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Thursday, August 30, 2007

Steady As It Goes...

This week I am kept pretty busy. Work came in but once I finish it they would came back again for changes, which is part of the creative process.

After so long, you can say I am pretty use to that process but still it can a wee-bit little frustrating sometimes as there's fear it will change for don't know how many umpteen times and ultimately in the end change back to the first draft.

But I guess I am not the only person encounter their own problems at work. Even FRIEND got her own too. She tried to talk to me about hers for the day a few days ago, but I was quite shagged from my day's work and my stupid computer encoutered some serious error and I was doing recovery during that evening.

I roughly understand what she went through. That lack of appreciation from your colleagues or even your boss that you done your best. But nothing was sound out rewarding to your ears (or sometimes they even depreciate your work).

But all well.. work is like that sometimes. Sometime your colleagues or boss could be shagged too. Normally I try to let incidents pass, unless its an insult to presonal integrity.

Anyway, I hope tomorrow I can get my pay and bank in my cheaque ASAP. I'm almost broke.

Hope PENG YOU will jiayou. Same goes for everyone.

And I hope Maki will get well from her depression soon.

Everyone need to get control of their lives and live their best.

Wednesday, August 29, 2007

月牙灣
by F.I.R



敦煌古墓的沙粒 帶著我們的記憶
我從半路看回去 這秦關漫漫好蜿踞
夢想穿過了西域 包含了多少的彩衣
埃及像一本遊記 我會找尋它的密語
看 月牙彎下的淚光
在絲路之上被遺忘
是誰的心啊 孤單地留下
他還好嗎 我多麽想愛他
那永恒的淚
凝固的一句話 也許可能蒸發
是誰的愛呀 用淚水堅強
今生呼喚 就讓我融化
那一滴雨水 演化成我翅膀
向著我愛的人 追吧
最新音樂盡在 夢想穿過了西域
包含了多少的彩衣 埃及像一本遊記
我會找尋它的密語
看 月牙彎下的淚光
在絲路之上被遺忘
是誰的心啊 孤單地留下
他還好嗎 我多麽想愛他
那永恒的淚 凝固的一句話
也許可能蒸發
是誰的愛呀 用淚水堅強
今生呼喚 就讓我融化
那一滴雨水 演化成我翅膀
向著我愛的人 追吧
最新音樂盡在
是誰的心啊 孤單地留下
他還好嗎 我多麽想愛他
那永恒的淚 凝固的一句話
也許可能蒸發
是誰的愛呀 用淚水堅強
今生呼喚 就讓我融化
那一滴雨水 演化成我翅膀
向著我愛的人 追吧

Monday, August 27, 2007

Windsurfing Weekend

What a shag weekend. Finally completed my windsurfing proficiency level 1 course today =)

Windsurfing is really intresting. Not only you have to learn how to balance, you have to learn how to sail, which is the difficult part for beginners.

My coach Boon Tiong says I have the potential of being a windsurfer. But I wonder how true is that. Perhaps its just an encouragement. I wasn't discouraged over my mistakes and failures when I was practising becos' I know I am learning a new skill.

Maybe its because I'm more able to balance well due to my experiece in wakeboarding or cableski bah. My ability to watch, learn and pick-up also helped. By Sunday, I was able to sail out and somehow steer my surf with my first few tries with all those difficult looking methods. Although I kept falling into the water, but I feel happy I am picking up fast.

Anyway, its good to pick up a new skill.

My license to windsurf



On the way back to the bus stop to go home is really long.. but there's always some intresting scenes to see.


