Grizzly Bear.

Today is a pretty much rest day for me. Been working catering for the past two days. I was tired as I didn't really have enough sleep. I'm not used to getting less than 7 hours of sleep bah.

Guess I'm getting old. Lol.

Anyway, today isn't a total rest day for me, need to work on the webby design for the catering also. But I felt so crap about that because they still want me to work part-time for them. How am I going to complete their webby project ASAP?

Yeh, I can plan time to do it but I rather finish it at one perfect go.

~~~~~

I am pretty hyper today and it was since yesterday night, in which I felt the urge to do dance workout in my room then. I don't know why I am so hyper.

Woke up early this morning for a jog. I work on my freelance project in the afternoon and got to do my haircut and yes, a new hair colour.

Now my hair colour resemble's that of a grizzly bear. I like it.

I wouldn't show any pictures of my new hair-do cos' my hair colour is hard to see without strong lighting while taking the pic. So to see my new hair-do, you'll have to catch me "live".

: P

Misunderstandings Can Be Destructive.

Almost kanna "kiap" between a problem of two friends.

Wah piang.

Miss S. got a misunderstanding with Mr. W. From me, an outsider point of view, its just a plain misunderstanding.

I understand Mr W.'s position as he was so innocent. He didn't even know there was such a misunderstanding of such an incident in the first place, when I asked him about it. Been into a similar situation like that before, so I understand how Mr. W feels.

Of course, I also understand how Miss S. feels in terms of her simple thinking but it was certainly unfair to Mr W. without his knowledge of such a misunderstanding problem in the first place. Somemore, there was no tell tale signs to him at all.

Its even more unfair to judge a person due to a small misunderstanding incident. In which, in the end, it will definite hurt friendship,especially when you are not listening to opposite party's point of view.

To Miss S., what she wanted might be a simple thing that is easily fulfill, to Mr. W, it was not. Mr W. got his other own responsibility. Miss S., took the thing too seriously without putting herself in Mr W.'s shoes.

Folks, I hate to sound like a sexist here but please, woman, got any problems with a man hor, please tell them, say it out and solve it ASAP! And please don't let problem snowball.

Snowball can become avalanche. Trust me.

Give Like A Saint 0:)

I had a tired but wonderful day today : )

My day started with a visit with my paternal family members to the Buddhist temple, where we had a vegetarian lunch. Met my older cousins Ah Qian, Ah Cong and Ah Suan, my "newfound" youngest uncle and my eldest aunt and her husband.

At the Buddhist temple, we also offered our respects to our grandmother whose ashes is placed there. I gave some donations to the temple in a gratitude of my recent good luck blessed on me.

Had a nice meal and a nice chat with Ah Qian, whom was still concern with my career path as I am just like him then, a multimedia designer.

I left the lunch gathering early and I headed to town.

~~~~~

I went to meet up with my good FRIEND, Zane.

I really had a great and enjoyable day with her.

Its been a long time I had a one-on-one chill-out day with a friend.

Though Zane and I chat with each other every night, we sure missed each other's animated faces, surprisingly we have seen each other "live" for about a month plus.

And as usual, the normal nonsense doesn't seem to stop :P

We had a small lunch at Ya Kun's before we went to catch the movie Norbit together at The Cathay. And I am glad we both a had a good laugh at it. Its been long I had such a laughter out of a comedy film. Love Eddie Murphy's crap.

After the movie, we went for our shopping. We walked around at The Cathay's mall first, where I got a new black metallic ring from Metallurgy, which cost half with a 50% discount only.

After that we headed down too Plaza Singapura, where we have more shopping. Zane got hew two new pairs of shoes at M)phosis, why I got I a small RipCurl waist pouch at Flash N Splash for small items carried. Been having "complains" from my other friends why I am like going for a tour with my big crumpler bag everywhere, even though I have nothing much inside. Lol. Anyway, the new waist pouch offers better comfort of carry my items than my Deuter one. Good for trips like rollerblading and other outdoor activities.

After shopping we went for dinner at Ichiban Sushi, where we had a nice meal of variety of sushis and other Japanese dishes. Taught to eat red ginger and green soya beans. Too bad we missed the fun of selection our food at belt as most of our dishes are ordered and served beforehand as we had no initial seatings at the belt. But still we had a great meal which was filling.

Next, I brought Zane down to the National Museam to explore. Though I had seen the place and galleries before, I am glad to see her enjoying the sights of the place and exhibits. At some galleries, it was pretty creepy, as most of the galleries are dark... But we know we were safe with each other, unless I run away first :P

Naughty Zane kept on taking pictures of the
exhibits even though it was not allowed.

We exited the museam on to the front lawn just in time to enjoy the fireworks which peeked above buildings beyond off the Marina Bay.

That building is on "FIRE"!

After all the exploring, we went to chill and continued with more of our chit-chat at a nearby Coffee Bean.

Talk-cock at Coffee Bean.

