChinaBlack at around ten to chill. It was really the first time I've seen the club so empty without people at that time. So, we all started drinking and played bar games. It was fun, I normally don't play so much bar games before.
We also dance a little bit. But the crowd ambience just wasn't there...
After, I went Cheeky Monkeys (CM) at the Mohammed Sultan with Cheryl after leaving ChinaBlack as there's too little crowd at the ChinaBlack. Andy and June went home.
Now, I understand why they went home instead of continuing to night's fun.
Frankly speaking, though CM has alot of crowd. I am generally not comfortableble with it. Cos' there's too many Indian and Melayus, and the crowd could be too young for me, which I am not use to.
I prefer a more mature crowd. I can socialise and could talk life and business.
But I drank quite alot that night. In fact, I've never drank so much in my nite outz before.
After leaving, I parted my ways with Cheryl and her friends. I was really damn tipsy then. But I was misunderstood for an action I didn't even do at that time.
Hmm... Maybe I shouldn't borrow her as a balancing support when my knee wound wet by sweat is sticking my Levi's pants and saying goodbye to her ear at the same time.
Sounds lame, but let's just end this issue this way...
Yupz. I went clubbing again on Saturday night. But actually its more like going pubbing bah.
I went with my new friend June, along with her is her two friends, Andy and Cheryl.
Went to ChinaBlack at around ten to chill. It was really the first time I've seen the club so empty without people at that time. So, we all started drinking and played bar games. It was fun, I normally don't play so much bar games before.
We also dance a little bit. But the crowd ambience just wasn't there...
After, I went Cheeky Monkeys (CM) at the Mohammed Sultan with Cheryl after leaving ChinaBlack as there's too little crowd at the ChinaBlack. Andy and June went home.
Now, I understand why they went home instead of continuing to night's fun.
Frankly speaking, though CM has alot of crowd. I am generally not comfortableble with it. Cos' there's too many Indian and Melayus, and the crowd could be too young for me, which I am not use to.
I prefer a more mature crowd. I can socialise and could talk life and business.
But I drank quite alot that night. In fact, I've never drank so much in my nite outz before.
After leaving, I parted my ways with Cheryl and her friends. I was really damn tipsy then. But I was misunderstood for an action I didn't even do at that time.
Hmm... Maybe I shouldn't borrow her as a balancing support when my knee wound wet by sweat is sticking my Levi's pants and saying goodbye to her ear at the same time.
Sounds lame, but let's just end this issue this way...
Saturday, November 05, 2005
Guru Day.
I came back this morning after yesterday's whole day of redundant office duty in camp.
After going home in the early morning, I went to pack up for my swimming session with my two friends cum coaching swimming lesson for one of them.
But my friends was late.
Coaching my friend to swimm properly was quite difficult but I tried my best...
The best part of the day at the pool was still the short tanning session.
After that, we went to have lunch together and heading to Jurong Point to window shop a while.
There after I went back to Chinese Garden to pick up a friend and fetch him to my home to do some dance coaching, or should I say teach some positive dancefloor psychology. I couldn't teach him any moves as he wasn't as open as I am, so I gave him some mental skills psychoing and ask him to practice at home.
: )
Duty Day.
Yesterday, "TGIF" is my duty day.
Did nothing but slack during the day-yime of my duty because there were the office clerks working for the day. I'm like a receptionist operating the phone to pick up the office calls then transfer to them. But actually, most of the time, they transfer and get the phone calls themselves.
The clerks and I were playing games on a computer most of the day when there's no work. We even ordered Canadian pizza to our camp for lunch.
As for the night, it was just a night on my own and then, I went to sleep.
I wonder is there anything else progressive for myself to do other than the normal things I do or just slacking my time off in my NSF life?
I JUST CAN'T STAND PROGRESSION COMING TO A STANDSTILL!
I came back this morning after yesterday's whole day of redundant office duty in camp.
After going home in the early morning, I went to pack up for my swimming session with my two friends cum coaching swimming lesson for one of them.
But my friends was late.
Coaching my friend to swimm properly was quite difficult but I tried my best...
The best part of the day at the pool was still the short tanning session.
After that, we went to have lunch together and heading to Jurong Point to window shop a while.
There after I went back to Chinese Garden to pick up a friend and fetch him to my home to do some dance coaching, or should I say teach some positive dancefloor psychology. I couldn't teach him any moves as he wasn't as open as I am, so I gave him some mental skills psychoing and ask him to practice at home.
: )
Duty Day.
Yesterday, "TGIF" is my duty day.
Did nothing but slack during the day-yime of my duty because there were the office clerks working for the day. I'm like a receptionist operating the phone to pick up the office calls then transfer to them. But actually, most of the time, they transfer and get the phone calls themselves.
The clerks and I were playing games on a computer most of the day when there's no work. We even ordered Canadian pizza to our camp for lunch.
As for the night, it was just a night on my own and then, I went to sleep.
I wonder is there anything else progressive for myself to do other than the normal things I do or just slacking my time off in my NSF life?
I JUST CAN'T STAND PROGRESSION COMING TO A STANDSTILL!
Friday, November 04, 2005
In Search of Serenity of the Heart...
Its been a great day yesterday, going out to do some relax biking, laid back to enjoy the sea-breeze and watch my friends having fun.
