Thursday, November 30, 2006
Karma: Every Word I Said Come Back To Me.
Woke up early today, after clubbing with Chee Keong and Janet last night.
Bloody hell. Having a fever now actually. Was suppose to do some part-time job today but I last minute chao keng, saying I was having fever. Now, I'm really having fever.. Shit..
I woke up early due to my post-alcoholic hyperness..
Didn't drink much last night, I only drank somewhere of 4/5 of a jug, but this kind of hyperness will always be here de.
By the way, congrats to Chee Keong on his confirmation on getting his fulltime job as a Calofornian Fitness instructor, and thanks for his drinking treat, even though I couldn't finish drinking it.
(Funny, even for getting-the-job karma is coming true; I said the first-time when I started out in the society, I only wanted a fulltime job next year. But now, it really seems to be coming true..)
Anyway I did have fun yesterday, dancing and shaking my boo-boos along with Chee Keong and Janet.
Chee Keong kept on asking me to protect Janet, but I was pretty adamant on not to physically contact with her. Simply because I couldn't, cos' it just reminds me of something sad.
And I still feel I can only hold one and only person..
I was dancing by Janet's side while Chee Keong's away, till this lady Leo did her thing again (amazingly daring). She went to hitch a guy who actually wanted to dance with her, and then, she danced with him all night.
Weirdly, I was left by the side to dance on my own then, wondering whether I should leave the both of them alone (and Janet don't really want me to leave either loh, so I can protect her while she get to know the guy). Felt so awkward, like I'm a gooseberry.
But anyway, its karma lah, I did that to some of my friends in dancing with June in the past also.. So I kind of deserve it.
Anyway, I'm still pretty much happy dancing on my own and seeing everyone else happy too.
Just that my legs were "breaking" and tired out fast then, as I ran 5km yesterday morning. Not a good idea at all to run before you club, or also club before you run (that's for the coming weekend's marathon. lol).
Woke up early today, after clubbing with Chee Keong and Janet last night.
Bloody hell. Having a fever now actually. Was suppose to do some part-time job today but I last minute chao keng, saying I was having fever. Now, I'm really having fever.. Shit..
I woke up early due to my post-alcoholic hyperness..
Didn't drink much last night, I only drank somewhere of 4/5 of a jug, but this kind of hyperness will always be here de.
By the way, congrats to Chee Keong on his confirmation on getting his fulltime job as a Calofornian Fitness instructor, and thanks for his drinking treat, even though I couldn't finish drinking it.
(Funny, even for getting-the-job karma is coming true; I said the first-time when I started out in the society, I only wanted a fulltime job next year. But now, it really seems to be coming true..)
Anyway I did have fun yesterday, dancing and shaking my boo-boos along with Chee Keong and Janet.
Chee Keong kept on asking me to protect Janet, but I was pretty adamant on not to physically contact with her. Simply because I couldn't, cos' it just reminds me of something sad.
And I still feel I can only hold one and only person..
I was dancing by Janet's side while Chee Keong's away, till this lady Leo did her thing again (amazingly daring). She went to hitch a guy who actually wanted to dance with her, and then, she danced with him all night.
Weirdly, I was left by the side to dance on my own then, wondering whether I should leave the both of them alone (and Janet don't really want me to leave either loh, so I can protect her while she get to know the guy). Felt so awkward, like I'm a gooseberry.
But anyway, its karma lah, I did that to some of my friends in dancing with June in the past also.. So I kind of deserve it.
Anyway, I'm still pretty much happy dancing on my own and seeing everyone else happy too.
Just that my legs were "breaking" and tired out fast then, as I ran 5km yesterday morning. Not a good idea at all to run before you club, or also club before you run (that's for the coming weekend's marathon. lol).
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
New Buy + New People = New Me?!
(Taken before rushing off for my interview)
New things and people seem to be happening around me.
Went for my first interview since my last job.
The job place is a 3D studio named Digital Mirage, working on architectural and environmental landscapes. The position is 3D Animation/ Video Artist, a job position take I love to take.
I was interviewed by the director of the house, Fei, who is a very welcoming man.
I had my one hour interview, which didn't felt like an interview to me, it was more like an artwork exchange and getting to know each other, between me and the company.
I really hope that I can get this job, cos' the job scope described to me sounds challenging me to me to learn more in this related industry.
Since I also love taking pictures of skyscrapers and buildings, why not I make the FIRST image of it?
: )
~~~~~
Lunchtime. After my interview, I went to meet Sun, my ex-colleague during my part-time at Orchard, and her new part-time colleague. Didn't meet up Alex who had a lunch date with his girl.
Apart from catching up with Sun, I also made a new friend and a fellow designer friend named Wubing, who replaced my position after I left for the job in Bukit Timah.
Wubin is an experienced designer, apart from sharing his experiences with on his current part-time job which I had taken before, which still have common problems. But the most impressive things is that he managed to teach and discipline that boss on some bugging issues, which I couldn't because the bosses thought I was a rookie.
I simply laughed at what he did to the boss.
He also shared his past experiences on job hopping when he started out, and even taught me a trick or two on how to get myself new freelance jobs without waiting, by advertising my profession.
Interestingly enough, I didn't ask for his opinion, but I'm glad he given me all his great advises anyway : )
The most interesting thing of all, I realised he was a fellow participant of a design competition (the iPod skin design competition) not so long ago, after I discovered the familiarity and recognised his email address from the many emails addresses I saw, when the organiser of the competition mass mailed to all the winners of the competition. He was in the 2nd place for the Open category then.
Surprise, surprise. What a coincidence. Funny what fate do to people.
~~~~~
New shoes. Here a pic of my new shoes. A Nike SB Bear Premium High Dunk.
I love bearry stuff!
(Taken before rushing off for my interview)
A new me? Nah.. Just not enough sleep.
New things and people seem to be happening around me.
Went for my first interview since my last job.
The job place is a 3D studio named Digital Mirage, working on architectural and environmental landscapes. The position is 3D Animation/ Video Artist, a job position take I love to take.
I was interviewed by the director of the house, Fei, who is a very welcoming man.
I had my one hour interview, which didn't felt like an interview to me, it was more like an artwork exchange and getting to know each other, between me and the company.
I really hope that I can get this job, cos' the job scope described to me sounds challenging me to me to learn more in this related industry.
Since I also love taking pictures of skyscrapers and buildings, why not I make the FIRST image of it?
: )
~~~~~
Lunchtime. After my interview, I went to meet Sun, my ex-colleague during my part-time at Orchard, and her new part-time colleague. Didn't meet up Alex who had a lunch date with his girl.
Apart from catching up with Sun, I also made a new friend and a fellow designer friend named Wubing, who replaced my position after I left for the job in Bukit Timah.
Wubin is an experienced designer, apart from sharing his experiences with on his current part-time job which I had taken before, which still have common problems. But the most impressive things is that he managed to teach and discipline that boss on some bugging issues, which I couldn't because the bosses thought I was a rookie.
I simply laughed at what he did to the boss.
He also shared his past experiences on job hopping when he started out, and even taught me a trick or two on how to get myself new freelance jobs without waiting, by advertising my profession.
Interestingly enough, I didn't ask for his opinion, but I'm glad he given me all his great advises anyway : )
The most interesting thing of all, I realised he was a fellow participant of a design competition (the iPod skin design competition) not so long ago, after I discovered the familiarity and recognised his email address from the many emails addresses I saw, when the organiser of the competition mass mailed to all the winners of the competition. He was in the 2nd place for the Open category then.
Surprise, surprise. What a coincidence. Funny what fate do to people.
~~~~~
New shoes. Here a pic of my new shoes. A Nike SB Bear Premium High Dunk.
I love bearry stuff!
I love the smell of fur."
Being Entertained!
I'm sure very happy being entertained by some of my friends lately.
They sure made me a much happier person.
And here's my horoscope advise for the day:
"After a long period of helping the people you love, it is perfectly okay to want to put yourself first today! There's no need to feel guilty. Instead, plan out your day with your happiness as your only goal. Choose a nice variety of your favorite things, and toss in a little splurge here or there just for good measure. You've proved yourself to be a good friend and a good partner. Now it's time to give some of that goodness to yourself!"
Quite accurate actually.And I am doing myself good.
Janet's been entertaining letting me know her funny characteristics of likes and dislikes through a supper session at the Malay makan place in Bukit Timah which she enjoyed it as which the place reminded her of her makan places in Malaysia. I'm still wondering why a person can cry eating just a little bit of chilli.
Zane's has also been entertaining giving me crappy and nice chit-chat calls. But being her "call centre" is gonna be tough on my handphone bills if I don't change it soon like June suggested. Going to say goodbye to Prime Plan soon.
Was supposed to be on my own today, but June suddenly got me working onto her baby project, which I don't mind. Cos' I enjoy working with her on the project.
And so June has also been entertaining me on the working side of life. Had a great discussion on many issues on the project that she's putting some much heart and effort into which she is doing for her mum.
Seeing such dedication to help her mother, she really spur me on to help her make her baby project the best that I can.
Think after my passion job interview tomorrow, I'm going to do some designing research at the library and just browse around in some design book stores.
Being more open-minded on my job hunt now, I apply any job with either good pay and benefits or something to do with my interested passion. Cos' I needed both relevant working experience related to my course of study, and money.
But I know its very hard to get both of the two things together. So I might as well risk and grab hold on one now, make it up for the other in the future.
Life can throw rocks and stones on me, but all I need to do is to catch them. (And throw it back to the bugger who throw at me. Lol.)
I'm sure very happy being entertained by some of my friends lately.
They sure made me a much happier person.
And here's my horoscope advise for the day:
"After a long period of helping the people you love, it is perfectly okay to want to put yourself first today! There's no need to feel guilty. Instead, plan out your day with your happiness as your only goal. Choose a nice variety of your favorite things, and toss in a little splurge here or there just for good measure. You've proved yourself to be a good friend and a good partner. Now it's time to give some of that goodness to yourself!"
Quite accurate actually.And I am doing myself good.
Janet's been entertaining letting me know her funny characteristics of likes and dislikes through a supper session at the Malay makan place in Bukit Timah which she enjoyed it as which the place reminded her of her makan places in Malaysia. I'm still wondering why a person can cry eating just a little bit of chilli.
Zane's has also been entertaining giving me crappy and nice chit-chat calls. But being her "call centre" is gonna be tough on my handphone bills if I don't change it soon like June suggested. Going to say goodbye to Prime Plan soon.
Was supposed to be on my own today, but June suddenly got me working onto her baby project, which I don't mind. Cos' I enjoy working with her on the project.
And so June has also been entertaining me on the working side of life. Had a great discussion on many issues on the project that she's putting some much heart and effort into which she is doing for her mum.
Seeing such dedication to help her mother, she really spur me on to help her make her baby project the best that I can.
Think after my passion job interview tomorrow, I'm going to do some designing research at the library and just browse around in some design book stores.
Being more open-minded on my job hunt now, I apply any job with either good pay and benefits or something to do with my interested passion. Cos' I needed both relevant working experience related to my course of study, and money.
But I know its very hard to get both of the two things together. So I might as well risk and grab hold on one now, make it up for the other in the future.
Life can throw rocks and stones on me, but all I need to do is to catch them. (And throw it back to the bugger who throw at me. Lol.)
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Vindicated
by Dashboard Confessional
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So, mesmerizing and so hypnotizing,
I am captivated, I am
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me
So isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am
So turn
up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment for forever
Defenses paper thin
Just one touch and I'll be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
Like hope
dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...
by Dashboard Confessional
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So, mesmerizing and so hypnotizing,
I am captivated, I am
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me
So isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am
So turn
up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment for forever
Defenses paper thin
Just one touch and I'll be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
So let me slip away
Like hope
dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...
Monday, November 27, 2006
Vintage Entertainment.
With my headache gone this afternoon, I immediately rush onto my works, finished up my MoS artwork, sent out 2 job applications, finished 2 freelance job proposals.
Never did I finished so much stuff within half a day's time.
But after work, I got really bored.
Kept on watching Doraemon episodes on Youtube.com after being recommended by Zane yesterday.
But seriously, its one of my favourite vintage manga cartoons =)
With my headache gone this afternoon, I immediately rush onto my works, finished up my MoS artwork, sent out 2 job applications, finished 2 freelance job proposals.
