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I have no other conclusions for the year 2006..

Hits and misses are not worth mentioning as they don't weigh much. I can just balance carry forward to next year.

The one and only thing 2006 is truly worth is friendship and love.

I found true friends who share my happiness and woes.

I discover someone who's worth loving.. but..

The only thing now, is just cross over the timeline.

Happy New Year everyone : )

Socialising.

Freak show. I went to club again at MoS last night. It seems like I've been clubbing twice in a row every weekend.

But last night wasn't really partying for me. It was more like going out to socialise with my bunch of friends of west-siders, checking them out. We also rarely go out and club together so I didn't want to miss it.

How can a chiongster like me miss out such a rare clubbing meet?

And so I went.

There was Hong Yun (Thomas), Junlong, Chee Wee and his cousin, Huimin, and Huimin's best friend, Claudia and lastly me.

For me, last night wasn't as fun as going out with Eddie, Alex and June they all. But I tried to make the best fun for this bunch. I'm not trying to be the hero or what but knowing my guys, they might not able bring out that fun everyone wanted.

Even though I was trying not to drink, I didn't really wanted to drink too much also. I am trying to cut down for the sake of my liver. Haven't buy insurance yet you know (lol).

Even when I'm there, I can feel that something is not there, the cohesion. Hong Yun and Junlong was always in there "own world" instead dancing in a group. Chee Wee is busy protecting Huimin or enjoying his own dance. Just felt that the other two guys were a bit left out the dance group, so I tried to get them in.

Claudia was the better person in trying to get the other two guys in. She's really good at socialising, chatting and getting people together, even better than me. She's definitely not the shy type.

(Not like me, act cool. Haha. But actually I like to chitchat and socialise, just always thinking what crap topic to start to chat with sometimes.)

I know Claudia love to club as I heard from Huimin and Chee Wee. Didn't really know Claudia's character till yesterday even though I added her in my Friendster a hell long time ago and I only saw her a few times before.

Well now, I know I have another clubbing friend to call out to merry.

Anyway, the clubbing time went well I think as most of us had fun. Especially for the gals, who kept taking pictures of themselves and with the rest of us.

Our dance lasted till the end of MoS opening hours, a rarity. Hong Yun and Junlong left earlier before that as one had a morning shift work while another is going to sleep soon.

Claudia, Huimin, Chee Wee and I went to McDonald's for breakfast and continued our talk cock session till it was time to go home, in either bus or train.

~~~~~

For now, and for the rest of the free time I have for the holidays, I'm going to continue to work hard doing my proposals.

Celebrations doesn't seem to have a meaning for me. Its just a time of milestone. I'll have to make the true milestones myself.

I have no choice. I'll have to make my own ricebowl now, since I'm in the line of freelancing.

Holidays not all fun you know, though it always seems like I'm always going out to have fun. But actually, work is always all in my mind and I always work when I had the free time. I do have my own work stress but I am handling my life well, surprisingly.

Overclocking!

I seriously overclocked myself yesterday. I actually worked from 9am to 12am next day. Freaking 15 hours, but I'm so proud of myself, cos' I don't know how I went through that anyway. Think of someone helps I guess.

Well, I didn't worked for my own department, Women's Weekly mag, yesterday. I was one hour into my task continued from previous day when suddenly my art director Ivy of ask me to go see her boss, the creative director, Julie.

I was thinking, "Oh. Did I walked too much back-and-forth between my desk and the printer yesterday that she have to call me in for a chit-chat?"

But it was not the case, my nice creative director personally asked me to help The Finder mag department's staff to help them with some work. As one of their department staff's, Avies collasped due to both sickness and fatigue the previous day.

I was a bit surprise by the situation, but I feel it was an honour. So I was more than willing to help.

I didn't do anything creative work for them, but did the repeative technical design work. Also known as "shit" to designers. But I didn't really see them as shit when I work on them. I felt I was truly working when I worked on them.

I managed to click with the staff of The Finder mag whom I don't see yesterday becos' they were hiding in their cubicles. I was pretty taken well care of by the ladies there, namely, Sabrina, the designer who sat beside me, and opposite me are the two editors, Jasmine and Justine.

I only really got to click with them when Sabrina started complaining about the shit the clients or the boss is giving to her. That kind of shit that I understand, a common topic for all media/design workers.

Anyway, I worked very well with them and worked all the way till 12am, even had my dinner together at 10pm with them with a takeaway delivery order of Pizza Hut. Justine was talking about her nosey daughter, who really is a smart and bugging kid at the age of 5, asking lots of questions, making a lot of phone calls to chat even to Justine's colleagues, her colleagues' families and even to her immediate boss!

Cute and interesting.

~~~~~

After work, I went for a chillout with Chee Keong at Phuture, in Zouk, where it was very near to my work place.

I was pretty stoned after all the work. So it was really chilling out for me. Didn't really wanted to socialise with new people also cos' I doubt I'll register them into my system anyway.

I did drink a bit with my drinks coupons only (Shit can't I stop drinking for at least one week?) and dance a bit. My mental strength is still there but my body is tired. So I was as "wild" dancing as usual.

I had a small drama last night. I lost my baggage tag, and so I went to the baggage counter to report the lost so that no one can take my lost tag to take my bag. On my way to the counter, I found someone's else's lost tag. I thought it could be my own cos' I didn't know my tag number.

I reached the counter and found someone else report her lost tag. I returned the lost tag, which was not mine. The other person thanked me for finding her lost tag before she left the club or else she would have paid an $8 fine. I told her I lost my tag too, and she offered me $4 as an act of gratitude, but I turn it down.

Anyway, I still got my penalty fee back after someone else found my lost tag at the end of the night.

The night wasn't really fun, but I felt more relaxed.

I went for some non-alcoholic drinks with Chee Keong's friends, Mel and.. erm.. I forgot his name (let me just call him Mr. X). Both Mel and Mr. X are really friendly people.

I took a cab with Mel and Mr. X home as we all lived in the west side. I don't know if Mr. X was really high or he's just trying to act as one as I think he still know what he is doing. But he sure craps alot.

But anyway, we were suppose to drop off Mel who lived in Jurong East near IMM, followed by me and then Mr. X who lived in Jurong West. But both of them dropped at Mel's place. The on "high" Mr. X said he didn't wanted to go home early.

I am fine with that, but I thought we're sharing cab? $?

Anyway, I thought, "Oh well, I was suppose to take cab alone anyway."

~~~~~

When I reached home, I bathed but I wasn't planning to sleep yet. I went online awhile and was planning to blog before I went to sleep. Then Zane popped online too.

We had a phone call chit-chat till 6am.

Friend got her gastric problem after drinking Magarita's again. And so I nagged and nagged at her for drinking again (revenge for nagging at me). She went to club with her friends at the MoS and told me about her day's happenings.

We also manage to talk about the usual topic we always talk about, on moving on and being happy. We all agreed that we're moving on and we're making ourselves happy in some other ways.

But our hearts are still left with someone.

We're still "love stuck" for our special someone, no matter what he or she did to us, we still like them. And we didn't really know when we will "recover". We're like waiting for someone whom we felt predestined with but we cannot be together.. somehow.

Kind of sad isn't it?

~~~~~

Anyway, going to have my lunch and sleep again. Doubt I'm going anyway today. I'm too tired. I need plenty of rest.

Taking Choices.

I don't know why I have to blog at this early morning hour just before I go work.

Maybe because I know I'm going to get sick of going on the long~ journeys traveling between home and my workplace. Either I take bus-transfer-to-MRT transit or bus-transfer-to-bus transit to work, it'll still take me at least 2 hours per journey.

So sian.. I couldn't wake up earlier in order to have the time to take up the morning journey to work also. I'm just too tired to.. Guess I'll need to take cab to work later again. Doubt I'll ever arrive on time with only an hour plus of time to take on the cheaper journey now..