The East Coast Chicken - Beware of Bird Flu..; Cute cats sleeping together




Sandcastle! City of Possibilities for CITIZENS? Like real...



~~~~~

After my course in the morning on Sunday, I was thinking of going home.And then surprisingly, Peng You went to windsurf in the afternoon almost immediately after my course that day when I left just about 10 minutes..

I could have join her for more fun but I was pretty tired afterr my 2-day course, and more over Sunday I woke up at 7am to head to East Coast X|

After course, I was bored. I had no plans. I am financially poor. But suddenly I thought of going to Linda's office in Siglap again (I tried to go on Saturday but she's not free).

And finally I went to her place and met her after so long, a few months since I last met her. And finally, I got to meet her cool dog, an English Spaniels, KOOKIE!

Kookie is really cute. With his long ears and innocents eyes, he can certainly melt your heart. Not only that, he's well-disciplined doggy and is a good boy.


Good boy Kookie



I packed some McDonald's lunch for Linda in the late afternoon while I got my KFC for lunch. After eat my lunch, I gave the remaining bones to Kookie. He ate fast crunching easily on the bones. While I was eating, he just sit beside quietly and look at me constantly with his innocent eyes. Hah. Cute.

But in the end gave him the bones he wanted of course. Got to hi five his paw when I ask him to, to make him work for his food. Hah..

Linda even show me that she can bite his nose bridge and Kookie doesn't even retaliate.

Kookie is certainly cool!

Had a good time catching up with Linda too. Hope she can survive her rough emotional period of her life =)

Friday, August 24, 2007

Argh.

Frustrations are getting into my head.

Recent days I have nothing to do at work and that bores me. I am living under constant fear that when my bosses are around at the 6pm time, I suddenly may have to stay back and work OT. Sickening fear.

But anyway, today I might have to work OT after work. I was supoose to do OT this weekend but I have my windsurfing course. Sickening man, its Friday man, but its my so-called "production period".

But why when production period I am doing nothing in the office? I really doubt they had actually work for me for the proposed OT on the weekend in the first place. They are just waiting for things to happen too. I don't know if they can control or change the situation, but I think something have to be done lah. But I rather they gather some of the jobs' contents first before they passed it to me.

Sian man. Totally not in the mood to head for work. Later don't have work or not..

Better have work during normal working hours.. Don't expect me to do nothing the whole day and later stay back for OT to do, this feeling is damn crap one.

~~~~~

Even yesterday night I was also frustrated man.

Don't know why when things happened, they happened all at the same time. Suddenly, I was bombarded by stuff. FRIEND called me, Evon SMSed me, Huimin message me online,I was doing Maki some favour and then my mum called me do something.

Then even some thoughts and issues came into my mind.. ALL at the SAME TIME..

Think I going crazy?

Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Secret

I went to have a dinner yesterday with Vel, Huiyan, Alvin and Chee Wee at Ochard Cineleisure. After that we went to watch Jay Chow's Secret.

If you think its just a normal romantic love story like me, surprisingly, there is a twist to it. A secret which I cannot tell.

But basically, the story is like the movie by Keanu Reeves and Sandra Bullock in The Lake House.

But overall the story is quite touching.

It certainly thaw part of my heart before I decide to quickly freeze it again..

Sunday, August 19, 2007

Da Las Suppaz!





Is not Good Friday. Its someone's birthday. The dude's not 33, he's 23.

But somehow when Soonwei was passing the basket of free bread around the table. He felt like Jesus on his Last Supper (Choy! Touch wood! And when I mean touch wood, I don't mean the wooden cross).

Lol. When I say Soon Wei came with bread, I said, "Jesus!", I think many laughed.

But there's only 12 people on the table? Where is the 13th guy? The number 13th guy is the waiter I guess? The one with curly hairly hair and curly beard, he actually looked like Judas in The Last Supper by Leonardo da Vinci.

Where's the "Holy Chalice" then?

Well the alcohol was later. After the dinner.

~~~~~

I headed to MoS with Huiyan, a rare visitor to clubbing especially she's a "Cinderella". She was going to club with her colleagues, so I decided to join her for a while as I really miss MoS's Smoove. Been clubbing for quite many weeks at dBl O.

Was going to Janet's pre-22nd birthday gathering at dBl O after the MoS but she's having a really late dinner. I only went there around 1am.

And so I danced with late comers Alvin and Bryan who were initially indecisive about joining me at MoS. Kept on challenging me to dance at the empty dance floor, but of cos', anyone who know me knew I would accept the challenge but I don't want to get fooled by the two hum ji kias.

So I told there its either they go down first and dance, or they pay me 50 bucks to go down and dance first. After dragging time, they finally chose the first option.

And there and after more crazy clubbers came onto the dance floor and soon the dance floor was filled.

We went dance floor hopping to 54 retro (my God, I actually danced there!) and later, the main Arena. But I had to leave to join poor lonely Alex at dBl O.

So when Janet arrived there, I immediate went down to join them.

But nothing much really happened there. Just a simple blessing for Janet who's sticking around with his new boy. Alex and I felt extra among her 20 over friends there. And when we finally hit the dance floor, Alex and I bought a jug of housepour and we started playing 5-10 immediately.

We managed to clear the drink within 10 minutes or so. And then we decided to leave.

Talking about fast and furious, the whole clubbing experience at dBlo I think its only last about 30 to 40 minutes.

Lucky me went back to Clarke Quay to share a cab trip home, but poor Alex had to take the night bus home.

Oh well, not everyday is Sunday, they say.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Beautiful Seed

Two days of putting myself in heaven. Just bought Corrinne May's Beautiful Seed from HMV CityLink Mall yesterday. And then I immediately went home to listen to the heavenly music made by God.



Her new songs are so nice. Love them so much.