Never did I finished so much stuff within half a day's time.
But after work, I got really bored.
Kept on watching Doraemon episodes on Youtube.com after being recommended by Zane yesterday.
Oh my God! Hybrid Nobita + Doraemon!
But seriously, its one of my favourite vintage manga cartoons =)
Sunday, November 26, 2006
Brain Malfunctioning?
I've been having a bloody headache the whole day.
I was wondering whether its stress, but its impossible, cos' I know I didn't really stress myself alot, even though I know I haven't completed my MoS work and I am still thinking on better ideas on improving it.
Cannot think properly also to think of better ideas due to the headache also.
Wonder its because its my irregular rest hours that's been causing it.
I'm definitely having more than enough rest.
I even took a nap from 5pm to 8.30pm.
I feel so sian now.. I know I have to sleep now cos' I am having headache now and I want to run tomorrow morning for my marathon training!
But I slept so much already!
Fuck..
I've been having a bloody headache the whole day.
I was wondering whether its stress, but its impossible, cos' I know I didn't really stress myself alot, even though I know I haven't completed my MoS work and I am still thinking on better ideas on improving it.
Cannot think properly also to think of better ideas due to the headache also.
Wonder its because its my irregular rest hours that's been causing it.
I'm definitely having more than enough rest.
I even took a nap from 5pm to 8.30pm.
I feel so sian now.. I know I have to sleep now cos' I am having headache now and I want to run tomorrow morning for my marathon training!
But I slept so much already!
Fuck..
Saturday, November 25, 2006
Mood Haywiring.
My mood isn't good right now.
Just now when I was at Orchard Road, I just feel something is missing in my life. A certain sense of loneliness.
Even after I finally got my jeans done, got a pair of newly-bought shoes I want and got my marathon pack, after I reach home, I just don't have the mood to do any work.
Funny, even after playing mahjong for two consecutive nights and won money, that kind of happiness didn't last.
I just don't know what's wrong with me now. I just feel that something is wrong tonight.
Maybe its me having PMT again. Crap lah.
Going supper with Janet now. The poor gal got dumped by a bastard yesterday.
Why are there so many bastards in this world?
Can't they be a true lover as platonic like me?
Bastards.
My mood isn't good right now.
Just now when I was at Orchard Road, I just feel something is missing in my life. A certain sense of loneliness.
Even after I finally got my jeans done, got a pair of newly-bought shoes I want and got my marathon pack, after I reach home, I just don't have the mood to do any work.
Funny, even after playing mahjong for two consecutive nights and won money, that kind of happiness didn't last.
I just don't know what's wrong with me now. I just feel that something is wrong tonight.
Maybe its me having PMT again. Crap lah.
Going supper with Janet now. The poor gal got dumped by a bastard yesterday.
Why are there so many bastards in this world?
Can't they be a true lover as platonic like me?
Bastards.
Friday, November 24, 2006
You Give Me Something
by James Morrison
You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep,
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.
You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me,
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what the mean,
I never thought that I'd love someone,
That was someone else's dream.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart,
But it might me a second too late,
And the words I could never say
Gonna come out anyway.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart
~~~~~
To the one I really love, I'm scared of loving her sometimes. And it makes me don't know what to do with her at times..
~~~~~
*THIS IS MY 500TH BLOG POST!*
by James Morrison
You want to stay with me in the morning
You only hold me when I sleep,
I was meant to tread the water
Now I've gotten in too deep,
For every piece of me that wants you
Another piece backs away.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.
You already waited up for hours
Just to spend a little time alone with me,
And I can say I've never bought you flowers
I can't work out what the mean,
I never thought that I'd love someone,
That was someone else's dream.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause someday I might call you from my heart,
But it might me a second too late,
And the words I could never say
Gonna come out anyway.
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something,
'Cause you give me something
That makes me scared, alright,
This could be nothing
But I'm willing to give it a try,
Please give me something
'Cause someday I might know my heart.
Know my heart, know my heart, know my heart
~~~~~
To the one I really love, I'm scared of loving her sometimes. And it makes me don't know what to do with her at times..
~~~~~
*THIS IS MY 500TH BLOG POST!*
Friends in Need of Me!
"幸福是被愛的人需要", phrase from lyrics 无可救药 by 品冠.
Wow, I am really blessed today. Even though I was tired today as I slept only 7 hours of sleep after clubbing last night, then I got pretty hyper in the morning today, my friends who needed me help kill that over-hyperness.
I didn't know why so many people wanted to hang out with me today, or chat with me.
First, I went for lunch with my best friend Elvin who's already at Orchard, so I just went to meet him. And there and after, I went to accompany him go play some LAN gaming. We both really had fun.
After that, in the evening, I went for a mahjong session with my usual mahjong kakis, Shiling, Rosalind and Ros' neighbour Annie. Didn't have a mahjong session with them for a few months le.
I really enjoyed the game with them.
But a bit paiseh.. I won all of them really big.. They all lost to me big money..
Think next time I'll have to treat them some goodies..
:p
New friend Janet was also bored at home and I also manage to had a nice chat with her via SMS (Wah piang, damn expensive my handphone bill gonna be. Think I'll need to get advise from Janet to get a better M1 handphone services plan! Lol.).
And so does, Shian, Daniel and Joe, who immediately pop-out to send me messages when I reached home and just logged on to my MSN messenger.
It really feels good to be needed.
: )
~~~~~
Damn it. Still haven't complete my MoS grahic art by today. Shit.
And tomorrow Kelvin needed me to help him do catering work. When I'll finish my MoS graphic art?! Argh!
So much for being needed :p
"幸福是被愛的人需要", phrase from lyrics 无可救药 by 品冠.
Wow, I am really blessed today. Even though I was tired today as I slept only 7 hours of sleep after clubbing last night, then I got pretty hyper in the morning today, my friends who needed me help kill that over-hyperness.
I didn't know why so many people wanted to hang out with me today, or chat with me.
First, I went for lunch with my best friend Elvin who's already at Orchard, so I just went to meet him. And there and after, I went to accompany him go play some LAN gaming. We both really had fun.
After that, in the evening, I went for a mahjong session with my usual mahjong kakis, Shiling, Rosalind and Ros' neighbour Annie. Didn't have a mahjong session with them for a few months le.
I really enjoyed the game with them.
But a bit paiseh.. I won all of them really big.. They all lost to me big money..
Think next time I'll have to treat them some goodies..
:p
New friend Janet was also bored at home and I also manage to had a nice chat with her via SMS (Wah piang, damn expensive my handphone bill gonna be. Think I'll need to get advise from Janet to get a better M1 handphone services plan! Lol.).
And so does, Shian, Daniel and Joe, who immediately pop-out to send me messages when I reached home and just logged on to my MSN messenger.
It really feels good to be needed.
: )
~~~~~
Damn it. Still haven't complete my MoS grahic art by today. Shit.
And tomorrow Kelvin needed me to help him do catering work. When I'll finish my MoS graphic art?! Argh!
So much for being needed :p
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Go Wacko!
Funny.. I have a sudden urge to go dancing just now. After working on my MoS artwork, I ran out of ideas and felt sibeh sian. With a free MoS entry SMS in my hand and the need to look of an inspiration, I just head for MoS.
I decided to go clubbing. I rang all of my friends but only one crazy friend was able to accompany, and that's Janet.
So I asked Janet to accompany to go club at MoS together.
Too bad, I called all of my clubbing kakis, but they all said they are not free to join in the fun as they're working the next day. Only June didn't reply me a thing, so I dunno what happened :(
Its the first time I go clubbing with Janet, she's pretty cool, dancing on her own twisty moves without a care of what's going around her. She'll definitely make a good, crazy clubbing kaki at a moment's call.
Chat with her at the Liang Court's McDonalds till the dancing crowd is accumulated by 12am.
Meanwhile, Zane, my good friend, the crazy working gal, called me to chat also.
After that, Janet and I went dancing straight on the dance floor. Like I said, she's a cool dancer. Too bad she can't drink alcoholic drinks as she's on medication, so I can't judge her drinking strength.
So I order a jug of Vodka lime my own and drank it all on my own. I wanted to numb my legs as my knees kinda hurt when I dance, most probably due my recent marathon training on my running.
But when Janet and I continued to head for the dance floor, she said she wanted to leave to see a sick guy who likes her (and I kept on teasing her with it after that :p ). So I decided to leave with her too as I see no point staying on without any company and I don't like to make friends with such a young crowd!
And back to my house, I logged on to MSN and found Zane still online, chat with her for a while. I think she's more "drunk" than me (she's not having enough sleep!), she didn't even know it was 2am plus when she told me to wake her up at 1am plus, SIAO!
If you were wondering why I blogged so much at this hour, that's because I'm quite high now, didn't danced enough just now to get rid of the "highness" due to time constraints of my gal friend company.
I think I better go pee then I go to sleep.
Wacko and crazy night.
Funny.. I have a sudden urge to go dancing just now. After working on my MoS artwork, I ran out of ideas and felt sibeh sian. With a free MoS entry SMS in my hand and the need to look of an inspiration, I just head for MoS.
I decided to go clubbing. I rang all of my friends but only one crazy friend was able to accompany, and that's Janet.
So I asked Janet to accompany to go club at MoS together.
Too bad, I called all of my clubbing kakis, but they all said they are not free to join in the fun as they're working the next day. Only June didn't reply me a thing, so I dunno what happened :(
Its the first time I go clubbing with Janet, she's pretty cool, dancing on her own twisty moves without a care of what's going around her. She'll definitely make a good, crazy clubbing kaki at a moment's call.
Chat with her at the Liang Court's McDonalds till the dancing crowd is accumulated by 12am.
Meanwhile, Zane, my good friend, the crazy working gal, called me to chat also.
After that, Janet and I went dancing straight on the dance floor. Like I said, she's a cool dancer. Too bad she can't drink alcoholic drinks as she's on medication, so I can't judge her drinking strength.
So I order a jug of Vodka lime my own and drank it all on my own. I wanted to numb my legs as my knees kinda hurt when I dance, most probably due my recent marathon training on my running.
But when Janet and I continued to head for the dance floor, she said she wanted to leave to see a sick guy who likes her (and I kept on teasing her with it after that :p ). So I decided to leave with her too as I see no point staying on without any company and I don't like to make friends with such a young crowd!
And back to my house, I logged on to MSN and found Zane still online, chat with her for a while. I think she's more "drunk" than me (she's not having enough sleep!), she didn't even know it was 2am plus when she told me to wake her up at 1am plus, SIAO!
If you were wondering why I blogged so much at this hour, that's because I'm quite high now, didn't danced enough just now to get rid of the "highness" due to time constraints of my gal friend company.
I think I better go pee then I go to sleep.
Wacko and crazy night.
Monday, November 20, 2006
My Desired Tiredness.
So nice to see such a nice warm, sunny morning on this lovely Monday.
Slept late again last night at 3.30am after doing some research and gathering resources for the MoS job's graphic portfolio artwork. But still I have to wake up at 7am today to report for a part-time catering job later.
Tired I am, but I seem to like it, cos' it made me feel I am working on something I want to work for.
There are also other tired working people like June and Zane. June is more normal one who is tired due to her night shifts, who really doesn't had a choice but to work on foe her dreams.
Zane is the crazy zombie who worked about 14 to 19 hours everyday, 7 days a week since don't know when.
"Life is like a marathon, you ran and ran, sometimes feeling so tired and lost, but you know you still have to run. Cos' you know finishing line may be just a distance away."
So what are we working all so hard for?
Our desired happiness that is.
Now, here's my blog's unofficial theme song, and it is my most favourite Yanzi song of all times.
It always never fail to give me hope and reminds me what my life is about : )
~~~~~
我要的幸福
by 孫燕姿
為愛情付出 為活著而忙碌
為什麼而辛苦 我仔細紀錄
用我的雙眼 在夢想裡找路
該問路的時候 我不會裝酷
我還不清楚 怎樣的速度
符合這世界 變化的腳步
生活像等待 創作的黏土
幸福 我要的幸福 漸漸清楚
夢想 理想 幻想 狂想 妄想
我只想堅持每一步 該走的方向
就算一路上 偶而會沮喪
生活是自己 選擇的衣裳
幸福 我要的幸福 沒有束縛
幸福 我要的幸福 在不遠處
So nice to see such a nice warm, sunny morning on this lovely Monday.