It has been a great long day with FRIEND indeed : )

(All photographs taken by cheeky Zane)

~~~~~

Argh.. Sianz.. Gotta work tomorrow Xp

"Fa!"

Lunar Calendar: 1st Month, Day 7 "Chu Qi" or "Ren Ri" (The birthday of all mankind). I went to "Lao Yu Sheng" with Hong Yun, Chee Wee, Shiling, Huimin and Alvin, during dinner time just now, in celebration of the traditional "Ren Ri", in which to celebrate the living of all humans.

We did have fun "Laoing" the food stuff, made a mess out of the coffee shop table. Haha.

After the dinner, we went to Huimin's eldest sister's house to have some social gambling with her brother-in-law, Weikang.

I can't believe my luck is so good this Chinese New Year. I won quite a sum tonight, winning more money yet again, but this time I was playing blackjack.

I kept on winning that my friends can't believe my good luck either, when they see my cards. They even started to "invest" their money on my cards. And they also had good returns of course.

In my heart, I didn't had the idea of wanting to win more money. I just wanted some social entertainment with my friends to kill time for this weekend.

Even when going to visit Huimin's siter's house, I forgot that I had to visit house. I idiotically forgot to bring my "kum" (double mandarin oranges) as my well-wish blessings. Damn me.

All visitors including my friends and Weikang's friends won Weikang's money. In my heart I felt so paiseh enough that I didn't bring my mandarin oranges as my blessings. Now I had even win his money, and looking at his wife, Huimin's sister who is pregnant and is due soon, I felt even more paiseh.

To make all this up, I have specially prepared a relatively big ang pow for the birth of their baby when she arrive.

(^_^)

Fun Satisfaction Level.

Just came back from another mahjong with Huimin, Chee wee and not Johnson this time but new mahjong kaki, Derrick.

I am the biggest winner again, but actually won just a small sum. I did enjoy the session but the satisfaction level of fun still doesn't make me go hype.

I know I am a fun-lover, not a gambling addict. So, maybe I needed some other activity.

I feel like going out with my friends and just have a fun day at the beacjh or something in the sun.

Definitely not gourge-yourself-silly dinner, which is not "productive" in a sense that it is expensive just to gourge youself silly like that, from my point of view. And that was what I had.

Before my mahjong session, I went to meet up with old poly pals Kent and Joseph, and we had dinner at Pizza Hut restaurant at Jurong Point. We ate so full that we couldn't finsih the very last slice of pizza, as wee oreded two large pans for three. *Burp!*

I rather have an expensive romantic dinner than a gourge-yourself-silly dinner.

I really, really want to go beach with my friends, or go wakeboarding.. but.. found no common kakis yet. Linda and hubby got their wake just before CNY and they didn't jio me (Argh!).

Now I just want to go out relax and have some fun with some friends under the sun.. But I doubt anyopne would be free to do so as they most probably would be performing house visit for CNY.

Sianzz..

So hard to get friends out on weekend nowadays..

Cold Morning..

Woke up real early this morning today. Had to give wake up call for FRIEND again. But I guessed she's too tired and prefers to sleep more.

Today, I also got to go for my part-time catering again. Its been about a week that I have woke up so early to work outside.

I'm not really used to waking up so early. Even when I wake up for jogs, it'll still be a couple of hours later than this.

I've also been working at home doing the catering company's website project's detail plans for a couple of days. Today is to show them the details and see what they want and discuss about what they want and what they really need.

Life as a freelance worker provides a lot of freedom, but it requires a lot of self-discipline to deliver and achieve. But anyway, I am having a balanced lifestyle now between work and play. I also finally got my butt to wake up and run the day before and work out at home yesterday also.

Trying to stay healthy, also trying to tone my body so I can go diving in a nice-looking body. CNY days sure is "dangerous" times to get fatter.

Talking about play, the day before yesterday was a full day of mahjong. Today after work I'll also be having another one.. Guess my friends wanted "revenge". I seriously been making a killing out of them for the past few sessions.

Oh well, got to run.

My nose still hurts and swells from a pimple inside my nostril I think. The cold morning also made my nose run.. Sickening..

Happy Chinese Piggy New Year!

I sure have lots of stories to tell you about my new year days spent in Malaysia. They were not very exciting, not too boring either.

The only boring part is about the "new", that you'll never be the same again as in the past. I have grown up.

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Chinese New Year Day Eve. Woke up earlier than I wanted to be after a night of clubbing.. Pretty tiring.

During late morning, my family and I headed for a restaurant at Jurong East Central for a reunion lunch instead of dinner.

My "missing" uncle, whom never been really in part of my family life was there too. He was very hard to remember, I didn't recognised him again at this reunion dinner.

Vel arrived late due to work. But Dear Vel gave me my belated birthday gift, the only material birthday gift I got this year. The gift is shirt of my favourite brand, TopMan. Wow, so many new year tops this year. Hehe.

After I got home, I got to play my computer game and work a bit on the freelance project before I went to sleep. Damn tired. Had to "shou shui" that very night after I go into Malaysia.

Lunar Calendar: 1st Month, Day 1 "Chu Yi". Was on my way into Malaysia then, in my 7th uncle's car.

The most beautiful things that happened along the way was the illegal fireworks, like those you see on National Day, in which they disperse high up in the skies in a very dark and clear night. the skies were so clear, and the nigh is so dark without the city lights, that you can see those beautiful stars shining like diamonds on a piece of black paper.

I reached my 7th uncle's home where my grandma lived that very night. Most of her children (13 minus 4 = 9 present at my grandma's house), grandchildren (many argh! lost count!) and great-grandchild (my newest nephew!) were there for her.



Not alot of celebration like before. But you can immediately feel there is a family bond among all of us.

After the night, we went to sleep.

During the day, there was nothing much. It was raining heavily a while and then a very hot sun.

There was nothing to do for the eldest (including me) among all of the cousins. We left the youngest playing the computer games in my 7th uncle's room and headed for my 6th aunt's shophouse to relax watch TV or simply just take an afternoon nappy.

Had an afternoon tea session with my parents and my 3rd aunt (and her hubby whom I called, David Uncle) with my cousins JiaVei, JiaYi and JiaYen.

After, we all gathered at my 6th aunt's shophouse, a beautician parlour and had a story listening session.

Lunar Calendar: 1st Month, Day 2 "Chu Er". Nothing to do as the day before. Many of my close extended families went to visit "niang jia".

The day was pretty boring. Nothing to do except play with my handphone games. The nicest little thing was looking at the nice clouds, which seem to be floating higher than the ones I see in Singapore.

The only thing that was the key event of the day was the arrival of my sis and my bro-in-law to-be from Singapore.

The evening was basically having dinner and after, vist my grandma's old neighbours, who opened a grocery store beside my old grandma's attap house then.

At a later evening, we went shopping at a nearby, newly opened supermarket to buy groceries back to Singapore. We also had supper.

Lunar Calendar: 1st Month, Day 3 "Chu San". My last day in Malaysia is better than the previous days. Because we had lots of activities with my 7th uncle.

First, we went to a non-GMO leisure farm near Kluang, which mainly produces the tasteless but nutritious dragon fruit. They also rear fresh water fishes, and other potential non-GMO fresh produce.

We had breakfast at there. Then I accompanied my little cousins to feed the fishies. We also took a short walk around the farm. Nothing much as we stayed in the shade as the day was getting hot going into noon time. All I saw was knolls of dragon fruit plants. Anyway, quite relaxing place for Singaporean urbanites indeed.

Next stop was heading down to Batu Pahat's newest shopping mall, aptly named, Batu Pahat Shopping Mall, where we did some shopping again. The mall was big as IMM.

I was quite eager to shop for some small gifts for my friends back in Singapore, but sadly I didn't changed any Malaysian currency in the first place. Didn't like to borrow from my dad and neither there was an ATM working for me to withdraw cash.

In the end, I didn't buy anything. What a pity.

After that, we went down Ocean Restaurant at the Summit Shopping Centre also in Batu Pahat. It was one of the few places in Johor where there is a cinema said my uncle. Had a nice meal.

After all the activities, we headed back to my grandma's house in Simpang Renggam. And we were prepared to packed up our luggages to head back to Singapore.

I'm sure going to miss my family there. But I look forward my next visit back there.

On our way back home in my bro-in-law to-be's car, we got into a congestion at the highway immediately after we went in. We thought there was another accident as we already saw plenty of "buanged" cars at the police station at my grandma's town.

But there was no accident! Just Plenty of kay-po drivers driving pass slowly a rest-&-relax point, where some other cars stopped at the road shoulders due to inadequate parking lots. What the hell..

But still, it is still noticeable that there were plenty of "buanged" cars around. Those which couldn't moved were pulled by tow trucks. Some "buanged" at the backside or the front of the car. At times, you see two "buanged" cars damged at respectatively at the front and back. It made you wonder whether they just had one together.

Anyway, glad I am lucky to survive Malaysia without any incident, as it is the top nation with the highest car accident rate in Asia.

Happy Bear Birthday! (Part II)

Now that I'm back from Malaysia, let me continue my birthday story then I go into my CNY stories. Hehe.