~~~~~

Even the day before I went to buy the album, I am chasing for the sight of Corrinne May.

She was to appear at Barfly's mini concert of Thursday evening. Can't find any friends to accompany to go see after work. And so I went alone.

Surprisingly, upon reaching there I bumped into Hong Yun and Kelly, the couple, who are also fans of Corrinne May. We queued getting into the bar for quite a long time, but in the end we gave up when we're inside as its too crowded and we're too far from the stage, and we're all hungry without dinner.

In the end, I ended up going dinner with them at East Coast Park's food centre. On my way to East Coast Park, I listened to Corrinne May's in Hong Yun care that Kelly bought. Enjoyable consolation for missing that mini concert.

Hah. I am so thick skin, that I became their accidental gooseberry on their date.

But of course, I know my limits. And they're good friends who understand too, so I am graceful they allow me to join them for the dinner. I'm just an "oops" that happened on their date.

In the end, I went home earlier so I don't disturb the rest of their date.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Batam Cableski: Exposed!

Here are some of the scenes exposed from my trip to Batam. The nicest and the crappiest can only be found at my blog!


Us without the camera woman; the babes on the trip




Safety first!; Yah~ Act cute... (Yah.. Ew.. I know. Haha)




Had to protect sensitive areas from some paparazzi sometimes (=.=)' ;
Sexy back eh? =P




Me!; Me again!




After our Indonesia massage at a bar; Beer = Cheers!




All of us = )


Monday, August 13, 2007

Shiok

I am back! And I have only one word for my Batam Cableski trip. It is "shiok"!

Woke up early having only three hours of sleep on Sunday to share a cab along with Gen and Vel to head down to the Habour Front where the Singapore Cruise Centre is, where we took our ferry trip to Batam.

There we met up with Darrick, Gen's colleague and finally long-time-no-see Shah and his girlfriend, who was my fellow intern during poly days, Latifah. With them, there were the other bunch of friends too.

On our ferry journey there, its definitely sleep of cos'.

Upon reaching there, we took a bus after clearing our customs where we reach the Batam Cableski whihc is nearby.

From there we set to action. After some brief instructions from our coordinator Long, most of the newbies who never tried cableski before (I didn't try wakeboarding on cableski system before) first try-out the knee boarding.

After only one round of kneeboarding, I tried to start off with the wakeboarding.

Starting out wakeboarding on the cableski wasn't easy as I expected as I heard to momentum to get up and stand is much more faster than gradual standing by wakeboarding from a boat.

After trying out for the whole morning, falling into and drinking the water about 7 times, I almost gave up stopping because I was hungry by 1pm. Tried remembering all the theories I got from my wakeboarding instructor about a year ago. Slowly I realised, I was doing the same mistakes I had then.

Tired, my eighth try I simply shift my lazy butt on the the board with the proper posture, squatting down on my bended leg. I didn't stand up for about 3 seconds but I was on the go and I am stable. And just like that I stood up and I was eating wind instead of drinking water.

The rest of the day was basically trying to conquer the whole round. Out of 5 critical points, I cleared until 3. That 3rd critical point was so sharp the pull, that I suffered a bit of concussions slamming into the water. Ouch.

Vel was slacking and sleeping the whole day, too lazy to be my gorup photographer while Darrick wasted the fun by trying only 2 rounds of kneeboarding.

Gen however didn't stop trying, even though I taught her my lazy method which I think is the best way to get it. Howevere, by late afternoon she was tired, and we all decided to go to a nearby hotel clubhouse for an Indonesia massage.

The massage was my first time for a massage and it was quite funny. When the massaeur was massaging my thigh and it tickled me I just could bear it and started to laugh spreading the laughter to Darrick and our Indo massauers. Damn funny.

After the massage, my body certainly felt more relaxed and less tense.

We headed for a nearby bar for a quick drink of beer and tidbits at the sunset before we went for our showers and prepare to head home to Singapore.

Reaching Singapore, we had dinner at Sushsi Tei at Vivo. Yummy!