Slept late again last night at 3.30am after doing some research and gathering resources for the MoS job's graphic portfolio artwork. But still I have to wake up at 7am today to report for a part-time catering job later.
Tired I am, but I seem to like it, cos' it made me feel I am working on something I want to work for.
There are also other tired working people like June and Zane. June is more normal one who is tired due to her night shifts, who really doesn't had a choice but to work on foe her dreams.
Zane is the crazy zombie who worked about 14 to 19 hours everyday, 7 days a week since don't know when.
"Life is like a marathon, you ran and ran, sometimes feeling so tired and lost, but you know you still have to run. Cos' you know finishing line may be just a distance away."
So what are we working all so hard for?
Our desired happiness that is.
Now, here's my blog's unofficial theme song, and it is my most favourite Yanzi song of all times.
It always never fail to give me hope and reminds me what my life is about : )
~~~~~
我要的幸福
by 孫燕姿
為愛情付出 為活著而忙碌
為什麼而辛苦 我仔細紀錄
用我的雙眼 在夢想裡找路
該問路的時候 我不會裝酷
我還不清楚 怎樣的速度
符合這世界 變化的腳步
生活像等待 創作的黏土
幸福 我要的幸福 漸漸清楚
夢想 理想 幻想 狂想 妄想
我只想堅持每一步 該走的方向
就算一路上 偶而會沮喪
生活是自己 選擇的衣裳
幸福 我要的幸福 沒有束縛
幸福 我要的幸福 在不遠處
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Stupid Me.
God bless! I made another new friend named Janet.
I didn't know I can do so many activities with a new friend in one day.
* (Bloody hell, my jeans is still not completely done!)
We went to have dinner + chat together, then follow by a short walk cos' she don't really window shop, then went to have a chill-out + chat at the Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf cafe while waiting for her friends to catch the new James Bond movie, "Casino Royale", together.
I enjoyed all the activities.
But someone is on my mind all the way.. I was wondering how is she doing the whole day, but I have no answers.
As much as I didn't want to imagine things, they just like to pop up..
Hate my mind's nonsense but I can't help it.
"Piangz..! 我愛上你 真的是越來越無可救藥!"
~~~~~
无可救药
by 品冠
暗戀是一種禮貌
暗地裏蓋一座城堡
然後再當你的警衛跑腿和小貓
隨時你要我重灌電腦
隨時你要我隨傳隨到
買麵包雞排和水餃
你每次對著我笑
你的笑裏面有毒藥
我看著你出了神還丟掉了解藥
可能你從來沒感覺到
最好你永遠感覺不到
愛上你 越來越無可救藥
一天一天越來越無可救藥
一生一次愛你到無可救藥
我才慢慢體會到
幸福是被愛的人需要
一天一天越來越無可救藥
一生一次愛你到無可救藥
我才狠狠決定要
就愛吧就這樣吧就不逃
愛你到無可救藥
God bless! I made another new friend named Janet.
I didn't know I can do so many activities with a new friend in one day.
* (Bloody hell, my jeans is still not completely done!)
We went to have dinner + chat together, then follow by a short walk cos' she don't really window shop, then went to have a chill-out + chat at the Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf cafe while waiting for her friends to catch the new James Bond movie, "Casino Royale", together.
Mmm!! Christmas-style Zest O' Pudding!
I enjoyed all the activities.
But someone is on my mind all the way.. I was wondering how is she doing the whole day, but I have no answers.
As much as I didn't want to imagine things, they just like to pop up..
Hate my mind's nonsense but I can't help it.
"Piangz..! 我愛上你 真的是越來越無可救藥!"
~~~~~
无可救药
by 品冠
暗戀是一種禮貌
暗地裏蓋一座城堡
然後再當你的警衛跑腿和小貓
隨時你要我重灌電腦
隨時你要我隨傳隨到
買麵包雞排和水餃
你每次對著我笑
你的笑裏面有毒藥
我看著你出了神還丟掉了解藥
可能你從來沒感覺到
最好你永遠感覺不到
愛上你 越來越無可救藥
一天一天越來越無可救藥
一生一次愛你到無可救藥
我才慢慢體會到
幸福是被愛的人需要
一天一天越來越無可救藥
一生一次愛你到無可救藥
我才狠狠決定要
就愛吧就這樣吧就不逃
愛你到無可救藥
Saturday, November 18, 2006
What to do with my Saturday?
Well, well, well. Its a Saturday again.
Seriously, after working late last night and slept till 2pm this afternoon with still a certain strain on my lower back, now, I'm just a bit lost to what to do with my free time on Saturday.
I feel quite hyper after working on a "baby" I put my heart to do last night.
I wanted to go for my long-lost marathon training run, but I have a backache still.
Its really funny that just on last Monday, when I'm had the Monday blues, I was still hoping my lovely weekend would come. But after I got retrenched on last Wednesday, the fun that I yearn to have is simply gone.
Now I just want to work myself silly and fulfill that certain emptiness of achievement that been leaking after that crack.
But then again, I don't always have that kind of work to work on.
Till I found something on the net, of new found hopes and dreams.
I found some jobs that I see I would really like to work in. There's even one associated with MoS as a graphic designer! I'm not going to miss that for an opportunity!
But for now, I just have to enjoy this freedom God gave me.
Now, I'm going to town to get my jeans again (and hopefully I get it!), get some lifestyle snapshots for that MoS job and then later go meet a new friend who found me on the net, Janet. She's been quite a daring bugger to get me out as she's a new immigrant from a foreign land in need of new friends here.
Well, no harm seeing her since I have the bloody time.
The next appointment after that may be a late night movie with Thomas and bachelors. But its a midnight movie, and I'm still having the doubts to go. I feel like going home and work on a new graphic portfolio for that MoS job.
Well, anyway, I just have to enjoy my time God gives me now : )
Well, well, well. Its a Saturday again.
Seriously, after working late last night and slept till 2pm this afternoon with still a certain strain on my lower back, now, I'm just a bit lost to what to do with my free time on Saturday.
I feel quite hyper after working on a "baby" I put my heart to do last night.
I wanted to go for my long-lost marathon training run, but I have a backache still.
Its really funny that just on last Monday, when I'm had the Monday blues, I was still hoping my lovely weekend would come. But after I got retrenched on last Wednesday, the fun that I yearn to have is simply gone.
Now I just want to work myself silly and fulfill that certain emptiness of achievement that been leaking after that crack.
But then again, I don't always have that kind of work to work on.
Till I found something on the net, of new found hopes and dreams.
I found some jobs that I see I would really like to work in. There's even one associated with MoS as a graphic designer! I'm not going to miss that for an opportunity!
But for now, I just have to enjoy this freedom God gave me.
Now, I'm going to town to get my jeans again (and hopefully I get it!), get some lifestyle snapshots for that MoS job and then later go meet a new friend who found me on the net, Janet. She's been quite a daring bugger to get me out as she's a new immigrant from a foreign land in need of new friends here.
Well, no harm seeing her since I have the bloody time.
The next appointment after that may be a late night movie with Thomas and bachelors. But its a midnight movie, and I'm still having the doubts to go. I feel like going home and work on a new graphic portfolio for that MoS job.
Well, anyway, I just have to enjoy my time God gives me now : )
Friday, November 17, 2006
Setting Off on My Road, Again.
Life is like that.
Occasionally God throws a rock on my path, block my life on the road, making me detour a long way.. just to test my Faith.
Thank God, I still have angels like cousins Michelle and Vel who reminds me what to do, June and Zane who encourages me on.
0:)
Life is like that.
Occasionally God throws a rock on my path, block my life on the road, making me detour a long way.. just to test my Faith.
Thank God, I still have angels like cousins Michelle and Vel who reminds me what to do, June and Zane who encourages me on.
0:)
Wednesday, November 15, 2006
Who Burn My Four-Leave Clover?!
Just when I think my luck was in one of its worse state.
It just got even more worse.
I got "fired".
I just couldn't make up to the expectations of the job, my boss' higher up gave the order to "chop" me. He said I just didn't have enough of the experience to perform for this job and I know that.
I wasn't too surprised that I got "fired".
From what my boss told me of his previous employees who also got "fired" or asked to leave due to less than satisfactory work results, I knew my boss isn't going to give me too much leeway when I'm not up to what the company wants.
I am struggling on the job. But I need more guidiance in relation to how they wanted this job to be worked out their way, but they basically left me to fend for myself and gues what they want it. And technical skill-wise, I'm not exactly a pro yet, just an amateur.
I understand that its not totally luck that's not working for me, maybe I didn't work harder enough too.
So much for my 5-day old fulltime job.
Well, I'm actually fine after leaving this job.
I think I'm getting numbed by these bullshits of life.
Just have to move on and find a better job now : )
Just when I think my luck was in one of its worse state.
It just got even more worse.
I got "fired".
I just couldn't make up to the expectations of the job, my boss' higher up gave the order to "chop" me. He said I just didn't have enough of the experience to perform for this job and I know that.
I wasn't too surprised that I got "fired".
From what my boss told me of his previous employees who also got "fired" or asked to leave due to less than satisfactory work results, I knew my boss isn't going to give me too much leeway when I'm not up to what the company wants.
I am struggling on the job. But I need more guidiance in relation to how they wanted this job to be worked out their way, but they basically left me to fend for myself and gues what they want it. And technical skill-wise, I'm not exactly a pro yet, just an amateur.
I understand that its not totally luck that's not working for me, maybe I didn't work harder enough too.
So much for my 5-day old fulltime job.
Well, I'm actually fine after leaving this job.
I think I'm getting numbed by these bullshits of life.
Just have to move on and find a better job now : )
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
A Non-Perfect Day.
Today is seriously not a perfect day for me.
I wasn't up to my boss' expectations recently, so I'm a bit demoralised. He told me that I'm more like a layout artist who needs instructions now and then rather than being a true designer. I know I'm not exactly a "designer", cos' that what I have been doing when I'm working on for my past jobs experience.
Its kind of difficult for me to suddenly change my mentality to a full-fledged concept artist you know. I want to be that too.
And some more its hard for me to catch my boss' "designer concept" language.
But recently I'm too tired and not in the best of the mood to work for that goal. I know I need to get rid of these unneccessary whatever that's hindering my work.
But I'm just not having the break I wanted, I feel like going for a vacation but I can't!
I'm stuck between my passion and my desire to earn more money.
~~~~~
"Disturbances"!
I simply dunno why so many different women are disturbing me today.
My old, ex-crush cum good friend come and disturb me.
A new friend come and disturb me.
Joe come and disturb me.
Then who am I going to disturb to entertain me?
I don't mind the disturbances today, but I'm not exactly entertained myself, I have to entertain them instead..
~~~~~
Stroll & Relax.
Went to Orchard after work just now.
If June didn't tell me that she's going to town and my reminder to get my jeans on my handphone doesn't ring, I probably don't remember I have a pair of jeans in Orchard still being tailored as I am pretty stressed and tired physically with myself today.
And I went and check on the tailor's.. Its still not tailored. Date to get it postponed to Saturday..
Sianz..
I think I'm getting numb with too many disappointments, including myself..
Anyway I went for a walk around Orchard to relax myself.
Tried to find some inspirations for my work. Went to EpSite gallery for a look, went to find IdN magazine at Borders but don't know where..
Then I went to have a drink at the Coffee Bean outside, had my Belgian Choc Ice Blended. after that, I did a bit of window shopping
Realising its Christmas soon, I suddenly have so many thing I want..
Will make a super-duper big Christmas wishlist soon.
Today is seriously not a perfect day for me.
I wasn't up to my boss' expectations recently, so I'm a bit demoralised. He told me that I'm more like a layout artist who needs instructions now and then rather than being a true designer. I know I'm not exactly a "designer", cos' that what I have been doing when I'm working on for my past jobs experience.
Its kind of difficult for me to suddenly change my mentality to a full-fledged concept artist you know. I want to be that too.
And some more its hard for me to catch my boss' "designer concept" language.