Time to check, see and re-plan if I have better ways of going to-and-fro between work and home tonight.

~~~~~

Yesterday was my first day of work. Nothing really exciting (maybe I was tired at start), nothing really bad happened.

All I did for yesterday was filing pages for a mock-up and print, cut and label all the boards. Mundane tasks but they're needed for everyone review, so I didn't really complain. Just that, its sickening to walk back-and-forth between the printer and my desk for about 20 times.

Had to to do that so I can make use of the time to multitask; to collect the prints and cut them, while my computer sends the file slowly to print.

I had lunch alone yesterday. My colleagues were too busy doing their own work to accompany me, I think. Or maybe I still haven't find a way to click with the ladies in my office. My company is 90%+ females. I only saw a couple of guys around. Well, got to do something about it, how to click with them.

Lunch is my best energy and morale booster. I was feeling tired in the morning yesterday until I recovered my energy at lunch. After lunch, with still some time in hand, I didn't know what to do or where to go. So I walk in the rains, with my hoodie on, went straight to the pedestrian bridge near Zouk and took a picture of myself there.



Think I'm really bored man. Haha.

~~~~~

Anyway, I feel happy that June took away my tiredness and boredom by chatting with me last night, but I don't know if I make her she feel the same.. She seem over-sensitive last night : |

~~~~~

God has a plan for all of us and he paved a lot of paths for us to choose. Some of these "secret" paths are good routes in our lives and are up for us to choose to discover and walk into (but most of us choose to turn walk a different way).

I didn't say I always walk the best routes He gave, but whatever I walked on is still what He made for me.

God say ask from Him, and you shall be given. But you must also learn to choose wisely to take which one. You can accept whatever He gives. He gives us love, tests, tasks and choices. But He definitely can't make you choose what cos' you still have something call freewill.

So are you sure He's not testing your wisdom now? : )

~~~~~

* Hopefully can lunch with benefactoress Linda today. Haven't seen her for quite some time. Some more always fly her aeroplane when she ask me go church with her one. lol *

First Day of Work, Again (Hopefully its the Last!)

Its my first day, again. But I'm still at home at this hour due to some reasons here and there.

Had to take cab to work later (shit, waste money again..) because my cash is too big and I didn't have enough time to change to smaller cash, top-up my EZ-link transit payment card..

Anyway I am a bit lazy to take long journey bus and a wee-bit tired becos' my sleep was disturbed last night by FRIEND at 4am! (Maybe I was too early to put into conclusion that I wouldn't be disturb by women last night.) But still I woke up to console and encourage her, cos' when she's SMSing me or calling me at that hour, something bad might be happening to her.

As her friend and her Uncle Agony, I had to do relief work for a while, 15 minutes.

FRIEND has been drinking alot as I did recently. Made her getting some gastric prob like Alex.

Last night she went drinking again but didn't get high but went low and down instead..

I understand what FRIEND is going through in her heart (I've been there, done that on Christmas Day); loving someone whole heartedly but couldn't expect any return. That kind of agony is something that is unBEARable.

But I told her, if you love someone, be happy and stay true to him/her. Don't have any regrets, do something about it. But sadly, that guy she like, is somewhat an asshole.

Well, today's a new day. No sun out yet but I had to make the best out of it : )

Appointments with Ladies + "Ladybird"

Today I had a long day of multiple appointments with many different ladies + one "ladybird".

My first appointment of the day was to show my portfolio for a freelance designer job for Women Weekly's magazine, a job recommended by god friend Linda. The place is at Holiday Inn, somewhere near Zouk. I was supposely to meet them at 10am but I was an hour late! Because I didn't know my bus service would take that long..

..I thought, "There goes my freelance job."

And so I met Christina, who brought me to Ivy (she's the editor I think) and I show her my commercial works portfolio, which basically only consist of corporate designs, rather than publishings.

But to my surprise, they took me in. Maybe because they were kind of desperate for a designer I guess (and so was I desperate for a job). So nobody hiam, even though I was pretty much lack of experience in publishing field and I didn't know the publishing softwares they're using.

Everybody need a chance and opportunity. And we took it.

God bless! Thank you Lord for giving me a good job with good name and good pay.

And thanks to Linda for her recommendation. Owe her a very good meal.

My wait is finally over. But this is only the beginning. I have to work hard to hold onto this one in a lifetime opportunity (^_^)

Immediately after the first appointment, I decided its best for me to go to the library immediately to look for reference books on the softwares I am going to use but I didn't know them well, Adobe Pagemaker and Adobe InDesign.

So I went to the Central Lending Library in Bugis to borrow those books. I don't really have the time to go through slowly using tutorial books, so I decided to get reference books which are thin, easy-to-read and with lots of nicey coloured illustrations, just like Zane advised.

But I only got the book for Adobe InDesign, going to go through it after this..

After the visit to the library, I decided to have an impromptu catch-up meet with Shahid, the "ladybird" (cos' his face is round, body is round and have big eyes like the ladybird from A Bug's Life the movie. And he always look at passing ladies when we're at the table). He's my fun ex-colleague when I was working as an intern and a temp in the Digimagic.

I always visit Shahid around every 3 months, and always on those time when I was in the turning points of my life. So we got always have things to talk about. Especially speaking of the old and fun times, which I heard has cease to exisit in Digimagic now.

Speaking of old friends, we suddenly spotted Miss Linda (yupz, coincidentally the same person who recommended me that freelance job), driving pass by with her infamous orange car. Called her in attempt to invite her to join us but she was busy.

If everyday I have such surprises like this, my life wouldn't be so boring :p

After the meet, I decided to head home for my lunch as I already told my mum to buy lunch home. I reached home at around 3pm and I was hungery, as I didn't even had my breakfast.

Suddenly, halfway through my lunch, my new replacement finacial advisor (who replaced my ex-agent, Ina), Sheryl called me. I had forgotten or should I say remembered wrongly with her appointment. Suppose to meet her at Jurong Central at 4pm today.

Was supposed to tkae a nap after lunch..

But I couldn't postpone my appoinment with her again as I postponed my rapport meet with my new finacial agent a couple of times. Too ungentleman to do that twice I think. So I decided to abandon my lunch halfway and go and meet her.

It was first time meeting Sheryl. My first sight of her, I was thinking, "At least my advisor is still another pretty lady."

Got to chat with her a while. She's a Piscean, 23 year old, older than me for 369 days. She told me that cos' her bro is an Aquarian too and our birthdays were close. Basic rapport information.

After, she introduced me a whole range of investment and insurance schemes. I wasn't feeling uncomfortable. Good to learn more on these financial stuff anyway. I listened closely she's telling to see whether she's good enough to be my professional advisor and she passed her test.

She said I am a patient listener and friendly client. Well, I told her I was just being a responsible client myself just as she's a professional advisor.

Business work two-ways.

I am also selling my design services as well, so if I make a good image, she could introduce me to those who needed my services in the future too. Just like she wanted me to recommend her freelance accountancy services too.

Anyway, heard a lot of investment plans. I'm interested in some but I'm not in the situation to invest those plans now I told her. I'm just starting my career life (again), and hopefully I settle on my career once and for all.

I hope I can make this freelance and fulltime, if not, gaining a good experience and earning a good portfolio and good money is fine with me too.