Wow, sure spent alot of money on this trip for one day. But it was definitely worth it. = )

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Time Flash!

OMG! Time really going damn fast now. Just came back from a movie with Shiling, Chee Wee, Alvin and Hong Yun at Plaza Singapura. We watched cool action movie by Donnie Yen, Flashpoint.

Just got back and quickly packed my stuff for tomorrow cable ski trip at Batam. Got to reach Harbour Front at 7.30am. Look at the time now..

Anyway, before I go, I better update my blog with the good times I had today.

~~~~~

With the people I mentioned above not forgetting Hong Yung girlfriend Kelly, we all went to East Coast Park for cycling. Relaxing and leisure. Had a quick chillout for ice cream at McDonald's.

After the whole afternoon of cycling, we went to have a nice dinner at a famous Black Pepper Crab meal at Joo Chiat Place.




Hong Yun managed to use all his ten fingers to fight for the delicious crab meat in the shells. What a dirty warfare the meal was for all of us but Hong Yun prove himself to be the one using most of his hands than his mouth to get the meat out.

The black pepper crabs along with friend rice and fried kang kong were really nice. Would want to go and try the next time I'm there again.

Well, after the meal. It was the movie as mentioned.

What a great Saturday!

Saturday, August 11, 2007

I Had a Date with..

.. my new Prudential insurance agent yesterday afternoon = )

If some of you noticed, it was part of my goal to purchase another insurance plan around July this year. The plan that I most probably would purchase would be a life + accident + investment plan.

But since my second insurance agent changed again around early this year, the thought of buying one slowly dissappeared out of my mind. The third insurance agent was the manager of my second but he wasn't servicing me nor I had even saw his face.

So there comes a chance when I met another Prudential agent on the streets.

Evon, a cute and chirpy gal whom I finally met up for an appointment with yesterday. She's energetic and on the go, and she introduced me the further improved life + accident + investment combo plan which evolved further since the last introduction by my second agent.

I didn't immediately vindicate that she's a dedicated life planner. I did further question about her immediate goals and dreams, even her relationship with her current company, and how she felt being an insurance agent is (I don't want her to drop-out of the insurance industry in a few months' time). In the end I decide to put my trust in her, which is better than the current one who's not even trying to contact me or anything. I felt I'll have a better insurance relationship with Evon.

So I decide to buy that combo plan with her.

I also decided to transfer the management of my PruCash savings policy plan to her even though she would not be getting the commsion for managing it, she willingly and happily accepted it.

Now.. I need to think of ways to earn more money other than my day job.. =P

~~~~~

Oh. By the way, I also got a new hair cut at a salon recommended by FRIEND. I didn't particularly request for anything specific just something new.

But now my hairstyle looks like one of my previous.. In some way, a bit like of Sun Yanzi's previous too..

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

Back to the Job.. Or Not =)

Okay. I'm well again after a day of MC. But the health prospects I see in my job is still not good. Lol.

Now I wonder, what am I going to do now that I am going to quit a job I in whcih passion is six feet under. Most probably I am going to be work still to fulfill the last responsibilities.

I haven't wrote my resignation letter yet cos' I dont' have a printer. Well, simply becos' I am not quitting on impulse, it is on the plan to quit though. Well, the time will come anyway.

Meanwhile, I hang on.

Monday, August 06, 2007

Plenty of Fun.

I have plenty of fun this week, which helped me along going through this troubled past week to whether to quit or not to quit.

Manage to drink and dance my troubles away on Wednesday night at dbl O, along with the usual suspects, June, Sebby, Alex, Janet and Daniel (Kee Siong), along with many other cameos.

(Oh, thanks to Janet, for letting me join her friends at her neighbourhood McDonalds when I had a bad day on Tuesday then.)

The night at dbl O was fun. Enough for me to forget the unhappiness at work.