But recently I'm too tired and not in the best of the mood to work for that goal. I know I need to get rid of these unneccessary whatever that's hindering my work.
But I'm just not having the break I wanted, I feel like going for a vacation but I can't!
I'm stuck between my passion and my desire to earn more money.
~~~~~
"Disturbances"!
I simply dunno why so many different women are disturbing me today.
My old, ex-crush cum good friend come and disturb me.
A new friend come and disturb me.
Joe come and disturb me.
Then who am I going to disturb to entertain me?
I don't mind the disturbances today, but I'm not exactly entertained myself, I have to entertain them instead..
~~~~~
Stroll & Relax.
Went to Orchard after work just now.
If June didn't tell me that she's going to town and my reminder to get my jeans on my handphone doesn't ring, I probably don't remember I have a pair of jeans in Orchard still being tailored as I am pretty stressed and tired physically with myself today.
And I went and check on the tailor's.. Its still not tailored. Date to get it postponed to Saturday..
Sianz..
I think I'm getting numb with too many disappointments, including myself..
Anyway I went for a walk around Orchard to relax myself.
Tried to find some inspirations for my work. Went to EpSite gallery for a look, went to find IdN magazine at Borders but don't know where..
Then I went to have a drink at the Coffee Bean outside, had my Belgian Choc Ice Blended. after that, I did a bit of window shopping
Realising its Christmas soon, I suddenly have so many thing I want..
Will make a super-duper big Christmas wishlist soon.
Nicey decos at Orchard Road, but the road in front of me ain't that clear..
If my life is a happy fairy tale..
More nice pictures.
對你有感覺
By 江美琪 + 光良
我曾深刻體會 對愛感到膽怯
還好有懂我的你 給我安慰
看你失落的臉 又再為愛憔悴
我心痛的感覺竟 如此的強烈
眼角的淚 它給過誰
傷透了心 也無所謂
我會願意 靜靜地 陪在你身邊
如果說愛 已不可為
那我寧願 藏心裡面
其實我害怕會失去你的感覺
怎麼會開始對你有了感覺
又深怕朋友默契轉身不見
矛盾著猶豫不決
沒準備 跨越愛的界線
怎麼會開始對你(妳)有了感覺
深陷朋友戀人之間的危險
進與退 被愛包圍 誰犯規 都狼狽
誰能解圍 讓一切完美
怎麼會開始對你(妳)有了感覺
深陷朋友戀人之間的危險
你和我 擁抱瞬間 不後悔 這曖昧
星光唯美 把愛放心裡面
By 江美琪 + 光良
我曾深刻體會 對愛感到膽怯
還好有懂我的你 給我安慰
看你失落的臉 又再為愛憔悴
我心痛的感覺竟 如此的強烈
眼角的淚 它給過誰
傷透了心 也無所謂
我會願意 靜靜地 陪在你身邊
如果說愛 已不可為
那我寧願 藏心裡面
其實我害怕會失去你的感覺
怎麼會開始對你有了感覺
又深怕朋友默契轉身不見
矛盾著猶豫不決
沒準備 跨越愛的界線
怎麼會開始對你(妳)有了感覺
深陷朋友戀人之間的危險
進與退 被愛包圍 誰犯規 都狼狽
誰能解圍 讓一切完美
怎麼會開始對你(妳)有了感覺
深陷朋友戀人之間的危險
你和我 擁抱瞬間 不後悔 這曖昧
星光唯美 把愛放心裡面
Monday, November 13, 2006
Being Angel 0:)
This is what my horoscope for the day wrote:
"If you're feeling a bit blue today, put yourself in service of someone else. Reaching out to help solve the problems of other people will help take your mind off of your own problems -- or at least put them into perspective. All people have their own crosses to bear. Get a new perspective on someone else's cross, and you might find yourself grateful for the one you've been given. Plus, you may find a new idea for how to deal with it."
And this is what I did, even before I read this prediction.
Managed to talked to THREE heartbroken friends (one guy who having some relationship problem now) who suffered their own heartbreaks in this weirdly, unfortunate heartbreaking month within just these last two days.
This made me feel that I'm not alone. But helping others to overcome, I overcome my own too. And that really made me feel good.
~~~~~
Angel in Disguise
by Corrinne May
Listen to her song here.
I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and i stumbled out of bed and
dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody loves you'
But out on the street it starts to pour
and before i get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Dont need to look at paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But i forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea
But out of the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise
Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be next to an angel in disguise
I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new.
0:)
This is what my horoscope for the day wrote:
"If you're feeling a bit blue today, put yourself in service of someone else. Reaching out to help solve the problems of other people will help take your mind off of your own problems -- or at least put them into perspective. All people have their own crosses to bear. Get a new perspective on someone else's cross, and you might find yourself grateful for the one you've been given. Plus, you may find a new idea for how to deal with it."
And this is what I did, even before I read this prediction.
Managed to talked to THREE heartbroken friends (one guy who having some relationship problem now) who suffered their own heartbreaks in this weirdly, unfortunate heartbreaking month within just these last two days.
This made me feel that I'm not alone. But helping others to overcome, I overcome my own too. And that really made me feel good.
~~~~~
Angel in Disguise
by Corrinne May
Listen to her song here.
I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and i stumbled out of bed and
dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody loves you'
But out on the street it starts to pour
and before i get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Dont need to look at paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But i forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea
But out of the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise
Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be next to an angel in disguise
I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new.
0:)
Efforts Gone into the Drain..
Haiz.. What a bad start of the week.
As much as I tried to do my job a little faster and a little better, my efforts never seem to be enough..
Worst, today all my efforts are wasted. Imagine I finished my job tasks at 80% to 90% after I took some time to do it. But then my boss suddenly told me stop and do other stuff, and then overthrew everything I have done without even telling me, then he simply did it his way.
I know I do things a bit slower than expected. But at least you can continue from my work after all hard work I have done for you. Instead, it was abandoned.
Haiz..
Haiz.. What a bad start of the week.
As much as I tried to do my job a little faster and a little better, my efforts never seem to be enough..
Worst, today all my efforts are wasted. Imagine I finished my job tasks at 80% to 90% after I took some time to do it. But then my boss suddenly told me stop and do other stuff, and then overthrew everything I have done without even telling me, then he simply did it his way.
I know I do things a bit slower than expected. But at least you can continue from my work after all hard work I have done for you. Instead, it was abandoned.
Haiz..
Stay on the Road
by Corrinne May
Listen to her song here.
Don't turn your laughing eyes away
You know I love you
There's no need to be afraid
Hearts are made to be broken
They get stronger by the day
I'll take a chance and drop all my defenses
Just to hear you say
How long is the road
How long is the ride
How long is the darkness till we get to the light
Go easy on me
Cause you already know
No matter the distance
I'll stay on the road to your heart
You say I've been a fool too long
You wonder why I have the strength to carry on
I see through your weakness
Your tough super girl mask
It's not really that hard or complicated
There's no need to ask
How long is the road
How long is the ride
How long is the darkness till we get to the light
Go easy on me
Cause you already know
No matter the distance I'll stay on the road to your heart
I'll stay on the road to your heart
I'll stay on the road to your heart
~~~~~
Your happiness is my conviction.
by Corrinne May
Listen to her song here.
Don't turn your laughing eyes away
You know I love you
There's no need to be afraid
Hearts are made to be broken
They get stronger by the day
I'll take a chance and drop all my defenses
Just to hear you say
How long is the road
How long is the ride
How long is the darkness till we get to the light
Go easy on me
Cause you already know
No matter the distance
I'll stay on the road to your heart
You say I've been a fool too long
You wonder why I have the strength to carry on
I see through your weakness
Your tough super girl mask
It's not really that hard or complicated
There's no need to ask
How long is the road
How long is the ride
How long is the darkness till we get to the light
Go easy on me
Cause you already know
No matter the distance I'll stay on the road to your heart
I'll stay on the road to your heart
I'll stay on the road to your heart
~~~~~
Your happiness is my conviction.
Saturday, November 11, 2006
Halo Old Friends.
Just came back from a short pubbing and supper seesions with some of my old friends whom I have not seen them for about a month. I got so many things to share with them which they did not know, but I'm too tired to repeat my stories already.
We went to Halo Bar, a KTV bar within the premises of Ngee Ann Polytechnic and nearby UniSIM. The guys were all well, moving on with their own mundane lifes. We were chit-chatting, but I talked the least. But I ate alot of finger food there.
They all wanted to sing KTV and drink beer. I just wanted to drink abit with control. Cos' I know the more I drink, the more sorrow would resurface. So I just drank only a bottle.
Andrew knew I like to sing "Superwoman" at that KTV, so he tried to tempt me to sing that song. But I'm just not in the mood either, wanted to rest my voice also.
Becos' we all went to the bar late, which closes at 3am, we only managed to play dai-dee, drink a bit of beer, eat out finger food and chit-chat. Even Andrew sang the only song sang in our group, and it was the last song for the bar.
Luckily, I didn't have to stay at the bar for long, reminds me of some bad memories. Don't want to get emotional suddenly on the spot either.
After the short bar-chilling session, we all went to Bukit Timah (my workplace eating area some more..) to have some supper. I went to eat again, cos' I don't want to talk too much. I just want to listen to my friends' ongoing updates.
Then the rest of the guys were chatting on topics of flings and flirts. One even said women are meant for men's physical needs as he seen cases of women being unfaithful.
But still, I did not think that's the total truth of unfaithfulness. There are always black sheeps among the white sheep flock.
If someone is unfaithful to you, I don't think its right to be unfaithful tit-for-tat for revenge too. Its just not right. If you sin the same thing in an excuse of someone else's sins, I think its stupid.
You don't have to be a dumb Adam to eat the forbidden fruit, especially when its not even your Eve that have even ask you to eat the fruit yet!
Becos' I'm not God, I have no right to judge or punish other people, except myself.
I still believe in being true to others, cos' I want my conscience to be clear.
I believe true love exists, even though I've seen so many heartbreak cases among my other friends this month. This month seems to be a month of heartbreaks, weird..
Anway, gotta go to sleep now. Bloody tired..
I have to wake up 4 hours later to go to my office for a work debrief (and shift furnture around my toilet-size office)?!
Well.. Its all part of my commitment to my fresh new career, even though I'm not earning extras for it..
24 hours doesn't really seems enough anymore.. I have so much work to catch up this weekend. Must do my best, I don't want my conceptionalisation to go back to square one again.
Shit. No bolster for me to hugz tonight. It got wet as it kanna rain, becos' stupid me forgot to close my room window.. Dumb!
Just came back from a short pubbing and supper seesions with some of my old friends whom I have not seen them for about a month. I got so many things to share with them which they did not know, but I'm too tired to repeat my stories already.
We went to Halo Bar, a KTV bar within the premises of Ngee Ann Polytechnic and nearby UniSIM. The guys were all well, moving on with their own mundane lifes. We were chit-chatting, but I talked the least. But I ate alot of finger food there.
They all wanted to sing KTV and drink beer. I just wanted to drink abit with control. Cos' I know the more I drink, the more sorrow would resurface. So I just drank only a bottle.
Andrew knew I like to sing "Superwoman" at that KTV, so he tried to tempt me to sing that song. But I'm just not in the mood either, wanted to rest my voice also.
Becos' we all went to the bar late, which closes at 3am, we only managed to play dai-dee, drink a bit of beer, eat out finger food and chit-chat. Even Andrew sang the only song sang in our group, and it was the last song for the bar.
Luckily, I didn't have to stay at the bar for long, reminds me of some bad memories. Don't want to get emotional suddenly on the spot either.
After the short bar-chilling session, we all went to Bukit Timah (my workplace eating area some more..) to have some supper. I went to eat again, cos' I don't want to talk too much. I just want to listen to my friends' ongoing updates.
Then the rest of the guys were chatting on topics of flings and flirts. One even said women are meant for men's physical needs as he seen cases of women being unfaithful.
But still, I did not think that's the total truth of unfaithfulness. There are always black sheeps among the white sheep flock.
If someone is unfaithful to you, I don't think its right to be unfaithful tit-for-tat for revenge too. Its just not right. If you sin the same thing in an excuse of someone else's sins, I think its stupid.
You don't have to be a dumb Adam to eat the forbidden fruit, especially when its not even your Eve that have even ask you to eat the fruit yet!