~~~~~

As I said, I went MoS with Janet and Alex.

All you can see in MoS :P

Though I did felt something was missing during the clubbing, that kind of fun I had with my old group. This old group was formed because of someone, with that someone, and it ended without her too.

Alex and I thought it was a pity that the group ended. We didn't felt treasured becos' of something she said. We felt we easily replaced. We were just activity partners, after all..

Anyway, I didn't want to let my friends down as there was only the two of them. And I really wanted them to enjoy as I am grateful enough that they give me face to come a such a "crap" celebration.

I did intend to make a big clubbing party last minute on that afternoon by using a clubbing birthday package that I can use in MoS for 8 people with two bottles of spirits, one bottle of champagne and 8 shots of some cocktail. I was prepare to spend and treat.

But sadly, I didn't got enough people to join me. There were people who were sick (and got banned by his girlfriend to drink that night. Lol), busy with work and other reasons.

So in the end, I got to save money (Hehe). I treated the very two lucky people who were able to make my night. They got plenty of drinks, three jugs, all on me : )

And this is what happen to my friends who have been there : P

Though I wasn't having that old feeling of fun, I did quite enjoy watching Alex and Janet playing finger guessing games with each other. I did have fun playing finger guessing games with each other.

We also have fun dancing together. We're the dancers who "twist". We "shake" so well, some crazy fella came to try and join us. We tried to play a joke on that fella by stopping all our movement altogether and see how he reacted. Lol. Janet got her compliments of being a really good "shaker" when I walked past some guys.

Anwyay, I had something better than boredom that night and I thank them ; )

Happy Bear Birthday! (Part I)

Had pretty long days since yesterday but time doesn't seem to get to stop for me. I had to blog this post very last minute before I move my ass going into Malaysia to visit my dear Grandma, aunts and uncles, and a whole horde of cousins.

This might be my fastest typing blog post yet :p

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My birthday almost ended up in as a "sad case". I didn't have any special plans for my birthday. Well, but I should have planned.

As a saying goes, "If you fail to plan, you plan to fail."

It almost did ended in a failure, but it was saved if not for my luck and the loyalty of some good friends : )

Joe asked me out for dinner for my birthday celebration at Takashimaya Shopping Centre. But he didn't turn up because he was waiting for my cousin Vel. Vel was held up at her company's CNY celebration. So loyal lover Joe had to wait for her.