(^_^)

I Am Who I Am
By 光良



清晨醒來的我 昨夜夢依舊
在熟悉的街道中 尋找你影蹤
在世界奔走 我感覺不寂寞
有一個人 熟悉又遙遠 抓不住的思念

夕陽紫色天空中 你我承諾過
眾多掌聲的背後 你給我最多
一起走過 每一個低潮和失落
現在的我 站在舞臺 揮灑自我

I am who I am 看著你的眼
眼神的交接 不須語言 穿透我心田

I am who I am 想念你的眼
溫柔卻堅決 這一刻最美 我失去防線

清晨醒來的我 昨夜夢依舊
在熟悉的街道中 尋找你影蹤

雨天
by 孫燕姿

站在十字路的交点，
该怎么走，我只想回头，
除了你给的伞,我再也没有，
别的借口，去拥有你的什么。
你能体谅，我有雨天，
偶尔胆怯，你都了解，
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间，
我突然发现，谁能体谅，
我的雨天，所以情愿，
回你身边，此刻脚步，
会慢一些，如此坚决，
你却越来越远。
牵手和分手来自同一双手，
做回朋友，我却为何不懂挽留，
你能体谅，我有雨天，偶尔胆怯，
你都了解，过去那些大雨落下的瞬间，
我突然发现，谁能体谅，我的雨天，
所以情愿，回你身边，此刻脚步，
会慢一些，如此坚决，你却越来越远。
是否太晚，路已走远，我的眼眶泪太满，
走不回你身边。你能体谅，我有雨天，
偶尔胆怯，你都了解，
过去那些大雨落下的瞬间，
我突然发现，谁能体谅，
我的雨天，此刻脚步，
会慢一些，如此坚决，
你却越来越远

~~~~~

Non-stop wetness. Raining on and on is so sian.

Dampens my mood.. And everyone else. Made me PMT.

Running Out of Happiness..

It was Christmas eve yesterday, it is Christmas today.

I realised something, some things that even Santa can't give even if I'm a good boy wanting it. A job.. and many other things.. to get that one ultimate thing, happiness.

Maybe I realised long ago but I'm just denying it all along. I am in agony but most people don't even know. Becos' what I actually sacrificed or did, I didn't say.

The worst thing is now I'm kinda suffering. But I try hard to make myself happy when I am actually not. I laughed to make sure I tell everyone I am okay, but you never know, deep down I'm..

Sometimes I really felt like some idiotic superhero, everything I did to save someone's world is doing it in a mask. Just like Spiderman.. where he cannot just quit his powers..

For me, my power is called love. But I never gave up loving. Too hard for me to put down either.

How can I give up someone who's so beautiful in my eyes?

Occasionally these questions still pop out; Who will be there for me? Did I give happiness and love unconditionally? Am I being taken for granted?

I don't know.. All these doesn't seem to matter somehow. Cos' truly love her.

Yet there's always an occasional pain is agonising me.. like now.

Now, I don't feel being loved. Wonder am I having a PMT again or isn't because I am having an unsatisfied Christmas. I just feel unhappy. No one's at home. I still haven't got what I needed, and its about a week later to a new year..

I'm still stuck. FUCKING Hate it.

"Cos' a teddy bear can never change his smiling expression.. So he got no choice but to smile."

The Spirit of Christmas.

Had a tiring day yesterday but was fun having a gathering at Chee Wee's new home.

Alvin, Huimin, Shiling, Chee Wee and his family, Hong Yun, Bryan, Junlong, Andrew, Christina, Soon Wei and Wanling. What a big gathering.



We definitely had loads of food and drinks, from been hoon, sotong balls, nuggets, roasted turkey, log cake, tons of ice cream, red wine, Bailey's wine (some chocolatey alcohol) and Yakult.

Of all these, I contributed the 4 boxes of a total of 48 Cornetto Minis ice cream. Had to give a box to Chee wee and Soon Wei cos' Huimin also bought 3 tubs of ice cream! I also bought two packs of Yakult for the health sake of all before we suffer indigestion :p

Had a great meal. Couldn't finish all the food for dinner, so it also became supper and snacks during our games session.

Chee Wee's room became a gambling den. Firstly we had some mahjong, followed by blackjack, then a new game I taught to all of them, Barracat (also known as Bai Jia Le or Thailand Blackjack) and lastly, Showhand.

I lost all my money betting on the games, but I paid it for entertainment not for the sakes of winning. It was really fun though, everyone really enjoyed the games

: )

I sure know the spirit of giving ;p

~~~~~

I'm still a bit tired now. I just got a new haircut, went to town to shop for some more Christmas gifts related stuff.

Now I'm chionging at home trying to complete all the wrappings and "upgrading" of a gift.

Shag but happy.

A Day As An IRON MAN.

I'm very tired today.. But I'm still going "strong".

Cos' today I AM AN IRON MAN! Muahahaha!



Well, actually, I'm just doing a whole afternoon of ironing some table and setting cloths for the catering company I'm working. Sure tha job task shagged me till I blur. I went to lock the store room when I went out for my first breather after 4 hours of non-stop ironing..

I ironed from 1.30pm to 8.30pm and clocked a total of 7 hours of ironing!

Another personal record set, but I'm freaking tired.

Tomorrow is going to be a bee-zee day for me cos' teddy bear like bees leading him to honey. Heh ; p

Actually its Casserole catering having a major war in hand tomorrow with multiple battles (buffet service deliveries x12). I'm going to be in the base and do support logistic tomorrow :p

But I haven't get Christmas gifts + food for a pre-Christmas potluck dinner at Chee Wee's new house.. So many things to do.. yet I have so little time..

Argh..

Bee-zee~ Bee-zee~ Bee-zee~! (+.+)

I Still Want To Sleep..

I think I was too happy last night :p

I woke up to pee at around 4am to see dear Nutz still online. She's not nuts of course, just screwed up in her bioclock for her night-job. Got to chat a wee-bit before going back to kunz..

But I couldn't sleep for another hour after that.. Then I fell asleep and had some freaking weird nightmare. I wasn't scared although the dream was suppose to be some horror but it came out weird enough to make me have cold sweat.

Decided to wake up an hour late and planning to take cab later.

Shit. Hate wasting money like that.

Hope I can last through my working day becos' I don't think I have enough quality sleep.

Oh well : ) Stay happy and go for work man.

Beary Tired But Beary Happy : )

Its been a tiring day. Had a long day working as I didn't have adequate sleep.

I woke up early at 5am, sleeping only for about four hours just to prepare something warm for June.

With Keith's generous help, after delivering a catering buffet service in Changi Business Park..

Finally, sunshine!

Nice buffet spread.

The airplane jets flying past Changi Business Park that I talked about..

..I went to her house to deliver my "warmth".

I manage to reach her flat, only to knock on her neighbour's door (remembered the wrong unit).. The neighbour thought I was just delivering to the wrong place as I am wearing a caterer's uniform.

Perhaps its my tiredness that made me blur, I even went up to the 8th floor to check but its wrong of course. Only when I went back to her correct floor again, checked the next unit to her neighbour's, then I recognised its her home.

I even called out the Gracey, the cute doggie of hers, who popped up at the window, just to make sure I'm at the correct house :p Gracey didn't bark, because I called her name. I even let her smell my hands.

I tried pressing her doorbell and even called her, but no one came. So I just left a note on my "warmth" without seeing her at her door (again).

Been worried for a few hours as she didn't reply. The worse thing I'm worried of is not that she didn't reply, but is that the porridge might go bad and when she ate it, it might cause further damage to her health and ruin her days..

But luckily, it didn't.