Becos' I'm not God, I have no right to judge or punish other people, except myself.
I still believe in being true to others, cos' I want my conscience to be clear.
I believe true love exists, even though I've seen so many heartbreak cases among my other friends this month. This month seems to be a month of heartbreaks, weird..
Anway, gotta go to sleep now. Bloody tired..
I have to wake up 4 hours later to go to my office for a work debrief (and shift furnture around my toilet-size office)?!
Well.. Its all part of my commitment to my fresh new career, even though I'm not earning extras for it..
24 hours doesn't really seems enough anymore.. I have so much work to catch up this weekend. Must do my best, I don't want my conceptionalisation to go back to square one again.
Shit. No bolster for me to hugz tonight. It got wet as it kanna rain, becos' stupid me forgot to close my room window.. Dumb!
Friday, November 10, 2006
Slow..
"Damn." That's the only word I want to say to myself for my work today.
I'm still considered slow in doing my work, but I am trying my best to work harder to get the result everybody is happy with.
I have high expectations of myself but I am struggling. Damn!
~~~~~
Just now I was holding my tears when it suddenly just came..
~~~~~
害怕
by 孫燕姿
忘 我沒有很努力要自己去遺忘
那些和日記一起收藏的過往
孤單在思緒之中變得很漫長
想 我沒有很刻意讓自己不去想
那些和照片一起靜止的模樣
我學著堅強 堅強到不用學著不想 學著遺忘
還是害怕夜深人靜時總想起你
還是害怕不經意的聽見你的消息
然而當愛已經沉澱得太清晰
當擁有已經是失去 就勇敢的放棄
還是會害怕一個人時就很難忘記
還是害怕突然寧願當初沒有決定
然而當愛最後的出口是分離
我會這麼相信 走下去
還是害怕夜深人靜時總想起你
還是害怕不經意的聽見你的消息
然而當愛已經沉澱得太清晰
當擁有已經是失去 就勇敢的放棄
還是會害怕一個人時就很難忘記
還是害怕突然寧願當初沒有決定
然而當愛最後的出口是分離
我會這麼相信 走下去
忘 我沒有很努力要自己去遺忘 遺忘
"Damn." That's the only word I want to say to myself for my work today.
I'm still considered slow in doing my work, but I am trying my best to work harder to get the result everybody is happy with.
I have high expectations of myself but I am struggling. Damn!
~~~~~
Just now I was holding my tears when it suddenly just came..
~~~~~
害怕
by 孫燕姿
忘 我沒有很努力要自己去遺忘
那些和日記一起收藏的過往
孤單在思緒之中變得很漫長
想 我沒有很刻意讓自己不去想
那些和照片一起靜止的模樣
我學著堅強 堅強到不用學著不想 學著遺忘
還是害怕夜深人靜時總想起你
還是害怕不經意的聽見你的消息
然而當愛已經沉澱得太清晰
當擁有已經是失去 就勇敢的放棄
還是會害怕一個人時就很難忘記
還是害怕突然寧願當初沒有決定
然而當愛最後的出口是分離
我會這麼相信 走下去
還是害怕夜深人靜時總想起你
還是害怕不經意的聽見你的消息
然而當愛已經沉澱得太清晰
當擁有已經是失去 就勇敢的放棄
還是會害怕一個人時就很難忘記
還是害怕突然寧願當初沒有決定
然而當愛最後的出口是分離
我會這麼相信 走下去
忘 我沒有很努力要自己去遺忘 遺忘
Fall to Fly
by Corrinne May
Listen to her song here.
On winter days the snow would glisten like a sea of diamonds in the sun
All bundled up in hat and mittens
I'd be out the foor and on the run
To the meadow my place
Beneath branches of icy lace
Arms held out eyes shut closed
I'd lean back and just let go
And I would fall to fly
A snow white angel I'd spread my wings to the sky
How I'd glide
But soon I craved the city lights
They seemed far brighter than the moon on snow
Turned in my wings for earthly things
Forgot the feel of clouds on indigo
I was strong, I was proud
Keeping both feet on the ground
I feared that love just like I feared heights
I just didn't realise
And I would fall to fly
A snow white angel I'd spread my wings to the sky
How I'd glide
'cause now you've come along
Like falling snow at dawn
You move me
And with you by my side
We'll soar
We will climb straight to the heaven's skies
Yes I can fall to fly
A snow white angel I'd spread my wings to the sky
Yes I can fall to fly
'cause now I'm gonna give love a try
Fall to fly
On winter days I wait for snow and then I know the angel flies once more
Fall to fly, Fall to fly
by Corrinne May
Listen to her song here.
On winter days the snow would glisten like a sea of diamonds in the sun
All bundled up in hat and mittens
I'd be out the foor and on the run
To the meadow my place
Beneath branches of icy lace
Arms held out eyes shut closed
I'd lean back and just let go
And I would fall to fly
A snow white angel I'd spread my wings to the sky
How I'd glide
But soon I craved the city lights
They seemed far brighter than the moon on snow
Turned in my wings for earthly things
Forgot the feel of clouds on indigo
I was strong, I was proud
Keeping both feet on the ground
I feared that love just like I feared heights
I just didn't realise
And I would fall to fly
A snow white angel I'd spread my wings to the sky
How I'd glide
'cause now you've come along
Like falling snow at dawn
You move me
And with you by my side
We'll soar
We will climb straight to the heaven's skies
Yes I can fall to fly
A snow white angel I'd spread my wings to the sky
Yes I can fall to fly
'cause now I'm gonna give love a try
Fall to fly
On winter days I wait for snow and then I know the angel flies once more
Fall to fly, Fall to fly
A "Little" Indulgence..
I went for a "little" shopping after work today.
Took a cab right after work from Bukit Timah to Orchard to get my jeans which is suppose to be altered. But when I reach the tailor's, John the tailor says he haven't alter it yet because he got too many jobs in hand and becos' he too famous.
Although I could understand, I am still a little disappointed.
After that I went for some walk-walk and shopping as I got my pay cheque, again.
I was looking for a specific hoodie from the SB Gallery shop but they don't have it.
But I was determine to get a hoodie sweater becos' I need it to fight the Alaskan winter cold blast in my office. Even the windbreaker I got from the IMF event couldn't stay the cold.
Imagine when I took off the windbreaker, immediately I just felt the cold. It is especially colder when these days are rainy days.
But before I went to shop for my hoodie, I went to That CD Shop and copped two Corrinne May's albums. One is her first album, "Fly Away", and the second one I got is her latest release for Christmas, "The Gift".
Next before I contiinued my shopping, I went to buy the hot and crispy Taiwan Chicken Cutlet to warm my tummy. It feels so good. It also made me miss Taiwan.
After that, I slowly walked and ate my food alone, and headed for The Heeren. I went to check out the Garage boutique at basement of the mall, which sells Crumpler and Carharrt stuff.
And I found something I need there, Carharrt's CarLux Thermo Sweat Hoodie. I feel very comfy wearin' it. Just right to fight the freezing temperatures of my office.
Fit for street culture, the rugged outdoors and normal wear for cold times and rainy days. And its in brown, one of my fav colour of indulgence.
So I just took it.
I went for a "little" shopping after work today.
Took a cab right after work from Bukit Timah to Orchard to get my jeans which is suppose to be altered. But when I reach the tailor's, John the tailor says he haven't alter it yet because he got too many jobs in hand and becos' he too famous.
Although I could understand, I am still a little disappointed.
After that I went for some walk-walk and shopping as I got my pay cheque, again.
I was looking for a specific hoodie from the SB Gallery shop but they don't have it.
But I was determine to get a hoodie sweater becos' I need it to fight the Alaskan winter cold blast in my office. Even the windbreaker I got from the IMF event couldn't stay the cold.
Imagine when I took off the windbreaker, immediately I just felt the cold. It is especially colder when these days are rainy days.
But before I went to shop for my hoodie, I went to That CD Shop and copped two Corrinne May's albums. One is her first album, "Fly Away", and the second one I got is her latest release for Christmas, "The Gift".
Love her voice. Soothing to my ears.
Next before I contiinued my shopping, I went to buy the hot and crispy Taiwan Chicken Cutlet to warm my tummy. It feels so good. It also made me miss Taiwan.
After that, I slowly walked and ate my food alone, and headed for The Heeren. I went to check out the Garage boutique at basement of the mall, which sells Crumpler and Carharrt stuff.
And I found something I need there, Carharrt's CarLux Thermo Sweat Hoodie. I feel very comfy wearin' it. Just right to fight the freezing temperatures of my office.
Looks cool and neat.
Fit for street culture, the rugged outdoors and normal wear for cold times and rainy days. And its in brown, one of my fav colour of indulgence.
So I just took it.
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Love You Lately
by Daniel Powter
You packed your last two bags.
A taxi's 'round the bend.
You used to laugh out loud,
But you can't remember when.
You lost your lies.
It's like your moving out of time,
And the whole word crumbles right beneath you.
So, I might've made a few mistakes,
But that was back when you would smile,
And we would go everywhere,
But we ain't been there for awhile.
And this I know,
There's a place that we can go-
A place where I can finally let you know.
'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.
You and me, we got this great thing.
We're the only one's that around,
We're the only one's that around this Babylon.
I hope you find whatever you've been lookin' for.
Just remember where you're from and who you are,
'Cause there's a thousand lights that'll make you feel brand new,
But if you ever lose your way, I'll be right here for you.
'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.
You and me, we got this great thing.
So, come back and you sit down. Relax.
Everything's to see that you've come a long, long way,
And it's the place that you should be.
'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.
You and me, we got this great thing.
'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.
You and me, we got this great thing.
And we're the only one's that around,
We're the only one's that around this Babylon.
by Daniel Powter
You packed your last two bags.
A taxi's 'round the bend.
You used to laugh out loud,
But you can't remember when.
You lost your lies.
It's like your moving out of time,
And the whole word crumbles right beneath you.
So, I might've made a few mistakes,
But that was back when you would smile,
And we would go everywhere,
But we ain't been there for awhile.
And this I know,
There's a place that we can go-
A place where I can finally let you know.
'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.
You and me, we got this great thing.
We're the only one's that around,
We're the only one's that around this Babylon.
I hope you find whatever you've been lookin' for.
Just remember where you're from and who you are,
'Cause there's a thousand lights that'll make you feel brand new,
But if you ever lose your way, I'll be right here for you.
'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.
You and me, we got this great thing.
So, come back and you sit down. Relax.
Everything's to see that you've come a long, long way,
And it's the place that you should be.
'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.
You and me, we got this great thing.
'Cause I'm the one that loves you lately.
You and me, we got this great thing.
And we're the only one's that around,
We're the only one's that around this Babylon.
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
Funny is Life, Life is Funny.
My emotions are still pretty "unstable".
For a moment, I can be super-hyper active and happy, then for next moment, I can be angry doing my work. And another I can have sudden bouts of sadness that can almost make my tears come out, especially when I heard of familiar tunes.]
Wah piang eh, Jeffery, you're suffering Zane's Syndrome!
[Zane's Syndrome: A syndrome named after a female species who goes goo-goo gaa-gaa of emotions after a seriously bad hair time! Wahahaha!]
Anyway, today is my first day of my career.
Kinda slack today, but I know it shouldn't be the case. Anyway, I wasn't in a stable mood to bother too much. Just trying to drown myself in my work if I have work.
I also don't know why I still can talk to her online as if nothing have happened. Maybe becos' I know she's well, which is good enough for me.
Anyway, after a whole day's work, I am felt very tired.. Even though there's actually not alot of workload. My eyes are like they're gonna pop out staring at a CRT monitor screen which really strained my eyeballs. Not to mention I'm freezing to death in my office, as if its almost like a freezer, especially when the day's out.
For the first day of work, what have I learnt?
Eric, my boss and creative director talked to me at the end of the day. He looked through my designs and he told me, what I didn't like about my design meant clients would most probably don't like it.
What he said is true. I know what he mean is to use my passion and heart to design something I like, which is being true to myself.
I know I'm lacking confidence in my own technical skills of the software-know-how in terms of making the creativities I wanted. So now, I'm working hard doing some tutorials now.