It is definitely nice to take that kind of breather by the sea at the East Coast, as I've been feeling kind of down recently.
These past few days' series of unlucky or boring events ranging from a small physical injury near the knee, big lost in mahjong, missing gold for my physical fitness test, unable to get into a packed Club MoMo and missing a possible good nite's fun on Hari Raya along with Vel, Gen, Wendy and Greg. The most confused and lost question of all, is the matter pertaining to the heart...
To my heart, I didn't know how to feel or how to act. Is it because I didn't do anything to progress for the answer I needed, or because I already did something undevoted that proved that the fated one for me is not that person.
I'm not sure. I don't know.
Cos' the feeling of solicitude is just not there. The anxiety was just a little bit. Maybe I'm just hallucinating for an infatuation and I've could have made a mistake.
But well, anyway what's bad is over and its time to move forward.
: )
It is fun to be accompanied by cousin Vel and her trio of cute girl friends interacting and at play with each other.
This bunch of sisters really enjoyed their day.
Gen is really funny making a joke outta herself, and so is Wendy too who preyed Vel to become the victim of her jokes. Jo was bored while she was with me while the rest kayaked but I'm sorry that I'm not really the best of moods for anything enthusiastic that time...
... I was just yearning for some serenity of my heart, looking at the nice specularities glimmering in the waters on the setting sun...
: >
After the East Coast trip, we headed to Marina South for a steamboat buffet feast!
I had my stomach filled full, especially with the prawns. *Burp!* It was one of the biggest steamboat buffet I had for my stomach!
Anyway, I am thankful that the girls made my day so that I have a good night sleep!
Its been a great day yesterday, going out to do some relax biking, laid back to enjoy the sea-breeze and watch my friends having fun.
It is definitely nice to take that kind of breather by the sea at the East Coast, as I've been feeling kind of down recently.
These past few days' series of unlucky or boring events ranging from a small physical injury near the knee, big lost in mahjong, missing gold for my physical fitness test, unable to get into a packed Club MoMo and missing a possible good nite's fun on Hari Raya along with Vel, Gen, Wendy and Greg. The most confused and lost question of all, is the matter pertaining to the heart...
To my heart, I didn't know how to feel or how to act. Is it because I didn't do anything to progress for the answer I needed, or because I already did something undevoted that proved that the fated one for me is not that person.
I'm not sure. I don't know.
Cos' the feeling of solicitude is just not there. The anxiety was just a little bit. Maybe I'm just hallucinating for an infatuation and I've could have made a mistake.
But well, anyway what's bad is over and its time to move forward.
: )
It is fun to be accompanied by cousin Vel and her trio of cute girl friends interacting and at play with each other.
This bunch of sisters really enjoyed their day.
Gen is really funny making a joke outta herself, and so is Wendy too who preyed Vel to become the victim of her jokes. Jo was bored while she was with me while the rest kayaked but I'm sorry that I'm not really the best of moods for anything enthusiastic that time...
... I was just yearning for some serenity of my heart, looking at the nice specularities glimmering in the waters on the setting sun...
: >
After the East Coast trip, we headed to Marina South for a steamboat buffet feast!
I had my stomach filled full, especially with the prawns. *Burp!* It was one of the biggest steamboat buffet I had for my stomach!
Anyway, I am thankful that the girls made my day so that I have a good night sleep!
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
Onz or Offz Dayz?
Didn't I say that I was suppose to be on a WHOLE week of breaking away from work for this week?
Well, I can kiss it bye-bye.
The break plan kinda of didn't work out. I was recalled for some work for tomorrow and... I have been appointed for a "Thank Goodness Its Friday" duty.
Oh, what the heck. I'll just have to do it.
I can't do anything to change it anyway.
Life's like that, nothing's perfect.
Anyway, I'm kinda tight on my budget, which is over-budget already. I didn't plan for this week's holidays or off days budget (which I am surprised that I could forget such precious commodity such as public holidays in the army). So I guess the best thing is still to work now to spend off the times or I'll be so so bored at home.
Now, I'm always singing and singing to my albums I've bought. It is like practising for some big singing competition. But what the heck, I love it and its relaxing singing while looking at the wonderful clouds outside my window.
I hope to do something else more exciting.
But will it happen? Looks like I'm going to do something... soon.
Didn't I say that I was suppose to be on a WHOLE week of breaking away from work for this week?
Well, I can kiss it bye-bye.
The break plan kinda of didn't work out. I was recalled for some work for tomorrow and... I have been appointed for a "Thank Goodness Its Friday" duty.
Oh, what the heck. I'll just have to do it.
I can't do anything to change it anyway.
Life's like that, nothing's perfect.
Anyway, I'm kinda tight on my budget, which is over-budget already. I didn't plan for this week's holidays or off days budget (which I am surprised that I could forget such precious commodity such as public holidays in the army). So I guess the best thing is still to work now to spend off the times or I'll be so so bored at home.
Now, I'm always singing and singing to my albums I've bought. It is like practising for some big singing competition. But what the heck, I love it and its relaxing singing while looking at the wonderful clouds outside my window.
I hope to do something else more exciting.
But will it happen? Looks like I'm going to do something... soon.