She is happy and she appreciate my warmth that I gave her : )

And that is good enough for me (^.^)

~~~~~

After work, I was suppose to go home and prepare to go clubbing with Alex during the night, but I was too tired and had to cancel the meet. I think clubbing with some drinking might be too late an activity that might make me too tiringly dead for me as I gotta work tomorrow.

I called to meet up with Zane instead at Bishan Junction 8 shopping mall as she still owe me my gift, and I'm curious about the "small" gift she's been hinting. And I was also excited to share with my good friend my happiness : )

And its really smaller than I expected, but its meaningful.

It read "U R such a blessing! : )"

Thank you, my friend : )

What I thought of is that, I shouldn't be having too much fun now, especially clubbing. I can go club this coming weekend on Christmas eve. I should be working on the brainstorming of ideas and concepts for Casserole catering.

Success in that project could provide a big boost to my experience, a better portfolio and well as big bucks for my pocket so I can have a diving holiday next year.

And so I gotta work hard for it so I can grab this wonderful opportunity.

So I went to the nearby Coffee Bean to brainstorm my concept drawings and ideas on my sketch book, while enjoying my fav Belgian choc ice-blended waiting for Zane to come.

My sored eye friend came and we got to chat on our work and our Christmas giving plans. Then we went shopping at the mall together to see what we can buy for our love ones and some Christmas clothings for ourselves.

When we were at Popular bookstore for Zane was buying her Christmas wrappings, I bumped into old classmate Shimin. What coincidence.

Anyway, I already spotted and targetted some potential gifts around the mall which I would like to buy for my love ones.

But the only buy for the day was a light green T-shirt from 37 Degrees which I can wear in with my hoodie. It also can be worn for spring time (heh.. I think very far into the future. I know..) I decided to buy all the gifts I want to get for my love ones one shot in some "big" shopping spree :p

Those yellow, lime, or green tops I really liked and which I initially wanted to get for myself at some shops were either too expensive or simply don't have my size. I wanted to get those piang colours cos' I do not know why my piang colour shirts always kanna damaged or went missing..

But at least I got something I like : )

Nice to wear for the beach too : p

Had a "tough time" advising on Zane's "weird taste" (weird but unique to your own and you like it is the best thing to do) fashion buys for Christmas. So in the end, her end decision was that she bought all her choices that she had dilemma with :p

Now, I'm really really tired but too happy to sleep!

ZzZzZz : )

Of Floodings & Blessings : )

The rain doesn't seem to ever stop. It has been raining since yesterday.

I went to work today and its raining cats and dogs. Its so wet now that everywhere is flooding, so my white shoes wasn't spared from the soakings. Anyway, I think it be rocked to death anyway.

But the rains didn't dampen my mood to work after so long. I'm happy to work. To work is a blessing now after not working for two darn weeks. But the rains sure made everybody sleepy.. including me.

*Yawnz* I haven't really adapt my bioclock back to normal too.

At the start of my work, its kind of like warming up. Some simple tasks like sticking some stickers to the namecards of Casserole catering (the company that I'm working part-time for). And decorated some Christmas trees, my first time.

But working with Casserole catering is like some of an adventure sometimes. From its base in Bishan, Rizal, my BIG partner working with me, drove ourselves all the way to Changi Business Park. The ride is not boring as we enjoyed and listened to my music uploaded into my handphone while we chit-chat.

I like Changi Business Park, the environment is very nice and so are the buildings. I could always can see landings of the jets to Changi Airport. It must be really cool working at the offices there to have such a sight.

Next, we went to Woodlands Immigration Checkpoint. I dozed off in the van.

Nope, we're not going Malaysia, but to clean up and pick up some of our buffet stuff there.



*Yawnz..* I only worked for 8 hours but I felt so sleepy. Time to bathe, eat my dinner and take a short nap later.

Oh.. And one piece of good news, Keith the marketing director of Casserole asked me to propose concept designs for a new major revamp of their advertising solution!

Woot! My prayers have been answered and I'm blessed! I'll accept this blessing by taking some actions. Going to do some research later after I woke up : )

Woot! ; )

Late Night..

Another late night for me again.. Just managed have my instant mee for supper cos' I was hungry..



Had a nap just now, so now I couldn't sleep early. Even if I didn't, I think I'll still be having a hard time to adapt back to normal sleeping hours for now..

Funny.. I told June maybe I should sleep early so I could wake up for the morning to run. I want to keep myself healthy again. I don't want to slack too much till I grow fat. But now, I'm still awake and even ate supper.

Duh.

Maybe I should slowly try to tune back to normal sleep mode with time.

~~~~~

Sometimes I felt that I am so powerless.. Knowing her that she has fallen ill again yet I couldn't do anything to make her feel better except just telling her to eat her medicine, drink more water, take care and expressing my other words of concern..

I can only just worry : |

I just felt so useless right now.. Knowing what I did was simply not enough.. yet I am powerless to do anything more for her.. That's why this will only make her feel that I am just treating her like some little sister.. Then she might say or think, "Thanks. I am already an adult and I know how to take care of myself."

I wanted to do more.. but I can't right now.. And this made me frustrated and upset with myself sometimes : (

I can only hope and pray that God will make her well and happy.

~~~~~

And for my good FRIEND also, I hope her sore eyes will also get well soon. Hopefully I can club with her and introduce her to my fun bunch next weekend if we are partying.

And for the rest of my friends, please take care of yourselves too. Weather is bad recently, and I'm very sure no one wants to get sick at this coming seasons.

Take care..

Party Two * The King Rules!

Oh dear. Why am I up so early again after a whole night of party for the second time straight in two days? Must I always have thoughts after partying and after I slept so little?

Hmm.. Must be my post-drinking hypeness, a syndrome.

Anyway, I am still quite high right now. Give me music I can still just dance to it, but I'm still sane lah.

I went to dBLo (Double O bar) with June, Janet, Alex and June's friend, Joseph, because the drinks there were the cheapest. But I can say the alcoholic contents of the housepour there certainly improved.

We all played 5-10 finger-guessing game again. This time round, everybody got their fair share of punishment I think, no one's extremely drunk at least.

But for me, THE KING OF 5-10, I RULE and basically control the game. Muahahaha!

Crown fit for the King : )

They's no mercy for anyone in my court. Muahahaha! I'm having fun making everyone else drink for the first rotational direction.

As for the Queen of 5-10, June did her mercy relief for most people who couldn't drink too much more more, but even she couldn't take too much of the drinks herself.. (The King felt a bit heart pain for her but I don't want to ruin her night getting high and fun, or else I become a spoiler lo.)

But the Queen is the only person able to catch me good, with a couple of combos punishment drinks. But I didn't mind, cos' I'll only submit to the hands of the Queen :p

Mr Alex could have gotten wipe out by me when he changed the rotaional direction of the game. I sure made him drink, no one could really help him. I did show him mercy but I think he's having too much bad luck with his hands. Xiao mei Janet also kanna many punishment drinks (revenge done).

At a moment, we were briefly joined by a Mexican who tried to play with us but guess he was kinda drunk to understand the rules of the game. We also sure took a lot of pictures then. I even sent one to Zane in the process cos' I heard she's getting high too at WhyNot also.

The drinks of dBLo have improved so much that I think basically everyone in my royal court went to the toilet and puked, including me. But at least this time I control myself and hold on till I reach the toilet to puke it clean, not as messy as previous times.

Everyone was high and happy. But I think June was the most high from drinking. She couldn't walk straight properly, I think if she drink some more, she'll end up drunk and silly again. Still can bullshit with me some more.

But luckily, we did have a dancefloor with the preferable and nicer HipHop R&B music at the first floor of dBLo instead of retro music, and we all went there to dance our asses off to get rid of the highness. But I couldn't get rid of the highness even though I danced the most wild one.

Because I am the Royal Highness. Keke..

After clubbing, we all went to have some supper at a nearby coffeeshop. A great ending activity for another crazy night.

; )

Party One * Where No One's Left Out!

Party night last night! Enjoyed it cos' everyone's having fun.



There was June, Janet, Michelle, Alex, Thomas (Hong Yun), Sebestian and me, of cos'.

Everyone was doing their dancing, drinking and finger-guessing games. Everyone had fun, and I'm glad about that.

Or else people keep saying I didn't entertain them or left them out. So sickening to hear that cos' I know I'm bad in being humourous and telling jokes.

Sometimes I am already having a hard time trying to entertain my own self. I can try entertain anyone, but they need to open up themselves to be entertained too you know. I'm always psychoing people to be positive + entertain them in their personal lives when I'm outside already, can't I take a break at clubbing and just have some fun?

Anyway, at least this time everyone participated in the finger-guessing games of 5-10. And I'm glad I'm not de-throned. I still declare myself as the King of 5-10, as I can still catch anyone I want, especially the Queen and Mr Alex :P

Janet got her first lessons in 5-10 games, she did pretty well for catching me much. *Clap clap*

I'll take my revenge on her next time.. *Grinz*

But seems like she's not really that of a good drinker, maybe I over-estimated her.. Hmm..

Thomas made a comeback to clubbing after a very long time.. But he's the same.. Simply don't know how to entertain him or teach him.. Say already also lidat.. Hmm.. If I know how to entertain Thomas, I wouldn't have cross my fate with June in the first place.

Anyway, I think Thomas still need a computer at home man.. It might be the solution..



Sebestian the best is the best drunk (cos' he got seriously punished in the games). The lucky boy got smooches from Mich for about 10 mikes time. Dangerous.. He might get wrong impression from Mich.. Oh well but I think Mich like him drunk.. Heh heh.

Although I drank quite a lot of the drinks for the games but surprisingly I was still hanging on. But I don't know what's my hangover headache for, maybe its the Rum!