He reminded me of what is expected of a true designer with his own design principles and his style of working. Not to mention to be always moving on with times and always improving his or her work quality and design sense.
I'm glad I'm going to have a mentor like him. But of cos', I can't always depend on him, cos' he's not always around. I need to pick up the skills and imrove my own deisgn sense on my own too.
So let me start my new life NOW!
v(^.^)v
My emotions are still pretty "unstable".
For a moment, I can be super-hyper active and happy, then for next moment, I can be angry doing my work. And another I can have sudden bouts of sadness that can almost make my tears come out, especially when I heard of familiar tunes.]
Wah piang eh, Jeffery, you're suffering Zane's Syndrome!
[Zane's Syndrome: A syndrome named after a female species who goes goo-goo gaa-gaa of emotions after a seriously bad hair time! Wahahaha!]
Anyway, today is my first day of my career.
Kinda slack today, but I know it shouldn't be the case. Anyway, I wasn't in a stable mood to bother too much. Just trying to drown myself in my work if I have work.
I also don't know why I still can talk to her online as if nothing have happened. Maybe becos' I know she's well, which is good enough for me.
Anyway, after a whole day's work, I am felt very tired.. Even though there's actually not alot of workload. My eyes are like they're gonna pop out staring at a CRT monitor screen which really strained my eyeballs. Not to mention I'm freezing to death in my office, as if its almost like a freezer, especially when the day's out.
For the first day of work, what have I learnt?
Eric, my boss and creative director talked to me at the end of the day. He looked through my designs and he told me, what I didn't like about my design meant clients would most probably don't like it.
What he said is true. I know what he mean is to use my passion and heart to design something I like, which is being true to myself.
I know I'm lacking confidence in my own technical skills of the software-know-how in terms of making the creativities I wanted. So now, I'm working hard doing some tutorials now.
He reminded me of what is expected of a true designer with his own design principles and his style of working. Not to mention to be always moving on with times and always improving his or her work quality and design sense.
I'm glad I'm going to have a mentor like him. But of cos', I can't always depend on him, cos' he's not always around. I need to pick up the skills and imrove my own deisgn sense on my own too.
So let me start my new life NOW!
v(^.^)v
The Moment (這一刻)
by 孫燕姿
這一刻回頭看見自己
這一路的風景百感交集的我
下一刻又將飛向哪裡
漸漸疲憊的羽翼為你披上了勇氣
放心離開我我會記得這一刻
那些還飛翔著不可思議的夢
雨後的天空會有絢爛的彩虹
像最初相信著我們總會找到自由
這一刻時間變成行李
越過生命悲喜陪伴著我前進
因為你讓我看清自己
面對未知的恐懼腳步更加堅定
放心離開我我會記得這一刻
那些還飛翔著不可思議的夢
雨後的天空會有絢爛的彩虹
像最初相信著我會找到自由
哦……只是遠行不是逃避
告別是為延續回憶永恆的華麗
你……要照顧自己不要忘記
那些燦爛過的痕跡
放心離開我我會記得這一刻
那些還飛翔著不可思議的夢
雨後的天空會有絢爛的彩虹
像最初相信著我會找到自由自由
Her songs never fail to make me reflect, console me, give me hope.. and remind me what life is about..
by 孫燕姿
這一刻回頭看見自己
這一路的風景百感交集的我
下一刻又將飛向哪裡
漸漸疲憊的羽翼為你披上了勇氣
放心離開我我會記得這一刻
那些還飛翔著不可思議的夢
雨後的天空會有絢爛的彩虹
像最初相信著我們總會找到自由
這一刻時間變成行李
越過生命悲喜陪伴著我前進
因為你讓我看清自己
面對未知的恐懼腳步更加堅定
放心離開我我會記得這一刻
那些還飛翔著不可思議的夢
雨後的天空會有絢爛的彩虹
像最初相信著我會找到自由
哦……只是遠行不是逃避
告別是為延續回憶永恆的華麗
你……要照顧自己不要忘記
那些燦爛過的痕跡
放心離開我我會記得這一刻
那些還飛翔著不可思議的夢
雨後的天空會有絢爛的彩虹
像最初相信著我會找到自由自由
Her songs never fail to make me reflect, console me, give me hope.. and remind me what life is about..
任性
by 孫燕姿
喜歡聽歌 感人的歌
它讓我覺得 愛是對的
睡不著 我就醒著
喜歡唱歌 動人的歌
它讓我獲得一些心得
得不到 我就放掉
不再讓日子被打亂了
寂寞很吵 我很安靜
情緒很多 我很鎮定
因為投入 所以放棄
不願再被痛醒
固執算不算任性的要求
付出也可能看不到結果
終於你還是選擇了放手
用逃避 讓感情犯錯
承諾算不算任性的要求
人總是不能太容易感動
當愛失去自我失去包容
只想要 從混亂解脫
喜歡唱歌 動人的歌
它讓我獲得一些心得
得不到 我就放掉
不去觸碰到我的需要
喜歡唱歌 動人的歌
它讓我覺得愛是對的
by 孫燕姿
喜歡聽歌 感人的歌
它讓我覺得 愛是對的
睡不著 我就醒著
喜歡唱歌 動人的歌
它讓我獲得一些心得
得不到 我就放掉
不再讓日子被打亂了
寂寞很吵 我很安靜
情緒很多 我很鎮定
因為投入 所以放棄
不願再被痛醒
固執算不算任性的要求
付出也可能看不到結果
終於你還是選擇了放手
用逃避 讓感情犯錯
承諾算不算任性的要求
人總是不能太容易感動
當愛失去自我失去包容
只想要 從混亂解脫
喜歡唱歌 動人的歌
它讓我獲得一些心得
得不到 我就放掉
不去觸碰到我的需要
喜歡唱歌 動人的歌
它讓我覺得愛是對的
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Should I Stay
by Dreamz FM
Listen song here.
Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found
Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?
Wish you’d been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart
The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin’ proof of what love is about
It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?
You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I’m down
My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You’re still in my thoughts
It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?
Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?
It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I…?
This time its done
It’ll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it’s sad just the same
I guess the truth
Doesn’t matter somehow
But you were livin’ proof of what love is about…
My favourite heartbroken song.
It is blogged again after 3 long years..
But sadly, this time it matches all so well..
by Dreamz FM
Listen song here.
Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found
Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?
Wish you’d been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart
The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am livin’ proof of what love is about
It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?
You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough I’m down
My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You’re still in my thoughts
It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?
Oooohh…should I stay?
Should I go?
It’s hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It’s sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don’t know (I don’t know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I…?
This time its done
It’ll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it’s sad just the same
I guess the truth
Doesn’t matter somehow
But you were livin’ proof of what love is about…
My favourite heartbroken song.
It is blogged again after 3 long years..
But sadly, this time it matches all so well..
Maybe Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough.
Sometimes I really don't know why I'm thinking too much..
I asked her if I'm her Mr. Cheer Bear. She's said no.
I asked whether I'm the one who upset her, that she's scared that I may never love her the same anymore, she said no either.
I don't know whether I'm thinking too much.. If she's just protecting my feelings, then I rather her to be true to herself. Stubborn people only hurt themselves. Being not true to oneself is even more damaging, which I don't want her to be that way..
Maybe its better this way..
If I ever found out that what she said was not true, I'll be even more disappointed not with the answer, but with her. Cos' her untrue answers might hurt me even more. I don't know if she's hiding her feelings.. although I have a feeling that what she's saying might not be true, but I'll respect her answers anyway.
But I hope she can find what or who she's looking for. She's forever my little superhero girl after all.
And I don't know why I kept asking her whether "we're still friends", maybe becos' I hate losing her, even more, as a friend. She's worthy friend.
I know I hurt her when I said I wanted to be love her as friend.. I know she wanted more than that.. But I thought it was the best way I do not increase her stress. I want her to be happy..
I do love her, but she doesn't need it now. It'll only hurt her..
If going across that line is so painful for us, then its better for us to remain as friends and let fate, nature and time take us to our true love. I'm not the perfect guy for her, I'm too impatient and impulsive.
But maybe she'll find someone who love me her than I love her..
~~~~~
For now, I wouldn't be going into any relationship. I just want to focus on my new career, which is going to start tomorrow.
I'm going to gain experience and work for the capital for my dreams. Earn lots of money, create lots of cool stuff and be famous!
I've so much yet to achieve so how can I give anyone else anything extra other than love, right? Sometimes love just ain't enough.
Sometimes I really don't know why I'm thinking too much..
I asked her if I'm her Mr. Cheer Bear. She's said no.
I asked whether I'm the one who upset her, that she's scared that I may never love her the same anymore, she said no either.
I don't know whether I'm thinking too much.. If she's just protecting my feelings, then I rather her to be true to herself. Stubborn people only hurt themselves. Being not true to oneself is even more damaging, which I don't want her to be that way..
Maybe its better this way..
If I ever found out that what she said was not true, I'll be even more disappointed not with the answer, but with her. Cos' her untrue answers might hurt me even more. I don't know if she's hiding her feelings.. although I have a feeling that what she's saying might not be true, but I'll respect her answers anyway.
But I hope she can find what or who she's looking for. She's forever my little superhero girl after all.
And I don't know why I kept asking her whether "we're still friends", maybe becos' I hate losing her, even more, as a friend. She's worthy friend.
I know I hurt her when I said I wanted to be love her as friend.. I know she wanted more than that.. But I thought it was the best way I do not increase her stress. I want her to be happy..
I do love her, but she doesn't need it now. It'll only hurt her..
If going across that line is so painful for us, then its better for us to remain as friends and let fate, nature and time take us to our true love. I'm not the perfect guy for her, I'm too impatient and impulsive.
But maybe she'll find someone who love me her than I love her..
~~~~~
For now, I wouldn't be going into any relationship. I just want to focus on my new career, which is going to start tomorrow.
I'm going to gain experience and work for the capital for my dreams. Earn lots of money, create lots of cool stuff and be famous!
I've so much yet to achieve so how can I give anyone else anything extra other than love, right? Sometimes love just ain't enough.
奔
by 孫燕姿
灰色的氣壓 扭曲的臉 好悶 生活顏色比天黑
不想負責的就無解 愛情像潛水 氧氣剩一些 無法呼吸的瞬間
開始吧 狂奔的起跑線 視覺像電影剪輯著從前
心跳正在撲通天上飛 拼命追 I Will Go This Way
自由對於我 是種發洩 就算 愛情變成了洪水
喘了也累了攤在那邊 我就想依賴揮霍著眼淚 對錯歸零出發再了解
開啟吧 狂奔的起跑線 視覺像電影剪輯著從前
心跳正在撲通天上飛 I Will Say Yes I Choose This Way
十二點 凌晨交界 黎明前 天還是黑的
自由了 我的靈魂 我狂奔著 拼命追 不會停歇
血液裡流著頹廢 到哪裡都向著明天 天亮了另個起點告別從前
視覺像電影剪輯著從前
開始吧 狂奔的起跑線 視覺像電影剪輯著從前
心跳正在撲通天上飛 拼命追
開啟吧 狂奔的起跑線 視覺像電影剪輯著從前
心跳正在撲通天上飛 I Will Say Yes I Choose This Way
I Will Go This Way
I Will Go This Way
~~~~~
If you're wondering why I could recover so quickly from sadness, from someone whom I love so much, its becos' I've learnt to be true.
I want to be strong and happy for anyone who loves me.
Yes, I choose this way, no regrets loving someone ; )
by 孫燕姿
灰色的氣壓 扭曲的臉 好悶 生活顏色比天黑
不想負責的就無解 愛情像潛水 氧氣剩一些 無法呼吸的瞬間
開始吧 狂奔的起跑線 視覺像電影剪輯著從前
心跳正在撲通天上飛 拼命追 I Will Go This Way
自由對於我 是種發洩 就算 愛情變成了洪水
喘了也累了攤在那邊 我就想依賴揮霍著眼淚 對錯歸零出發再了解
開啟吧 狂奔的起跑線 視覺像電影剪輯著從前
心跳正在撲通天上飛 I Will Say Yes I Choose This Way
十二點 凌晨交界 黎明前 天還是黑的
自由了 我的靈魂 我狂奔著 拼命追 不會停歇
血液裡流著頹廢 到哪裡都向著明天 天亮了另個起點告別從前
視覺像電影剪輯著從前
開始吧 狂奔的起跑線 視覺像電影剪輯著從前
心跳正在撲通天上飛 拼命追
開啟吧 狂奔的起跑線 視覺像電影剪輯著從前
心跳正在撲通天上飛 I Will Say Yes I Choose This Way
I Will Go This Way
I Will Go This Way
~~~~~
If you're wondering why I could recover so quickly from sadness, from someone whom I love so much, its becos' I've learnt to be true.