I didn't blame neither of them. I rather Joe love Vel with his whole heart, so he will not fail Vel. Simple. I love my cousin, so I want the person to love her just like I do.

Who saved my dinner then? My good friends Chee Wee and his girlfriend, Shilling, who had tagged along last minute. The orignal Plan B was to dine with these two couples.

But luckily they were there. If Plan A was to be with Vel and Joe and they didn't come, I don't know what to do man.

Anyway, after the dinner with Chee Wee and Shiling, I went MoS and had fun with Alex and Janet...

~~~~~

Shit.. Got to run. No time to blog liao...



:p

Have a great CNY people!

Raining on My Birthday..



Why rain? I want to go out and get hair cut one you know..

Oh well.. Get to keep my long hair a wee-bit longer then : )

Going out for my small celebration (^_^)

好久不見
By 張學友

也許一天再相逢
说声好久不見 沈默了
曾經我打聽過
你最近的生活
忙碌工作之余是否有運動
今天和昨日不同
我不在你身旁
不甘寂寞的你是不是很難過
至于我過得還不錯
不如以前瘋
那一家迪斯科我再也沒去過

天涼了
挂念了
有從前還是好的
這熟透的臉孔
我還真的舍不得
和你的
記住了
雖然將來會塵封
也許一天再相逢
說聲好久不見 沈默了

天涼了
挂念了
有從前還是好的
這熟透的臉孔
我還真的舍不得
和你的
記住了
雖然將來會塵封
也許一天再相逢
說聲好久不見 沈默了

我希望是一片雲朵
飄到你的天空
安安靜靜地望著你是否快樂
只能這樣了
不打擾 你平靜生活
親愛的 我在這 祝你平安喜樂

天涼了
挂念了
有從前還是好的
這熟透的臉孔
我還真的舍不得
和你的
記住了
雖然將來會塵封
也許一天再相逢
說聲好久不見 沈默了

天涼了
挂念了
有從前還是好的
這熟透的臉孔
我還真的舍不得
和你的
記住了
雖然將來會塵封
也許一天再相逢
說聲好久不見 沈默了

~~~~~

Nice song by Jackie Cheung when I heard it at MTV Asia channel. Feel very me. Must get the music track!

Staying Up Late~

Well, well, well. Its my birthday again. And I have absolutely no plans for my own special day. Just see which of my good friends and lovely souls are willing to spend it with me later on in the day.

Feeling so old, I've decided not to waste time anymore and so I stay up a bit longer and longer.

Anyway, I thank my early bird birthday well-wishers. Thank Zane for being my FIRST birthday well-wisher on the clock and timely on the dot. Followed by colleagues Avies and Justine, who was with me working overtime till 12am plus just now.

Not to mention good pal Joe, Mr Darren, and as always, the Superman Birthday Well-Wisher who well-wished every single of his friends every year, Syazali aka The Source. He's such a nice dude. Need to learn from him more.

Worked overtime till late just now. Was doing well, but I got restless on the last fine hours, maybe becos' I know my birthday coming and was wondering "What the hell am I still working?!".

But anyway, its over. And I am glad I have been send home by a lady, Avies, on my birthday : P

Well, better go sleep and be prepared for anything happen tomorrow.

Flowers of Happiness : )



I didn't know the flowers I bought can bring so much joy and commotion for the people who know me and around, especially at my work place.

I am very happy and amused today.

FRIEND had wanted me to send her some flowers on Valentine's Day today. Then I was joking about acting as a flowers delivery person to send to her office. But of course, I know we were just joking and playing around.

But again, this morning I got reminded by her to send her flowers her again.

Anyway being the a kind-hearted person, I had decided to give her flowers when she first asked for it. No special meaning. but I guess for all women, who doesn't want to be receive flowers on this special day.

(After all, FRIEND is especially a very special and unique person herself. And you are lucky to get a rose, FRIEND! Roses are rare and expensive this love season : p Anyway, the key flowers she liked are the small purple ones. Hehe..)

In the end, I didn't manage to send the flowers becos' that sotong most probably didn't know where her work place's street name is, I guess (Wahahaha). But still I got to take a picture of the flowers and send it to her via MMS.

At least I fulfilled what I promised, sent her "flowers". Wa ha.

And so I brought back the bouquet of flowers. My colleagues from The Finder's department and Jessie, who is from Woman's Weekly all trying to tease me buying for my girlfriend or lover.

But all I replied and I said, "No lah.."

I told them I was buying for a friend, which is really true in my case. But of course, they were thinking that I was just to try to admit. And so I didn't try to explain any further to them simply becos' its obvious what their psychology would think.

The only person I managed to convince it was truely for a friend was Avies, my colleague sitting beside me, when I chatted with her. I told her a bit of the friendship story between FRIEND and I, and my case of "some what reluctant to go into any relationship" as I am still "repairing" myself.

Anyway, I somehow made everyone in my department pretty extra happy today. Maybe also becos’ of the love aura in the air, everyone is happy already.

With my weird antics, I made a mini altar of a stuff toy koala bear off Sabrina’s desk with mini offering of lychees and a hand-drawn joss stick burner bowl, with a hand-drawn halo as well. LOL.

Next is my quirky unexpected design of several ads for The Finder March issue. One was unexpectedly so good, everyone laughed, and Jasmine herself who is in-charge of the ad laughed almost non-stop. Then, she decided to send it for client’s review. LOL.

They kept on teasing me about giving my flowers to a special someone and I was going for a date soon, as we were all rushing the March issue’s magazine. Iwhen most of us went on to work over-time till 8pm or more.