~~~~~

Was having a bloody hangover awhile ago which made me hard to sleep and also woke me up. Tried making my own remedy of using ground ginger powder + some light soya sauce + hot water = Yucks!

Doesn't help loh.. Ewww.. Xp

Now I'm feeling better not becos' of my remedy but listening to some music, Step Up movie soundtracks, HipHop R&B songs that I got from Zane , but now still can't sleep.

I reached home around at around 5am last night after sending people home (but not I drive lah, but they have my spiritual support). Wonder what the hell am I doing right now awake and blogging..

Perhaps its my thoughts that woke me up. Better dump them in my blog.

~~~~~

Some thoughts just came out very clearly just now, or maybe they were there the whole night..

Friend told me she still like that "clockface" even after that she was ignoring him and almost totally not chatting with him like friends as they were in the past, and told me all the bad things he did.. But she still like him.

I can sense that agony.. Its an agony where you tried very hard to keep a distance from a person you like.. A fear of getting too close again.. Yet missing the feeling of comfort that someone made you feel.. Simply to feel that someone never needed you..

Foolish we're for our likings huh, friend?

Christmas Theme for Christmas,
New Style for A New Year!

Yupz, like my title said it, my blog is going for a change for the seasons. Just take a look what of what I did.

Don't make too much comments. I did this for fun ; p

Dreams.

Sure, everyone have a dream to become what they want to be.

But most of them are not sure what they really want.

I was talking to Ganz just now who just made a decision that what he was doing now wasn't what he wanted or might not head for what he wanted in the future.

He quit a job he don't like, a contract job, but luckily the contract was null due to his professionalism. That's why I didn't like contract jobs. Its a potential dream killer deathtrap.

And what he did really kind of give me a sense that I may be on the right track, ever though my survival is at threat now.

Some people might think I am really a stubborn ass; why can't I just take a job and just do it for one or two years. The point is, I can take a job I don't like for one or two months, but not one or two years. Cos' eventually I know I'll just quit it, like Wubing or Ganz.

I know there's never going to be a perfect job that earns alot and make me happy together. But I AM TRYING to make EITHER ONE.

I can take an unhappy job that's not related to my dream, but it makes the best monetary capital for my dream.

I can take on a job that's not paid alot but it makes the experience I needed for my dream.

But right now, totally nothing is coming my way.

I am struggling hard to face this reality, that I needed a stable job ASAP. But I'm not going any how take a lousy job and to stop what I believe, even when my parents or friends are making the fuss or fun that I didn't have a job now!

I am suffering now becos' of the people's reactions to my situation, not becos' of my own decision.

So people, please understand, I'm not being very picky already, in fact, if you didn't know, I also applied for jobs totally unrelated to my dreams. Its people picking on me right now..

But I am not going to be disheartened.

The road to success is never easy. Singapore started out fighting out for her own survival, like me right now. Then came stability, before success.

Stability is not forever. Many aimed for stability actually, not for success. For me I am one who is aiming for success, not stability.

But I'll still need your encouragement and support, people, not your flamboyant simple easy-way-out advises.

~~~~~

Got something interesting from Ganz, colourgenics.

Seems pretty accurate for me.

"You are constantly hoping that your good fellowship and attitude and your 'love for your fellow man (or women)' will give you peace of mind. You need people - people around you to care for you and to show you that they care. It is this hope that keeps you going, the hope that makes you the type of person that indeed you are. Your own need for approval seemingly makes you always ready to help others and in exchange you seek love, warmth and understanding. You will always listen to others and you are open to new ideas which hopefully will prove fruitful and interesting.

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image. You need for those people in positions that matter to recognise your potential and to acknowledge you.

You are confined and trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way out. Whatever you seem to do to resolve the problem hasn't worked out. Fortunately you are able to gain some aspect of relief from someone close to you.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are.

You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!"

Going Out with One Beautiful FRIEND.

Hoi! Just got home not so long ago.

I went out with Zane. Didn't see her for quite some time but we still got a lot to talk about. We know each other damn well becos' she's my best talk cock buddy (she talk cock most of the time lah.. Hehe) on the phone.

I felt much happier now with her entertainment just now.

Managed to pass her some stuff, including her Ti Gong. Wonder what's my present she bought but didn't give me now though..

Anyway, we went to look around for creative inspiring books at the Basher shop at Bras Basah complex. Then we headed the library together to find the books we wanted.

I took quite a bit of time to find what I needed, a Flash tutorial book. Zane was really naggy, but she's not my Aunt Agony for nothing. She = Aunt, I = Agony. Hehe.

She kept on telling me to get a thinner tutorial book with nice coloured graphics that might make me be more interested on the tutorials. In the end, my ears took the former teacher's advice.

And I got this really nice looking book. Hope it helps.

And we were in Bugis having our dinner at a coffeeshop we used to visit when we wre lunching during our internship days. The place really brought back many beautiful memories of the people I work with then.

The work place area is also where I first met Ah Zane I see as a fierce-looking gal with a piercing on her nose. Haha. Surprisingly, we're now so good friends now.

She changed alot from then till now too. Last time she was quite a quiet gal. Now she's damn perky and noisy. So unbelieveable what time can do to a person's personality.

We also had a great chat too, as usual, the craps of our lives. I had fun.

So blessed to have such a FRIEND.

Well, I'm also blessed having other friends like Janet and Wubing bugging me for my attention right now! Hahaha!

(^.^)

白色風車
By 周杰倫



白色的風車 安靜的轉著
真實的感覺 夢境般遙遠
甜甜的海水 複雜的眼淚
看妳傻笑著 握住我的手
夢希望沒有盡頭 我們走到這就好
因為我不想太快走完這幸福
很可惜沒有祝福 當愛妳並不孤獨
不會再讓妳哭

我揹妳走到最後 能不能不要回頭
妳緊緊的抱住我 說妳不需要承諾
妳說我若一個人 會比較自由
我不懂妳說什麼 反正不會鬆手

我揹妳走到最後 能不能別想太多
會不會手牽著手 晚一點才到盡頭
妳說不該再相見只為了瞬間
謝謝妳讓我聽見 因為我在等待永遠

~~~~~

Its not that I have stop loving you..

Its because I simply don't know what to do with you anymore..

That's why I choose to be alone..

A Wonderful Day at the Museam : )

I had a wonderful day at the museam today.

Wonderful till I couldn't sleep now you might ask?

Nah.. Was so tired that I fell asleep fast at 10pm, earliest don't know since when. But I was awaken by my xiao mei's SMSings, becos' she just returned to Singapore from her Genting trip. Kind of miss her whinings though, but I don't know whether I could take it again :P

~~~~~

The National Museam of Singapore (NMS), re-opened last weekend, though I did went to take a look then, I didn't had a close-up look with Khai.

But today, I went on to continue my discovery trip of with my closest ally during my poly days, good friend and 3D sensei, Mr Shian. Shian has completed one of his freelance project and was very happy to share his first day of freedom after the end of his project with me.

Though he was later than I was, I had a short walk at The Cathay. More shops are opening there but still not alive.

But the Christmas tree at its entrance did tell me its time to be jolly again : )

A lovely pink Christmas tree @ The Cathay!