I want to be strong and happy for anyone who loves me.
Yes, I choose this way, no regrets loving someone ; )
We All Need Time..
What should I do..? What can I do..?
I went to bed the earliest last night dunno since when, but I still managed to wake up early this morning now.. I couldn't sleep anymore..
Well.. I do a bit of workout later.
I have stopped crying already. But I'm feeling a bit lost right now. As much as I know I need to take control of my life now, I just couldn't ignore her feelings..
Last night, my friends challenged me to try stop contacting her and stop reading her blog for a while.. I could have accepted the challenge, but deep down in my heart.. I know even I accepted it, I would be lying to myself. So I couldn't and I didn't. I rather face her and the truth.
Cos' she's still important to me.
I'm still concern for her.. I still treasure her.
I still love her in my heart. It might take time to learn to be her true friend again, but I'll still be by her side somehow..
I want her to be happy. Her unhappiness is making me feeling me guilty, cos' I do not know whether I have hurt her saying something not right when I thought what I did to stop pursuing her was the best thing for her becos' its giving her stress..
I said I wanted to be friends with her because I thought my pursue for her made her very stressed and unhappy..
But to really give up on her is very hard..
Her behaviours and her "call" for help is something I couldn't ignore..
I thought its only about me loving her, and when I tried stop loving her, I feel my own pain. It should have been only my own pain so that we both don't suffer.. But why is she in pain now?
What should I do and what can I do when she's just showing the coldness towards me?
I know you trying to be strong and you're strong, but even the strongest person will fall someday..
If you want to be strong, just be strong.. If you want to have someone's shoulders, you should just let him or her know.. No point pressuring yourself against your emotions some times.
I know you're trying to be happy in your own way of life and you can share your happiness. But how can you truely know what is happiness and share it when you do not know how to share your pain and sadness?
You're actually just hiding.. So if you really want to be strong, face me, after when you have sort out your thoughts and when you're ready.
I've given all the advises I can..
Maybe we all need time to think about it..
Maybe we should just give ourselves another chance for each other.. Only time will tell..
~~~~~
"ＯＨ 親愛的請別訝異 時空變換一樣愛你
祝你開心 十年
ＯＨ 親愛的請別哭泣 點燃回憶吹熄傷心
祝你開心 十年
多麼幸運彼此遇見
柴米油鹽才最可貴 呼呼
~~~~~
Shit! My pail of aircon water overflowed yesterday becos' I forgot to switch off my bloody air-con for the whole day when I was out to work!
The overflowed waters flooded my pink shoe box..!!! Fark..!!!
What should I do..? What can I do..?
I went to bed the earliest last night dunno since when, but I still managed to wake up early this morning now.. I couldn't sleep anymore..
Well.. I do a bit of workout later.
I have stopped crying already. But I'm feeling a bit lost right now. As much as I know I need to take control of my life now, I just couldn't ignore her feelings..
Last night, my friends challenged me to try stop contacting her and stop reading her blog for a while.. I could have accepted the challenge, but deep down in my heart.. I know even I accepted it, I would be lying to myself. So I couldn't and I didn't. I rather face her and the truth.
Cos' she's still important to me.
I'm still concern for her.. I still treasure her.
I still love her in my heart. It might take time to learn to be her true friend again, but I'll still be by her side somehow..
I want her to be happy. Her unhappiness is making me feeling me guilty, cos' I do not know whether I have hurt her saying something not right when I thought what I did to stop pursuing her was the best thing for her becos' its giving her stress..
I said I wanted to be friends with her because I thought my pursue for her made her very stressed and unhappy..
But to really give up on her is very hard..
Her behaviours and her "call" for help is something I couldn't ignore..
I thought its only about me loving her, and when I tried stop loving her, I feel my own pain. It should have been only my own pain so that we both don't suffer.. But why is she in pain now?
What should I do and what can I do when she's just showing the coldness towards me?
I know you trying to be strong and you're strong, but even the strongest person will fall someday..
If you want to be strong, just be strong.. If you want to have someone's shoulders, you should just let him or her know.. No point pressuring yourself against your emotions some times.
I know you're trying to be happy in your own way of life and you can share your happiness. But how can you truely know what is happiness and share it when you do not know how to share your pain and sadness?
You're actually just hiding.. So if you really want to be strong, face me, after when you have sort out your thoughts and when you're ready.
I've given all the advises I can..
Maybe we all need time to think about it..
Maybe we should just give ourselves another chance for each other.. Only time will tell..
~~~~~
"ＯＨ 親愛的請別訝異 時空變換一樣愛你
祝你開心 十年
ＯＨ 親愛的請別哭泣 點燃回憶吹熄傷心
祝你開心 十年
多麼幸運彼此遇見
柴米油鹽才最可貴 呼呼
~~~~~
Shit! My pail of aircon water overflowed yesterday becos' I forgot to switch off my bloody air-con for the whole day when I was out to work!
The overflowed waters flooded my pink shoe box..!!! Fark..!!!
Monday, November 06, 2006
Reborn.
I suddenly realised something.
I have lots of things to do.
I have lots of distance to cover for my life. No time to be sad for long. Life is like running, even if I fell, I still need to get up and run, and complete my run to the finishing line, even though I've hurt myself and bled.
A little crazy to go through such a compressed emotional rollercoaster though.
The rain stopped. And I can walk out in the open again.
I became hungry and I went out again to have my lunch. To fill up what's empty.
I suddenly realised something.
I have lots of things to do.
I have lots of distance to cover for my life. No time to be sad for long. Life is like running, even if I fell, I still need to get up and run, and complete my run to the finishing line, even though I've hurt myself and bled.
A little crazy to go through such a compressed emotional rollercoaster though.
The rain stopped. And I can walk out in the open again.
I became hungry and I went out again to have my lunch. To fill up what's empty.
God's Tears..
Its raining..
I didn't have my lunch. I simply don't have the appetite..
I had my breakfast though, which normally I don't take..
Anyway, its raining during my lunchtime, I'm just walking in His tears, wanted to walk around in town.. The rain wasn't big but it ain't a drizzle either. Its like tear drops.. As I walked, making myself a little wet, feeling a little cold, I starting to hum the tune "雨天" in this appropriate season..
Then I walked back to office as the rain told me to..
I'm wasn't as sad yesterday, but I can still cry if I want to, but I chose to hold them back.
~~~~~
Coping it..
Yesterday, I went out with Vel and Joe in the evening. For the second time, I went for their comfort of their company for the second time after I teared.
Took a walk around the mall of Marina Square, whenever there were catalystic signs of her, of music, words or items, I chose quickly walk away and just hide in the toilet for a while, and I just came out with my tears without coming out.
I was treated a movie of "Flushed Away" and I ate popcorn like nothing happened, I laughed when everyone laughed. The humour was of others' influence, it did not came from my heart.
After the movie, we went to the ice cream palour, I didn't ate anything chocolate or strawberried. My throat was in slight pain, so I couldn't eat anything that would hurt it even more, especially that thing on my chest. I took some time to stabilise my emotions and hold back my tears before I could start sharing my story with Vel and Joe.
After that, we had a long walk while trying to catch our cabs..
We ended up having to call our cabs.
On the long way home and at home, I called my Aunt Agony and had a long chat..
Its so funny.. She was advising me what I had advised her when I was her Uncle Agony, just a couple of weeks ago.
Both of our cases were so amazingly similar. We both wanted to know and ensure our opposite parties are comfortable with us, not that we wanted them to jump into a relationship with us. We know that cos' we love them and we know we could never forced them. We couldn't expect too much in return either.
We're all scared, but both of use took the courage to face it.
Sometimes we just don't know who's the one running away..
Its raining..
I didn't have my lunch. I simply don't have the appetite..
I had my breakfast though, which normally I don't take..
Anyway, its raining during my lunchtime, I'm just walking in His tears, wanted to walk around in town.. The rain wasn't big but it ain't a drizzle either. Its like tear drops.. As I walked, making myself a little wet, feeling a little cold, I starting to hum the tune "雨天" in this appropriate season..
Then I walked back to office as the rain told me to..
I'm wasn't as sad yesterday, but I can still cry if I want to, but I chose to hold them back.
~~~~~
Coping it..
Yesterday, I went out with Vel and Joe in the evening. For the second time, I went for their comfort of their company for the second time after I teared.
Took a walk around the mall of Marina Square, whenever there were catalystic signs of her, of music, words or items, I chose quickly walk away and just hide in the toilet for a while, and I just came out with my tears without coming out.
I was treated a movie of "Flushed Away" and I ate popcorn like nothing happened, I laughed when everyone laughed. The humour was of others' influence, it did not came from my heart.
After the movie, we went to the ice cream palour, I didn't ate anything chocolate or strawberried. My throat was in slight pain, so I couldn't eat anything that would hurt it even more, especially that thing on my chest. I took some time to stabilise my emotions and hold back my tears before I could start sharing my story with Vel and Joe.
After that, we had a long walk while trying to catch our cabs..
We ended up having to call our cabs.
On the long way home and at home, I called my Aunt Agony and had a long chat..
Its so funny.. She was advising me what I had advised her when I was her Uncle Agony, just a couple of weeks ago.
Both of our cases were so amazingly similar. We both wanted to know and ensure our opposite parties are comfortable with us, not that we wanted them to jump into a relationship with us. We know that cos' we love them and we know we could never forced them. We couldn't expect too much in return either.
We're all scared, but both of use took the courage to face it.
Sometimes we just don't know who's the one running away..
AQUARIUS MAN (21.1.06 ~ 19.2.06)
Hot-hearted man who likes to do thing his way. He can suddenly decide to do something without thinking of it's outcome. He is the type of guy with an inside energizer, so if you fall in love with this type of guy be "patient", even if you have to follow him a bit. His creative mind could create fantastic idea any time. If you do not understand or can not follow him, you won't be with him for long.
A man in this Zodiac will less likely to have a pale skin, and if he has a scar, it would be on his face or on his head. He moves very fast and very energetic, and he has a very self confident in himself. He is not the type to sit down and feel sorry or regret anything for long, especially with "Love". He loves justice. He dares to show his opinion or even argue about certain subject even he knows it might bring him problems. A straight forward type of guy.
He hardly lies except if he thinks it is necessary and he is not a good liar anyway. He will not lie to you about serious matter, but if he lie he will lie only a small little thing. He is gifted with the ability to be a very social person. He could talk even about subject that he has no knowledge of. He interests only at the present time and look at the world positively. Many times he feels hurt because of reality, but he will not run away and he will overcome that difficulty.
Even he is a high and self confident type and centers his own thought as a main focus, but at the same time he is a kind, cute and polite guy. He certainly is not a mean person. He likes to help people who are in troubles even he is not asked to. He is the type who feels sorry if you remember bad things he said to you that he had already forgotten, but you did not. Belief him that he is very sorry and give him another chance.
Once he decides to do something, he will put all his mind and energy in it either in his "Work", or "Love". He is the type who gambles anything in the casino, so do not even take him there. He does not like pessimistic, low energy, and depress person, especially no brain. Strangely he likes to overpower this type of people to assure that he is more superior.
He likes to be the first person to do something. You can see sparkling in his eyes, once he meets a new target or new lover. Once he is in love, he will be sincere and true till his last breath. This minute he could be real sugar sweet, and later he could also be an icy cold, but do not blame him for that will only chase him away. He could really love someone, but not a heart broken type for he thinks love is "excitement" and "Love goes on".
If you date this kind of guy, do not or avoid showing your face to him with face pack, face mask, always be presentable, nice and cute. If he is quiet not because he is shy, but he is only quietly thinking. If you have a chance to ask his X-girlfriend, she will tell you that he is not a shy or quiet type. If he is really and truly in love with you, he will never lie to you at all. How do you know if he loves you, bet on your faith! Love him and treat him steadily and do not try to find anything to argue with him, he will be with you for sure.