All women love flowers, they say.

When I decided pack the bouquet of flowers into my Crumpler bag. My all-female colleagues “fiercely” protected it and insisted I put it into a paper bag instead..

Oh well, since the flowers are pretty much for myself, I might as well treasure it like they say.

I am very happy to receive well wishes from Jasmine who wished me Happy Valentine's and Happy Chinese New Year cos' she'll be on leave starting from tomorrow. But I told her she have to wish me Happy early Birthday too.

Lol. Receiving 3X well-wishes made me a very person indeed : p

Happy V Day!

Oh shit. I'm going to be late for work again. Going to take cab.

Damn, my dad's in the bathroom showering! What bad timing. Thought he's suppose to be off at work already!

Anyway, meanwhile I was bored and I got to know that Valentines' Day is also Singles Awareness Day (SAD) on the net. LOL.

Laugh until I pengz when I read that. Haha. At least I not feeling sad or lonely at the start of the V Day.

; P

Shopping Day!

I had a long day of shopping yesterday. I woke up early today for an interview later, but I still feel a wee-bit tired from yesterday's activities.

I finally got some fresh new clothings for my Chinese New Year (CNY) as well as some extra indulgences that I would pretend its for my own birthday.

Yes, I was working freelance for the day at ACP Asia.

During lunch yesterday, I went on my own and after my meal I went for a short shopping trip at That CD Shop in Great World City. I spotted a couple music CD albums I wanted, and I took a slightly longer time to find a third album so I can buy them three at just $49.50.

The music albums I bought were Norah Jones' "Not Too Late", "Diamonds II" Love Songs compilation and "Grace" by Simon Webbe. All for easy listening and to chill.

After work, I went City Hall, and in which I shopped at Marina Square and City Link. I got myself two plain tops of fresh bright colours of red and green at TopMan and I got a new pair of high quality RipCurl seamless surf pants for the purpose of wakeboarding or beaching in the new year.

The new RipCurl pants is dark in colour compared to my super bright red QuikSilver one. I took a water-sports bottom simply becos' I rarely wear bermudas or shorts pants out these days. But I find it functional enough to buy another new wet-wear pants so I can change style. I also can wear it out too if I want to. It is even better cos' its cooling and weather getting hot again these days.

After my shopping, I went home. I finally could play my Warcraft III: Frozen Throne's DOTA game after the game has been updated for one whole day and night. I had fun even though I lost most of the times. Finally, no more extra LAN/internet gaming spendings at a LAN gaming shop no more.

Now I can game at home.

Oh well, time to bath and prepare for my interview now.

This is going to be another long day..

; )

What To Do Next Week.

Though I may not have a fulltime job now, I'm still going to be busy like a bee.

Apart from the three days of attached freelancing work at ACP Asia from the coming Monday to Wednesday, I'll be also having an interview on the coming Tueday.

What about Valentine's Day, Thursday and my birthday?

Only Gods know what I'll be doing then.

But I think I'll be trying to make those days exciting for many people around me I think. Most probably I'll be spending those times doing something happy and funny for my friends.

When I realised your life is not only about you, your happiness seems to depends on someone else's happinesses : )

Oh well, time to go to sleep. And hopefully I stay unconcious till my jog tomorrow morning.

Tonight I feel close to you
By 孫燕姿 & 倉木麻衣

Close my eyes and feel your mind
Time has passed
I walked like a shadow
Never knew
What I am going through
You touch my heart and take my breath away

Whisper on the wind so softly
Let the bright stars fill out dreams with love
Reach for your hand (you're holding my key)
and you show me the way

Tonight, I feel close to you
You open my door and light the sky above
When I need a friend, you are there right by my side
I wish we could stay as one
I wish we could stay forever as one

All the tears that haunt my past
You promised
It'll be better tomorrow
play that song
You and I listened to
And let it gently ease our pain

Tender rain drops from the blue sky
Flowers blooming, life is so divine
like sunlight on a stream (you're holding my key)
You show the world to me

Tonight, I feel close to you
You open my door and light the sky above
When I need a friend, you are there right by my side
I wish we could stay as one

So much love in this beautiful world
Search for the brightest star in the sky
You will find the meaning of love
Don't be afraid (Don't be afraid), Just be yourself (Just be yourself)
We need this love... I've never knew

Tonight, I feel close to you
You open my door and light the sky above
When I need a friend, you are there right by my side
I wish we could stay as one

Tonight, I feel close to you

You open my door and light the sky above
When I need a friend, you are there right by my side
I wish we could stay as one
I wish we could stay forever as one

Consciousness: That Annoying Time Between Naps.

Yawnz~ Bear is pretty lazy these days. Getting fat also (hopefully I can go back to a proper exercise regime). These days have been really tired for the bear becos' he lacked quantity sleep.

And I don't know why the hack am I awake now when I just slept at around 8am after an overnight mahjong yesterday... Feeling tired but can't sleep now.

Most probably sleeping in the afternoon but I hate that. Cos' I know I might have problems sleeping during my Sunday night again!

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This weekend is more of in a relax mode. But I wanted a fun mode!

Met Joe and Vel yesterday , but not going to clubbing. I had dinner with them along with Claudia No. 3 (The third Claudia met within 3 months) who is Joe's good friend. It was Claudia's birthday (again? :x). But I manage to be invited and so I tagged along for the dinner.

Before the dinner, I went to Orchard early to do some shopping.

Many, many people @ Orchard Cineleisure.