Before Shian's arrival, I took the chance to snap up some more pics of the museam I love so much, which is absolute stunningly modern now.

ALL SINGAPOREANS SHOULD COME AND TAKE A LOOK AT OUR NMS!

It's really a nicely done place of the old and new. It reall tells you, "Its our heritage, and we're making our own history from now."

Spaces and architectures at NMS
(some pics were taken during the re-opening night).

With Shian's arrival, I bought my ticket at $5, half-price of what Shian bought.. I think the discount is meant for NSFs, not NSman as stated at the ticketing screen, but anyway, I am a NSman as stated, so I did nothing legally wrong, and luckily I still have my 11B! Heh heh.

~~~~~

The Singapore History gallery, is the first gallery we visited.

And it is a MUST-SEE gallery for all Singaporeans. It makes you understand, appreciate and be proud by letting you see the differences, the changes and the struggles our predecessors been through the history.

Absolutely amazing~

And you can only know how amazing it is till you visit it ; )

Oh, and you might think this museam gallery is just like the museam gallery of the old times where you go in read information on walls, look at historical chracters, look at articles, look at artefacts but you don't know what it is or why it is related to our history?

This is where you're so wrong.

This is a MODERN museam.

Visitors are equipped with a Companion guide, a multimedia interactive e-guide in hand on every visitor which you can use it to know more on various individual historical stories, characters, articles and artifacts thorugh listening and viewing on the screen of the Companion, at your own time, and own space. Its like an IPOD video player in hand except its bigger and smarter, if you know how to use it. And it is easy to useit too.

All you need to do is to key numbers marked at the floor of a space (an area of a certain period in history), or numbers labelled to an article or an artefact, it will then just give you the sights and sounds to enjoy.

Who needs a guide or curator? Learning history on your own time is easier now.

~~~~~

Just before we went on to visit the other four galleries relating to the lifestyle historical cultures of Singaporeans, I saw a strange creature at the balcony of NMS..

No. I'm not Sang Nila Utama discovering Singa..

I saw a Merlion!

Actually just a fake mock-up of Singapura Merlionus, Singapore's most famous folklore creature.

The exhibits of it even tells you the birth cycle and period of the species and its feed or food for it.

Though it looked more like a dog-sealion than a feline-fish hybrid it is REALLY DAMN CUTE! If it was real, I would want it as my pet!

Wonder if our booming biotech industry could make one for every Singaporean household! Heh..

The Merlion, Singapura Merlionus
(Click on the pics to check out the pics!)

The other four remaining galleries of Fashion, Film, Food and Photography also showcased a lifestyle culture to the history of Singaporeans.

But by that time we went through it, Shian and I were already hungry, the Food gallery was made last to go cos' we know it could only make our hunger worse.

We used a total of about 4-5 hours going through the museam, and it was quite tiring.

But I'll definitely visit the museam again and again, next time!

~~~~~

Before I really left the museam, I went to buy the cute Ti Gong (vintage metal cup) at the Museam Shop that Zane has been talking about and which she like to have. And its sure pretty expensive for such a small ti gong (it cost $7.90) which I can cheaply buy a bigger and plain one at Chinatown.



But since it was meant for tourist sale and it does have a special print on it, guess it is worthy for a gift for my friend.

But the scariest tourist item in the shop is actually a nicely designed t-shirt with golden durian print, which actually cost about $170! OH MY GOD!

I can almost buy a pair of new SB shoes I like with that kind of money loh!

原來愛情這麼傷
By 梁詠琪



我睁开眼睛 却感觉不到天亮
东西吃一半 莫名其妙哭一场
我忍住不想 时间变得更漫长
也与你有关 否则又开始胡思乱想

我日月无光 忙得不知所以然
找朋友交谈 其实却帮不上忙
以为会习惯 有你在才是习惯
你曾住在我心上 现在空了一个地方

原来爱情这么伤 比想像中还难
泪水总是不听话 幸福躲起来不声不响
太多道理太牵强 道理全是一样
说的时候很简单 爱上后却正巧打乱

我日月无光 忙得不知所以然
找朋友交谈 其实却帮不上忙
以为会习惯 有你在才是习惯
你曾住在我心上 现在空了一个地方

原来爱情这么伤 比想像中还难
泪水总是不听话 幸福躲起来不声不响
太多道理太牵强 道理全是一样
说的时候很简单 爱上后却正巧打乱

只想变的坚强 强到能够去忘
无所谓悲伤 只要学会抵抗
原来爱情这么伤
原来爱情是这样 这样峰回路转
泪水明明流不干 瞎了眼还要再爱一趟
有一天终于打完 思念的一场战
回过头再看一看
原来爱情那么伤
下次还会不会这样

~~~~~

I felt so touched by this song.. (V_V)

Making Sense.

I feel so tired right now.

I woke up at 4.30am this morning and I felt I couldn't sleep no more. So I went to watch Doraemon episodes again till I'm bored and went to sleep again at 5.15am. Then I woke up at 8am again to prepar for my interview for a multimedia trainer position.

And so I went through the interview, and it seems like they would hire me as they seem to be in need of such trainers.

After the interview by the senior HR executive, I quite like the job. But looking far, I wonder I far I might go in this job. This job basically need a one year commitment, with a contract signed, of course.

But I don't really quite like the idea of the contract. I don't want to get stuck legally or eventually financially if I felt I want to bail out on the job for better opportunities or jobs I really like.

I know I can learn a lot of things on this trainer job. But I suddenly realised even stronger what Zane said about why she like doing her current job even though she's kind of in a big human problem at her job.

The trainer job is prospective if I work hard to perform well.

But long-term wise, I was thinking whether the time used on those experiences might be worthy for my future dream of make my own product brand.

The only good thing is about the stable income, but I don't want to get stuck with that kind of pay, and if I'm not performing up to expectation, the rewards may be nothing.

Aiya. Fuck lah. I also don't want to hiam.

But seeing some of my friends getting stuck in the jobs they really dislike or even hate. Makes me think twice about signing contracts.

In Search of the Holy Flash Book.

I went to the library just now.

I went to look for some tutorial books on Flash programme at the Jurong Regional Library. Wanted to revise and perhaps learn some advance stuff on the programme.

Frankly speaking, I rarely go to the library, even though my nearest library was the biggest community library, I never had the idea of "tuanging" down there before.

Next time got mood to "tuang", maybe I go there.

Nice building from its backside.

I'm kind of stupid. I took my street's feeder bus service 333, which goes a long way to the central of the town. Though its cheaper, it used 30 minutes of my life for me to get there. I should have taken service 198 which actually goes straight and use less than 15 minutes, some more no need to cross the road.

Anyway, I didn't find what I need. Only checking the system again did I realise the book is on, loan. Didn't know till I reference the location code which is only located in the library, but not on the Internet. Stupid right?

Before I left, I saw something familiar, a small exhibition area of the history of the Singapore Changi Airport.

I saw this before at the URA building's City Gallery.

It is also where I spotted this:

The picture I contributed to the history of Singapore's Changi Airport;
a picture of my uncle taking his flight to Taiwan for his studies during the 1980s.

Cool eh?

After that I went to walk around at the central, looking to buy something for xiao mei if she buys me a gift from KL. I damn pan dang one, that's why I must return the grace. But I can't seem to find anything suitable for her. Don't know what to buy either so I just pray she don't buy anything for me.. Heh. Or else I give her her gift in return some other time.

Before I left Jurong central, I bump into Kent, my polytechinic dude who gave me a lot of nonsense during those project days, the infamous Chan Kent.

Got to sit down and ctach up with him a bit. He's still a "fucker" alright. His mouth is still hopelessly tactless and merciless. He didn't really go through the army hardships so he's still the same.

Nice to meet him anyway. Not exactly nice to listen to him, pollute my ears..

Haiz. Tomorrow got to wake up early for a morning interview. Hope I can get this job and become a sensei.. Hehe.. Heard its fun and happy being a sensei from my friends who work as a multimedia trainer before.