Didn't catch any girls though. Damn! =P

~~~~~

And then there's the Saturday night.

Because we clubbed last Wednesday, we somehow skipped drinking and merrying that night. We went for dinner and boardgames at Pit Stop Cafe, which was really fun and healthy.

We had lots of laughter.

Too bad there's only June, Vel Alex and me. Or else, it would be even be greater and more happening.

After the gamming session at the cafe, we headed down for a KTV session at KBox Paradiz Centre at Selegie Road. All of us sang our asses off till we're tired going home at 3am.

Think that gave me a fever today, drinking beer and the forced singing made my throat hurt. Most probably an infection. Wasted my Sunday.

But I hope tomorrow I'll still be sick and I could take MC and stay at home. Nothing much to do at work anyway, and also, I'm not really interested to work also.

Sounds irresponsible, but people who seen me work rarely find me so irresponsible. Take it or leave it. I had it with people who don't appreciate efforts, time to play my game.

Going for a Change.

So many things happened this week. After a couple of days of deliberation, much to my relunctance (becos' I am not going to survive the one year as I wished to), I am going to change my job after advises from my sister (which I am glad to seek advise to).

Although this isn't a job that is really tough compare to those typical ones in the creative industry, I realised that I have been deceiving myself all along, this job is just not giving me any job satisfaction even though it is pretty well-paid and there's time to slack.

But frankly speaking, its like my army unit days. I can survive boredom at work but its not giving me any more positive experience. Worst, lack of comradeship (immediate relative colleagues at work), made me feel vunerable, especially when my boss screws for the bad reasons and give nasty remarks.

My passion to commit for working for that company simply died after the last Monday and Tuesday's scoldings which I found some totally unreasonable.

My company is only a 3-man company (I wouldn't dare to use the words "3-man team"). With an autocratic and bad-tempered leader, I don't think this company needs me.

On that last Wednesday, I finally see my boss true colours of what kind of trust he had in people. I should have known all along. There are past incidents to confirm that. The lack of trust, is what made him sit beside me, ordering me what to do. What he did was not guiding or even giving art direction. "Its an order, you do it. I don't care what design constraints you're having, you do it, you're the designer."

Yes, true I am a designer, I am suppose to look for solutions to problems. But what if you think the design he wanted sucks? It not about clash of creative ideas. Its about respect. By ordering me and EXACTLY PINPOINTING what to do on my computer screen, it certainly only show he is not giving me any creative freedom. I am just a medium, I am just a tool.

Its like when you're telemarketer, and you have a person telling to exactly what to say through his word. How much job satisfaction is there doing your work then? No. Its not YOUR work. Its that guy sitting beside's work.

No designers dislike to be conformed. And worst, no creative freedom? I'm not a machine, please.

I meet up with my predecessor designer whom I replaced. The story I heard from her is even uglier, and I believe her. Becos' of what I heard from my parent comapny's colleagues (they're in automotive business, not publishing) as well.

She was retrenched for a very bad reason. And its so bad, its injustice to a pioneering worker who help the company slog for two months at the time of the company's infancy.

Further, advises from many people including my sis re-confirms that I need a job change soon.

And I planned to work for another one month before officially tendering my resignation.

Yup, hang in there Jeffery. I am going for a rough ride again.

Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Unbearable..

Yesterday, I kanna scolded from my boss again for some work I done with some mistakes I done on Monday when we were rushing the prints out for colour proofing.

I tried to lighten up the colours I tuned after the 1st colour proofing which was printed out in relatively darker colours. But after the 1st correction, I sort of over-tuned the colours as we were working under time. Worse, RGB colours is different from CMYK colours. RGB colours is normally very much brighter on your screen due to monitor light and hence is different on CMYK colours on paper.

I can see colours on my screen, but on the paper the colours are gone. And hence I was scolded for that, which wasn't really my fault.

How would you feel when you work with all your hard and worked hard and in the all called you lazy. Or when you trying to explained some ground work as to how it is being done, your BIG boss all he wanted is "just do it, I don't care", and he says you were trying to be lazy.

I did the work before I tell them the ground work issues. So its not that I didn't do my work, I did! I just want my boss to be have some knowledge of some technical issues so he can think first before he ask me to do something.

But he didn't. Not a good boss at all. Demanding he is but I always accepted it and work on it. I just find him saying that giving me my $100 increment to my confirmation of a job is an encouragement as an insult. Hello, that's the cost for paying for want I requested when I took up this job. You think $100 very big arh?

And he didn't give me time to slack, it is he who can't be bother to chase clients for content resources and in the end, we had to end up rushing all the work and changes in the final month. I even gave him warning on the first month that this shouldn't be the case.

"I give you time to slack, you slack" isn't welfare, please. I think its his LAZINESS and relunctance on his part. I only tried to think "slacking" is good because I have to think of the brighter side of my life.

Then in the end, I have to work my ass off trying to get things done perfectly as much as I could.

And I'm getting all this shit.

Seriously, I have to re-consider sometimes.