I windowed shopped alot of places and I did found some clothes I wanted, but they were to expensive to buy for my needs, so I didn't get them to the cashier. The only thing I tried to was a pair of bermudas from GAP which cost about $100.

You might be wondering why I still wanted to buy such an expensive item when I said other stuff were expensive. Well, I was only planning buy a shirt and a pair of bottoms. I deem that GAP bottom as long-lasting quality, so I think it is a good buy even it is expensive.

But I didn't get it in the end because the size I wanted was out of stock.

Shit. Hate when that happens.

Anyway, Joe and Vel was late due to the heavy traffic at Orchard Road. So the dinner delayed for at least a hour later from the first initial plan.

It was a simple dinner meet-up for Claudia and she got a handbag as a gift from Joe. I didn't know what to buy so I ordered plenty of dim-sum for everyone. But sadly, even big eater Joe didn't touch anything, neither did Vel or Claudia (=.=)'

Anyway, I hope Claudia's boyfriend got eat them after I was left. Or else it'll be such a waste.

After the dinner, I had to rush to Choa Chu Kang at Chee Wee's place for a mahjong session with him, Huimin and Huimin's friend.

I know I was going to be late. So I took a cab, but not at Orchard Road cos' I knew there would be both human and vehicle jam. Hard to get a cab then.

So I took the MRT to Clarke Quay where I know there I could get a cab faster and I did. But nether-the-less, getting the cab out of the big town was hard. My cab was still within the city limits for the first 25 minutes, with the taxi meter jumping.

The traffic in the city area was congested in most areas. When I reached Choa Chu Kang, my cabfare was about $15 and I spent 40 minutes getting there when I could have taken an MRT transit which give me the same time but less to be paid!

What a waste of good money.

.. Anyway, although I was late, I won big last night playing three games, almost "killing" every other player. The winnings were enough to help cover the cost of my cabfare and still I have a little profit for myself :P

Huimin was saved when I unsuccessfully risked a 5-combo flush, and I throw a same combo tile to her, in which I have to play for every player due the the rule.

Well, it was a calculated as I have the capital to lose then.

Lucky for her, if not she would lose money to me also : P

After the session, I went breakfast at McDonald's with Huimin and friend.

Not a bad weekend.

Sunrise~ sunrise~ Sunday: Reaching home when my
eyes feels dry with contact lenses for whole night.

Four-Digit Figure: Due to Good "Busine$$"!

Wahahaha! I received my pay I worked for this week! Putting into my bank account just now, I finally see a four-digit figure!

Though this is not the first time hit four-digit figure, but I believe this figure will stay four-digit for a very long time, because this four-digit figure are my savings and I want top make it five-digit.

No worries that I might reduce it back to three-digit again, cos' I even prepared cash in bank allocated for other expenses, and yes even for treating goodies.

You might be wondering why I am so happy getting "only" a four-digit, simply becos' I finally did what I promised myself.

And I did it with my utmost discipline. I didn't spend any money on "luxury" items like some kicks and clothes I saw last week. With that, I do not have to regret spending money on treating goodies for my friends instead. And I know I might do that, its human subconciousness.

Last year, I did try to save but I never could. I was struggling.

Deducting all my what ever big or small expenses then, I normally only have about $200-$300 of cash for flow (including in it were my transportation and meal expenses) for a month. And that excluded entertainment expenses like clubbing (and cabfares after clubbing), chill-outs, movies and other entertainment of fun. The worst financial times were during the times for the seasons of celebrations (Christmas and New Year), when basically I scrimped my ass off skipping meals just to get enough money to buy gifts for Zane, Alex and June.

I regretted not able to buy gifts for Joe and Vel.

I was really that poor then.

So then I wasn't able to treat anybody back then. But now I can.

And I'm starting with Joe, who treated me meals and outings like a bro without any reluctance. Tomorrow I'm going to party with Joe, Vel and Karen, and hopefully I can repay their kindness to me.

Next will be Zhan En. The meal I owe her has upgraded from a simple happy meal to something better.. Hehe. Followed my best friend, Elvin, but I don't know what to treat him yet.

Next are my parents. They're getting a much bigger ang bao than they got for last year too : )

And I know there's alot of people I might be missing out for my goody treats.

Next week I'll be working on a 3-day freelance attachment for ACP Asia's The Finder again. I'll be also presenting my official proposal for a freelance webby project for Casserole catering.

And last but not least, I finally got an interview for a good Customer Service position for StarHub call centre department. Well-paid and steady. And its in the west side (Cut transportation fee. Hehe.)!

See? So GOOD "BUSINE$$"! Wahahaha!!!

In Control.

It has been a few weeks since my financial income is in a much more stable status and I am in control of it. Amazingly, I didn't really see my savings would reach the mark it is now (as long as I do not go out and splurge on shopping and other entertainments).

I guess it is good now that I'm getting use to a "no life" (as in spending my money on clubbing and shopping) life.

I was chatting with my catering colleague Rizal after work on career and money issues. He is an engineering diploma holder working for the catering a few months fulltime now but his pay is a couple of hundreds lesser than my designer start-up pay.

Now, he said he's a bit sick of the job and is preparing to leave as he thought that he couldn't have the prospects he wanted there. He used to have a good job that pays him up to near $3,000.

But due to circumstances, he had to give up that good paying job with a continued contract to work overseas. Why? He was going to get married. But he was betrayed. And he regretted giving up that career opportunity for love.