忘記
By JJ 林俊傑



感覺夢醒著　感覺心痛著
感覺你不在了　誰來證明愛是存在的
我們被困著　被過去騙著
這一切都不一樣　世界怎麼了
　
難道說選擇了忘記　而解放了自己
是否就擁有挑戰愛情的勇氣
當時光交纏在一起 成說不清的思緒
我卻只要那段最美的回憶
　
memory　飄蕩如空氣

明知你在那裡　卻有難以跨越的距離
我們在放棄　透白了記憶
以為就可以偽裝無邪的美麗
　
難道說選擇了忘記　而解放了自己
是否就擁有挑戰愛情的勇氣
當時光交纏在一起 成說不清的思緒
我卻只要那段最美的回憶
　
我卻只要那段最美的 回憶

A new single by JJ 林俊傑, quite nice but a bit sad lah. Heard it broadcast from MTV Chinese cable TV.

What The..

I am still awake watching Doraemon episodes and blogging about my life at this hour!



I must be going haywire and CRAZY! (Z.@)!



A nice Sunday dawn though : )

Weekend Junkie! (Maybe Weekdays Too!)

My life is really getting routinely slack.

Not that I wanted this situation I'm in now, but I really got no choice.

Not that income is meagre, I have to stay at home, even though it bores me. Going out alone may be still boring as well. I really wanted some company for comfort sometimes.

Wonder I should get a pet or something.. Hamsters again? Hehe..

~~~~~

I woke up late in the afternoon again. A lifestyle I seem it as unhealthy. Always sleeping late at around 2am (+- 1 hour), and wake up during late morning or in the early afternoon.

With my right foot still recovering, exercising my legs is totally out of the question till it is healed 100%. Maybe I should start to work on my upper body though.

But I think now I'm going to have another "bad" habit, eating junk food.

Eating junk food is one of the best ways to pass time but it can be unhealthy too if we eat too much of it.

Buying junk food for me is a rarity, the junk food I always normally eat is instant mee.

Look what I bought from 7-11 convenient (grow fat) store!

I bought:

* 2 cartons of NutriSoy Soya Bean drink for me to gulp down within 6 days before it expires!

* 1 mini-tub Ben & Jerry's New York Super Fudge Chunk Choco Ice Cream!

* 2 bowls of instant noodles; one is chicken flavour and one is my favourite thai seafood tom-yam flavour!

But luckily, after losing about 2kgs from the marathon or whatever, I think I can try put on some weight. But its the best I can put on muscle mass instead of fat. As you can se, not all I bought are "unhealthy" junk food. Food can be healthy when only your diet is taken in a balance way with exercise, of cos'.

I ate the seafood tom-yam flavour bowl noodles for my LUNCH at 6pm. Haha.

Lucky my xiao mei asked me out to join her for dinner before she leave for her holidays in KL. Or else I'll be to lazy to even go out and buy take-away, and then I would have eaten another bowl of instant mee!

Anyway, I hope xiao mei can enjoy her holidays with her friend at Genting Highlands and forget about her unhappiness! But poor mei is sick again with fever, cough and flu. Hope she get well immediately soon so that she can enjoy.

...Or else she'll start to ee ee orh orh into my ears again. Hehe.

Long~~ Day..

Unfeeling. That's the energy aura that I have been giving out today.

I went for a job interview, but it doesn't seem prospective as the employer was doubtful whether I can still do web design and interactives after all these years from my polytechnic days. I didn't had a portfolio related to that either.

I think I am not very hopeful on that job..

I am not feeling down because of this, but neither I'm feeling hyper about it. I just feel neutral..

In order not think so much, I went to play some LAN gaming since I am in town. Didn't really have much fun and new games at home for me to play with. I played the whole afternoon, I just want to numb my brain.

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My right foot still hurts, especially I was wearing leather shoes for interview. At its worst, it hurt so much that I limped very obviously when I went back home.

After reaching home, I had my dinner and did some reading.

Then suddenly I got a call from Vel to ask me go KTV along with Joe and Gen.

Without much hesitation, I just go for it. I simply didn't give a damn for my tight budget recently becos' of my jobless days..

Now my foot is injured, I can't work the catering part-time job either. I feel so fucked..

Anyway, I also called June along to KTV since I know she's pretty bored with her life recently and she came to join too. Forgot to call my rest of my KTV kakis cos' I was having calls from my gal friends.

But sadly, I wasn't really in the best mood to entertain anyone.. Not even when Janet and Zane called me to chat, I was in the mood to entertain.. but.. I just make sure they feel okay.

I just try my best not to be too negative at the end of the day. Make myself to enjoy, smile and laugh when possible, especially at the KTV.

At least the ethics of Gen, Joe and Vel really made me laughed anyway.

I just hope June wasn't too bored, as she doesn't seem too participative, but I think she may be just tired that's all. Afterall, she did some shopping and got a new pair of shoes again.

Vel singing Japanese song sia!

A big plushy bear singing like Jacky Cheung!

The Meeting of The Old Gentlemen.

Had a wonderful dinner with my old polytechnic mates, Joseph, Andhika and Chee Wee (nevermind Chee Wee, seen him pretty often. Haha).

We manage to catch up with alot of things and sharing some of our past.



The Christmas special meal at Pizza Hut restaurant was absolutely wonderful and nice, there was the Chirstmas pizza, in which I had two slices. I also ate their very nice chicken wings and I even ordered beef meatballs in alfredo sauce for every one, and that is very yummy too.

After meal, we continued to chat. And there after we went ahead which an hour on the sport of pool. Luckily, I can say my pool skills are still with me, but I needed to brush them up. Everyone's skills are still there too.

I lost every game but I didn't feel anything bad. The socialising part is the important one.

: )

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My right foot hurt again after I went out wearing one of my darlings, the iron grey suede classic Nike SB.

*Ouch* I better be careful. Think I still need to continue my own self-treatment..

Thank You, God.

I am walking again. And it really feels good to move around without pain and without "wheelchair".

Even though I haven't fully recovered, at least now I could have that freedom to go out again.

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Suddenly, I went to take my weight on my weighing scale.



And I realised my weight had dropped to around 47kg.

Wonder is that a good thing or bad thing. Hopefully its a lost of unwanted fats rather than muscle mass. But this lost is most probably due to the marathon.

I am still blessed.

Luckily, I didn't gain weight staying at home like the times when I was awaiting to start my polytechnic schooling. My God, I gained 4kg then.

It feels good to be slim : )

Zane would definitely feel the pressure if I tell her I lost weight :P

Everyone Needs To Be Love.



Every person in this world got their own problems that make them unhappy.

Family problems, relationship problems, friendship problems, emotional problem, personal problems, work problems.. All sort of problems. Human really got endless of problems.

But I think the most sickening problem is one that you already saw it coming and you couldn't stop it.

Just like, I got a new handphone for free yesterday becos' my dad got the extra new handphone for free as he was upgrading his. And I was suppose to be happy. But I know that other than that, its going to have complications.

And it really did. My dad was making his "big" fuss of some handphone problems with me and my mother. This made my whole family unhappy. I don't see the worth of getting a new handphone and make the whole family unhappy loh.

Haiz..

Anyway, I got over it pretty quick.

Cos' I know I am bless enough to be staying with one fussy family under one roof : )

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As an Uncle Agony, my closest friends would confide and share with me their happenings, their problems, their happiness and their woes.. They even share with me me whether they're having their PMSes..

(Funny, today got two persons having their PMSes, got so coincidence mah? That's why I'm pretty busy today being Uncle Agony.)

All these sharing, I didn't really mind. Cos' from their experiences (not in terms of bioloigically hor), I learn more on where I stand in this world.

But of course, in sharing their hearts, I also learn more on why are my friends like that this way.

And today, I learn why my xiao mei behaves the way she is. Knowing her past story of how she grew up just now (which is really, really a sad one), I really empathise her. She was crying then and as her brotherly friend, all I can do is to cheer her up.

I really want her to be stronger person, and hope that she'll be a happy person as well.

We all should learn to let go of our problems sometimes, take a break, think about it before we go back strong to deal with it. This is the way to solve problems, its not a way to escape it.

And for my FRIEND or PENG YOU: just tell straight to that "clock face" that you don't need his attention or interference in your working life.

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Sigh~ Where is my Love-a-lot bear? She can help me spread some love around.. Caring alone is so tiring sometimes.. Need my own CareBear also.

*Ouch*

Woke up early in the morning for no good reason today.

Think my bioclock is seriously screwed. Almost literally everyday since a few weeks, I slept at 1am to 3am. So basically I can only sleep at late hours, work up early, nap in the afternoons.

Screwed up.

Even like yesterday I slept at 1am. Becos' xiao mei Janet is sick and needed some attention. I was tired, but since she's in need of some care and concern, I couldn't turn her down.

Anyway, my right foot still hurts, and I'm still limping.



Now, I got to tie and bandage my own foot so that when I walk or limp, it wouldn't hurt so much. Its like some muscle is out of place.

Think I'm most probably staying home for a few days to allow my foot to recover on its own.

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Even when my foot is injured, I still went to the movies with Huimin, Alvin, Hong Yun (Thomas), Chee Wee and Shiling.

Its been a while we had such a movie outing together.

We watched the "Flag of Our Fathers" directed by Clint East Wood and produce by Clint Eastwood and Steven Spielberg. And with this kind of people direction, this is one of the best war films I've seen, with a typical Clint Eastwood style of directing.

It was technically a war film but it certainly has a deeper meaning on war's cruel torture on the minds of men who fought it and even their families.



The story basically revolve around the photo of the planting of the American flag on Iwo Jima's Mount Suribachi, which was one of the most iconic inspiring victory pictures on the war in the Pacific.

I've heard and read on this flag planting story on the surface, but never really know on the full story on this battle on this porkchop island, and this movie really made me learn more about its history through the eyes and mouth of accounts from the war veterans.

The gory scenes of blood and fleshes in this movie is also very.. erm.. gore. Not say I like to see such scene, but it made this war film more realistic on the true bloodshed of wars.

I say this is one of the coolest war film around. The story has a very deep meaning for heroes who never wanted to be called heroes.

What An Experiencing Run!

Yes! I finished my 42.125km, with a right foot injury though..

I completed the marathon in 6 hours 37 minutes to be exact, with no wink of sleep the night before (anxiety maybe). But still, its amazing I completed it with me still alive and "walking" (cannot kick lah!).

Its also a record distance I ever made in one shot in my life.



The marathon is truely a great experience, it was especially enjoyable at the first half of the distance.

It also made me see the unknown and hidden treasure places in Singapore. Like they say, if you never been there, you never knew its there : )

The finishing half is the real pain. I think I kind of injured my right foot, pull one of the base muscle there at around the 19km mark. After that, all I could do was to stop, walk, get muscle heat rub and massage it, in hoping it will recover quick.

But it never did. So I had to walk all the way, for the rest of the 23km distance.

The rest of the distance was really hard, basically it was becos' of the soring pain. The last 10km is even more worse, because both of my feet are dying of the excruciating pain.

The most irritating thing is that I could only walk instead of running. Becos' it took very long for me to complete one kilometre just by walking. It made my journey felt like a route march and I hate route marches.

But anyway, I tried to enjoy the rest of my journey, I treat it like some sightseeing walk.

Some things I saw are really beautiful.

Nice families cheering you on. Passer-bys too. Beautiful people, plants, sea, beaches, buidlings, cityscape and the sea of marathoners. Weird and funny things happening around. Amazing.

: )

I'll train harder for my next marathon next year. To experience it once again.

Next time must drag "fat" Zane to train with me. Hee..

Museam Mugging!



Went to mug at the re-opening of the National Museam with my fellow army sergeant friend Khai just now.

Our new museam is really cool. Not to mention the re-opening public show was awesome too.

But too bad. Couldn't upload the wonderful pictures and videos I've taken now. Gotta turn in and rest early ASAP after my tomorrow's energy porridge breakfast is cooked!

Tomorrow morning is my 42.195km marathon run!

Argh!

I'm running for my love and hope! 0:)

Bring Xiao-Mei Go Clubbing Very De Mah Fan..

Hey! I went clubbing last night. Was suppose to be clubbing with Joel, my old secondary school classmate and with his bunch of clique. But sadly, I got my xiao mei Janet out also, so my plan didn't went the way it was..

Anyway, it was really happening at Clarke Quay last night. With The Cannery (the Cannery Street) opened, Clarke Quay (CQ) is now in full bloom. There was Scottish highlander music in play of drums and bagpipes for the Highlander's opening (a bar + restaurant). Other new restaurants and shops opened up. The most noticeable opening is definitely The Kandi Bar, which is definitely on of a hip place to go to.

I tried to get into MoS using my fee entry SMS, but sadly, the first 500 people with the SMS invite already went in for free and got their free Levi's croc plushy.

Anyway, I don't think I want to club with a plushy.

But still I got into MoS and paid the cover charge to get my stamp and got out.

Then, I had a short supper with my best friend Elvin who came all the way down to CQ from Tiong Bahru after his evening classes. We ate at Coffee Club having one of my fav dish, Mushroom Crepe, while Elvin got his filling of his very big sandwich!

Mmm! Mushroom Crepe!

So much for light snack!

Meanwhile having to chat and talk cock with Elvin, I was also waiting for Janet to arrive and go club together.

When Janet arrived, the girl was already laughing in highness. She just went drinking Chivas with his dad (=.=)! She just came to join me to dance off her high.

The R&B Hiphop music was nice at Smoove, but the crowd is too young. School kids!

After we went into MoS, we got our drinks first. I can say xiao mei is a daring and fast drinker. All I just did is one turn away and she could suck it all of her glass already (yes, I mean suck it). No need to say, I have seen her prowess in drinking and that she's a good drinker.

After that we went to the dance floor and danced.

I didn't enjoy dancing with her, because I never felt like I was dancing with her in the first place.

When dancing with a female counterpart only, normally both should be dancing face-to-face.

I don't have this problem with June, Zane, Vel or even other gals. But I just know I got this problem with Janet.

But when dancing with Janet, she would either drift away.. Then we'll be like separated by a person.. Or else I'll be dancing behind her like a shadow (because she turn her back to me).. or else she dance her side to me.

I felt so funny you know?

Even a stranger would come and ask me, "Eh? Is she your girlfriend or friend? Then how come you not dancing with her?" Then I'll be push near to her. I'll get somewhat irritated, then this would go through in my mind, " (=.=) Wah piang loh.. She's not even like dancing with me, why should I go dance with her?"

Even like last Wednesday, Chee Keong was asking me why I didn't dance with her? Why I didn't "protect" her?

My God.. I simply don't know how to explain..

She's 21 year-old, I know she know what she's doing. She's trying to attract other guys I know, and I hope my presence wouldn't affect her mission.

But yet, in a certain sense if you know her in person, she's still something like a "little girl" mentality. But as much as I wanted to "protect" her or dance with her, I don't think I can do anything if she's like that.

I think bringing her out to club with her is kind of destructive to my image sometimes.

I don't know if I can say she's kind of desperate also.

She kind of "hitch" a guy yesterday, again. Although she didn't like guys younger than her (the guy is 18), I didn't know why she had to allow giving her handphone and allow the guy to key in his number. But that's not the key issue.

The key issue is that, she didn't like the guy, but she felt bad that she deleted the guy's number at first. Then she manage to somehow recovered the guy's number after the deletion, then she sends the guy a message giving this xiao di di false hope..

Evil arh she. She said she's going to play with him for a while before she deletes his number again. *Piangz*

I think my xiao mei should learn how to reject people. She doesn't even know how to delete a number and forget about it.

Jialat..