But I comforted him that what he did then was right as he followed his heart and used his whole heart to love then. But it is just that sadly in this world, some people are "bad" (not evil) in making their decisions some how.

As long as you know you use your heart and did the right thing you decided then (in terms of moral), its good enough. There shouldn't be any regrets.

Anyway, life sometimes just don't always go our way also, for now we just have to move forward and continue for the best of our lives.

For me, I am glad that now I do not need to sacrifice my last of my savings just to see someone as an excuse.

Best, knowing now that I don't anyhow splurge on myself (being responsible for my own actions), I don't have to complain, regret or blame anything or anyone in any case if I have treat people goodies.

Now, I really have that spare cash to treat goodies back to the people who have been good or treating me on many occasions. People like Zane, Joe, Alex, Chee Keong and Linda. And I am definitely not going to regret treating them back. It is what they deserve.

Well guys, sorry for waiting so long. Its time to fulfill promises I made. Even if I don't make any of the promises of treat you guys back, I'll still treat you all becos' you all have been really nice.

Those who can patiently wait finally can get the well-deserved good retribution from me le. Hehe.

Now, I am wondering, if it is possible for me to save up to $10,000 by this half of the year or less. I'm still amaze at the way my money is growing.

GROW MONEY, GROW! Wahahaha!

Illusions vs Reality.

A lot of friends around me seem to be down with either sickness, work or even emotions. That's the reality we're all facing in our human lives actually.

They all look for me for a few simple things, or even if they didn't ask for those things, I'll still give it to them.

These are understanding, support and comfort. These human things I give so much due to my unusual gift of altruism. I am giving all but it is actuaclly one thing, its called hope.

Hope is an illusion. An illusion that is some sort of magic that allows us to live on when we're down. Too much of it will give us false hope. Too little we'll live our lives without dreams, that when we live reality like we're no more than a robot.

But of course, practicality is considerable material factor that we must face throughout our lives. I can pursue my dreams to make them a reality, but I must not live in dreams becos' its not real.

For me now? I'm making everything practical so that my hope grows and make my dreams more than just illusions. I want to make them a reality.

And it feels good to feel this way actually.

: )

Cursed Sunday Night..

I never seem to get any peace on Sunday nights..

Images and bouts of sadness always come and haunt my mind and heart every weekend..

I don't seem to remember once I had a totally peaceful night of Sunday without getting my pillow wet with tears or cold sweat from sudden nightmares ever since things start happening.

Tears simply flow when the bouts of sadness came. Fears that cause nightmares. Sunday night has became a nightmare for me that I don't like to sleep on Sunday nights. Cos' I always fear something bad is going to happen after Sunday..

God help me from these agonies..

:_(

Gaming Weekend!

This weekend sure flies. Been gaming a lot at home.

Not only gaming with my newly bought PC game, but Hong Yun (Thomas) and Johnson came to my house yesterday evening to play a very special board game called, Cashflow.

The board game mimics what we're doing for everyday life, in which we're in a "rat race" working day in and out, then make our own investments, followed by being financially sucessfully and ultimately achieve our dream. In that game, it is generally about that I've talked about.

The game started in "rat race", in which we hang on to our day job, in the course of it, we have opportinities of big or small (n which we make investments), occasional market booms and busts and unexpected daily events or life milestones which might make our financial life better or simply screw us up.

CASHFLOW!: Get out of the "rat race" quick!

BIG CASH!

If we can get our of the "rat race", we most probably make so many income generators that we basically do not need to work in the success stage of our financial life.

But of course, if only the REAL life is so simple, we all would be millionaires by now.

Anyway for the first game, I won it by getting out of the rat race first and ultimately getting my dream.

Think it was purely luck. All I did was all invest in stock markets shares, in which I got cards that I can buy them at the most cheapest price of $1. Buying them in in low price and in big bulk, then selling them high earning almost a million in an instant. Then I got another chance card to buy blue chip shares with dividends which basically got out of the "race race", allowing not to work on a day job but I still have income.

The second part of the first game was going onto the high life of the "fast track" of the game. Basically having a spree on all sorts of rich man's dreams.

I was almost laughing all the way when I was playing the game because Hong Yun and Johnson were so in disbelief that I am so lucky, and they couldn't stay my rich man's arrogance. LOL.

We had so much fun, we play a second game but only for the "race rat". As with the first game, my luck was damn good earning loads of cash. But this time, Thomas got out of the "rat race" first by having enough passive income generated monthly so that he no need to "work".

It was a wonderful game. Played till 4.30am yesterday. Was so shagged after that because I wasn't feeling well and I am very "heaty" also. Lucky I got better, but now I am having dry cough.

Yawnz..

Had a long day.. but let me just blog my day's events before I go to sleep.

Just finished listening to FRIEND who's complaining about her most irritating colleague at work. The most funny thing is about complaining on someone you like. But I guess why she complained so much is because she wanted him to be a better person. But she couldn't do a thing, so.. it ended up like that.

Well, when you love someone, you want them to be perfect. But its hard.. But one thing you have to remember, its the best for themselves, not for yourself. So in the end, its really up for the other party to be who they want to be.

FRIEND might seem silly. But if I were her, I will do the same, cos' I really hope for the best for someone I like. Not to mention, I'm still looking out for Willy Wonka chocolate bars till now.. And I don't know why also..

Anyway, I went out to meet another financial consultant named Jing Yi. I've been referred to her by my best friend, Elvin and my cousin Vei, what a coincidence. I decided to meet her up since I was free, and Elvin told me she was his type of girl. So I went to "kaypo" in some sense.

Jing Yi looked like a studious type of girl with her specs on, so I guess Elvin's type is like that.

But anyway, the financial advisory session was pretty professional, and what she offers were really the best plans of differing insurance companies in Singapore. Sounds finanically wise, but of course, I have no ability to invest anymore money into anything else current, especially without a stable income, as I told all the agents I ever met.

After the financial advisory session, I was all over Bugis dealing with my bills, handphone services and such. After I walked to the markertplace at Raffles City to look for something..

And after that, I took MRT to Kovan.

I went to offer my prayers to my mah-mah, my beloved grandmother, who used to dote me a lot as I was his favourite grandson, and I still miss her fish soup.. My dad was whining to the family to offer our prayers to her yesterday. But I couldn't go with my father to offer my prayers in the morning, so I went in the afternoon instead.

I did had some hard time trying to find the place where my grandma's ashes were place, in some sort of a temple place in the heartlands of a private housing estate. I took about 20 minutes to find the place, and there I only used 5 minutes to offer my prayers and donate some prayer money.

After the offering of my prayers, I went back to City Hall, in which I was planning to play some internet gaming at a LAN gaming shop. But it was full house. I was unsatisfied of cousre. But then I thought, why don't I go and buy my favourite game PC game home, so I can try playing at home?

And so, I went straight to Funan IT Mall to get the Warcraft III Battle Chest, so I can play the popular DOTA game at home.

But guess what? Because I'm on a router, I couldn't play its online multiplayer game.. Oh well, gotta think of some other solution to this. For now, I could just plat the campaign games..

ZzZzZzzz.. Tired. Think I better go to sleep now..

Better Luck?

I got some free gifts today. It was from a marketing company called Discovery VIII, in which I took a telephone survey.

When they asked me to go to their office to take those gifts without any obligations except an hour of marketing appointment with them. Although I still wasn't 100% convinced and was still skeptical then, but I was thinking there was no harm going since I'm so poor. I have no money for them to cheat obviously. I just have to be alert that I don't sign any black and white papers that's all.

And so I went to their office which is at the Tong Builing, or the "Rolex House" which is at the Orchard Road between The Paragon and Lucky Plaza.

I was suppose to be on an hour appointment with the marketing personnel I'm appointed with. She would be marketing more of the services of companies like SIA and NATAS. But in the end, I didn't went through the appointment also, because I was late for the appointment and the marketing executive I'm appointed to was attending someone :P

But I still received my gifts which are:

1) An accommodation tour package in Phuket, Thailand (which excludes travel and catering) up to seven nights!

2) A $180 voucher off Sijori Resort Sentosa (but need a minimum stay of 3 days, 2 nights when the cheapest one night room rate cost $180 already..)!

3) A personal professional studio photo shoot worth $588.

If only I could sell all these and get more cash.. I received all my pay cheques for my freelance work yesterday for January. But most of the money would go to bills owing : (

Oh well, at least my luck isn't that shit afterall.

My pops is giving me my birthday combo with CNY money soon.. Hehe.

(My Chinese lunar birthday is on the 15th day of the first month of CNY, which is also the traditional Chinese Valentine's Day.. Hehe..)

流浪地圖
By 孫燕姿

天黑的有一點快
車開得有點快
這是現在
不是虛構的片段
心怎麼也放不開
臉色有點蒼白
過去那段
不是虛構的戀愛

na na na...
靜靜的就讓我離開
過去了就過去 別再為難
腦袋很亂了
讓我留一個出口
傷心也沒用
我已經走在流浪的地圖

na na na...
靜靜的就讓我離開
說好了不哭泣 別再遺憾
所有的故事
想說卻說不出口
愛過的痕跡
會一直存在 流浪的地圖

天黑的有一點快
車開得有點快
這是現在
不是虛構的片段
心怎麼也放不開
臉色有點蒼白
過去那段
不是虛構的戀愛

na na na...
靜靜的就讓我離開
過去了就過去 別再為難
腦袋很亂了
讓我留一個出口
傷心也沒用
我已經走在流浪的地圖

na na na...
靜靜的就讓我離開
說好了不哭泣 別再遺憾
所有的故事
想說卻說不出口
愛過的痕跡
會一直存在 流浪的地圖
我在流浪 ha..ya...

Outdoor Photoshoot!

Went out for a photoshoot for Andrew today.

Andrew, a professional photographer himself wanted me to shoot him in style. So I became his photographer under his advise and he was my model. Andrew really got a lot of his own outdoor shooting equipment.. Lucky he got a truck from his mum for transport.

Learn a trick or two in still fashion-style shoot from Andrew.

It was quite a "tough" shoot though, cos' he wanted best shots for himself. But I haven't been shooting artistically with any professional equipment for quite long, and it seems that I lost touch.

Most of the time, I just took shots without considering dos and don'ts of professional shooting. Too much "just wack" candid photography I guess..

Anyway, it was quite an experience for a professional outdoor still photography shoot.

The shooting place of the day: Kent Ridge Park.

Next shooting place of the day: Labrador Park.

Andrew, "Model setting up the shoot for himself? Wtf?".

Andrew, "No good... @#$%^&*!?".

Andrew doing a test shot on me on a
SAF AMX-SM13 Tank display at Kent Ridge Park.

Me on a hot tank.

Hello handsome.

*Kacha!*

My best shot on Andrew.

Windy day sure dry my eyes.. Sibeh jua..

After shoot: Lunch at VivoCity's Food Republic
(Again?! 3rd time withing a week's time!)