If you are his lover or girlfriend and need to tell him something, go and say it out loud and straight forward because he hate long boring story. He hates to play games, chasing for love or being chased, so let him call you first. He likes a confident woman who also a good follower. If he gets mad at you, let him be for only a short time he will be normal again. You have to like and be able to get along with his friends, but he does not have to do so with all your friends.
Don't ever think you could make him jealous by flirting with other man; he will just leave instead of making a scene because he is a confident man and has to be the first in everything.
So what if everything is true?
Hot-hearted man who likes to do thing his way. He can suddenly decide to do something without thinking of it's outcome. He is the type of guy with an inside energizer, so if you fall in love with this type of guy be "patient", even if you have to follow him a bit. His creative mind could create fantastic idea any time. If you do not understand or can not follow him, you won't be with him for long.
A man in this Zodiac will less likely to have a pale skin, and if he has a scar, it would be on his face or on his head. He moves very fast and very energetic, and he has a very self confident in himself. He is not the type to sit down and feel sorry or regret anything for long, especially with "Love". He loves justice. He dares to show his opinion or even argue about certain subject even he knows it might bring him problems. A straight forward type of guy.
He hardly lies except if he thinks it is necessary and he is not a good liar anyway. He will not lie to you about serious matter, but if he lie he will lie only a small little thing. He is gifted with the ability to be a very social person. He could talk even about subject that he has no knowledge of. He interests only at the present time and look at the world positively. Many times he feels hurt because of reality, but he will not run away and he will overcome that difficulty.
Even he is a high and self confident type and centers his own thought as a main focus, but at the same time he is a kind, cute and polite guy. He certainly is not a mean person. He likes to help people who are in troubles even he is not asked to. He is the type who feels sorry if you remember bad things he said to you that he had already forgotten, but you did not. Belief him that he is very sorry and give him another chance.
Once he decides to do something, he will put all his mind and energy in it either in his "Work", or "Love". He is the type who gambles anything in the casino, so do not even take him there. He does not like pessimistic, low energy, and depress person, especially no brain. Strangely he likes to overpower this type of people to assure that he is more superior.
He likes to be the first person to do something. You can see sparkling in his eyes, once he meets a new target or new lover. Once he is in love, he will be sincere and true till his last breath. This minute he could be real sugar sweet, and later he could also be an icy cold, but do not blame him for that will only chase him away. He could really love someone, but not a heart broken type for he thinks love is "excitement" and "Love goes on".
If you date this kind of guy, do not or avoid showing your face to him with face pack, face mask, always be presentable, nice and cute. If he is quiet not because he is shy, but he is only quietly thinking. If you have a chance to ask his X-girlfriend, she will tell you that he is not a shy or quiet type. If he is really and truly in love with you, he will never lie to you at all. How do you know if he loves you, bet on your faith! Love him and treat him steadily and do not try to find anything to argue with him, he will be with you for sure.
If you are his lover or girlfriend and need to tell him something, go and say it out loud and straight forward because he hate long boring story. He hates to play games, chasing for love or being chased, so let him call you first. He likes a confident woman who also a good follower. If he gets mad at you, let him be for only a short time he will be normal again. You have to like and be able to get along with his friends, but he does not have to do so with all your friends.
Don't ever think you could make him jealous by flirting with other man; he will just leave instead of making a scene because he is a confident man and has to be the first in everything.
So what if everything is true?
Sunday, November 05, 2006
Letting Go..
"If I love her, I just let her go."
And I just did. It seems so fast that I just let go..
Why? Becos' I've already cried for her once..
And I've cried enough.. She's the first woman who made me cried my heart out.
I really love her.. But if this is not the way for her, I rather let her go.
I'll just love her as a friend.
I've seen enough examples to not make both parties suffer.
It might take some time..
"If I love her, I just let her go."
And I just did. It seems so fast that I just let go..
Why? Becos' I've already cried for her once..
And I've cried enough.. She's the first woman who made me cried my heart out.
I really love her.. But if this is not the way for her, I rather let her go.
I'll just love her as a friend.
I've seen enough examples to not make both parties suffer.
It might take some time..
I Was Too Much..
I was just following my heart..
..in search of an answer which was to initially make sure that she was happy with me, but in the end, I caused more unhappiness in her..
Blinded my silly and impatient pursue of the truth, I accidentally put her in the situation that I never wanted her to be in the first place.. I was stupid.
Sober I am, but how can I be so insensitive?
I've failed.. And I felt guilty about it.
I'm sorry, fishy.
I was just following my heart..
..in search of an answer which was to initially make sure that she was happy with me, but in the end, I caused more unhappiness in her..
Blinded my silly and impatient pursue of the truth, I accidentally put her in the situation that I never wanted her to be in the first place.. I was stupid.
Sober I am, but how can I be so insensitive?
I've failed.. And I felt guilty about it.
I'm sorry, fishy.
Saturday, November 04, 2006
You Could Be Happy
by Snow Patrol
You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go
And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played on lips 'till it's madness in my head
Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur
Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door
You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far
Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true
Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do
More than anything I want to see you go
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world
by Snow Patrol
You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go
And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played on lips 'till it's madness in my head
Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur
Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door
You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far
Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true
Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do
More than anything I want to see you go
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world
Numb!
I am going to make my story short and sweet as possible.
Went to KTV in Chinatown after a long day's work. Was feeling a bit stressed and tired after that because there's going to be changes for my working life.
Anyway, I went to sing. Wasn't on form. Cannot reach the notes which I know I could. One of the worst singing sessions of my life.
After I went to chit-chat and drinking at One Fullerton with June and Alex, walking all the way from Chinatown. Luckily I'm urban-walking trained.
There, we played finger guessing games and drank, and had got high and fun.
We went into BabyFace, a club of Chinese techno and live rock band. Got more beer, played more guessing games, and I almost got "killed" by both of them. At least I'm conciously aware of things going on. The King did not fall, just suffered a bad battle.
Went home in a cab, puked in the cab and just dive into my bed and slept.
~~~~~
Now I'm still feeling a bit of that numb feeling.
Did this piece of art work while I was cleaning up and clearing my room.
I am going to make my story short and sweet as possible.
Went to KTV in Chinatown after a long day's work. Was feeling a bit stressed and tired after that because there's going to be changes for my working life.
Anyway, I went to sing. Wasn't on form. Cannot reach the notes which I know I could. One of the worst singing sessions of my life.
After I went to chit-chat and drinking at One Fullerton with June and Alex, walking all the way from Chinatown. Luckily I'm urban-walking trained.
There, we played finger guessing games and drank, and had got high and fun.
We went into BabyFace, a club of Chinese techno and live rock band. Got more beer, played more guessing games, and I almost got "killed" by both of them. At least I'm conciously aware of things going on. The King did not fall, just suffered a bad battle.
Went home in a cab, puked in the cab and just dive into my bed and slept.
~~~~~
Now I'm still feeling a bit of that numb feeling.
Did this piece of art work while I was cleaning up and clearing my room.
Love Listerines!
Friday, November 03, 2006
They say..
Love is unconditional.
But really, is that always the case?
Love is true when its unconditional,
but love is also mutual understanding.
Sometimes if you don't tell how much you love the person,
the person wouldn't be sure if you love him/her or not.
Its the best and only way to prove your worth that you are worth loving.
All human relationships need that.
So remember to always tell your love ones how much you love them.
Love is unconditional.
But really, is that always the case?
Love is true when its unconditional,
but love is also mutual understanding.
Sometimes if you don't tell how much you love the person,
the person wouldn't be sure if you love him/her or not.
Its the best and only way to prove your worth that you are worth loving.
All human relationships need that.
So remember to always tell your love ones how much you love them.
Prayers Answered: I Got My Fulltime Job!
Thank God. My prayers have been answered. Amen!
I got casually interviewed by my cousin Deric's friend, Eric, a boss of his own company, and I got in and I accepted it!
I joined Eric not becos' he's offering me lucrative monetary returns (which is not as good as my last job offer). Its because I can see he's a man with vision, willing to teach me the experiences and skills I needed to learn, and his company do have the future prospects.
How do I see it?
He enthusiatically showed me more of his company's portfolio than I do of my portfolio, and the cool things he's doing, which are all very cool. I listened to him for about an hour plus. Very interesting, I believe growing with him will bring good future prospects for me.
The experiences I need and the passion for design.
Design is about creating solutions in creative ways. Not just solve problems.
Thank God. My prayers have been answered. Amen!
I got casually interviewed by my cousin Deric's friend, Eric, a boss of his own company, and I got in and I accepted it!
I joined Eric not becos' he's offering me lucrative monetary returns (which is not as good as my last job offer). Its because I can see he's a man with vision, willing to teach me the experiences and skills I needed to learn, and his company do have the future prospects.
How do I see it?
He enthusiatically showed me more of his company's portfolio than I do of my portfolio, and the cool things he's doing, which are all very cool. I listened to him for about an hour plus. Very interesting, I believe growing with him will bring good future prospects for me.
The experiences I need and the passion for design.
Design is about creating solutions in creative ways. Not just solve problems.
Thursday, November 02, 2006
接下來
by 孫燕姿
All I wanna do I do it for you
心裡能感覺 你會還在
如此靠近的遙遠
想念的瞬間 不斷浮現
接受阿 身邊有點孤單
我準備 每個在見面
接下來 有好有壞
我只要 記得起點
接下來 我去迎接
不後退
接下來 可好可壞
有你 陪在每一天
All I wanna do I do it for you
All I wanna do I do it for you
就算阿 偶爾我覺得累
是了解 推著我向前
接下來 有好有壞
我只要 記得起點
接下來 我去迎接
不後退
接下來 可好可壞
有你 陪在每一天
All I wanna do I do it for you
我們一起飛 飛得更遠
All I wanna do I do it for you
替我們實現 夢的極限
讓我看得見 我的信念
by 孫燕姿
All I wanna do I do it for you
心裡能感覺 你會還在
如此靠近的遙遠
想念的瞬間 不斷浮現
接受阿 身邊有點孤單
我準備 每個在見面
接下來 有好有壞
我只要 記得起點
接下來 我去迎接
不後退
接下來 可好可壞
有你 陪在每一天
All I wanna do I do it for you
All I wanna do I do it for you
就算阿 偶爾我覺得累
是了解 推著我向前
接下來 有好有壞
我只要 記得起點
接下來 我去迎接
不後退
接下來 可好可壞
有你 陪在每一天
All I wanna do I do it for you
我們一起飛 飛得更遠
All I wanna do I do it for you
替我們實現 夢的極限
讓我看得見 我的信念
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
The Things on My Mind..
Another day has passed. And another it will come.
There isn't much work today. I'm actually happy I'm going to end this part-time job. But I'm entering into another frustration.
When will I get a stable job I like and get a DECENT PAY according to workload?
As much as I like to follow my heart to reject that job offer, I also really hate not having a permanent full-time job. I don't like to worry about my finance all the time you know..
No matter how hard I tried to explain.. it difficult for some to understand.. I felt that all my love ones don't understand.. Even my parents..
While, now I have to quit worrying and move on quickly
I had to personally deliver my portfolio works to a 3D games studio company in Chinatown from Orchard during my one hour lunch break, as I could not sent the big portfolio file to their email. Got fillet-o-fish along the way while I search for their company.
(I like this job, 3D concept artist position, my cup of tea.)
And when I reach there, no single soul was in sight of the studio office.. Its kind of weird that an office is totally empty and unlocked even when they all went for lunch at 1pm right? Anyway, I just left my portfolio and stuff on what I hope is the receptionist's table and hopefully falls into the correct hands.
Work was less stressful today as the boss is going to slowly pass over my position to an unlucky or lucky soul. Lucky is that the booses are really easy to get along with, but unlucky is that the latter might get low pay and big workloads.
After work, I went for a walk in town, thinking about what am I going to do next in my life. Went to Borders to browse a while, and suddenly, I wanted to buy the Holy Bible and I bought it.
Then I received a call, from my cousin's boss whom my cousin recommended, requesting me for a casual interview, I accepted the interview for tomorrow.
See how it goes.
There and after, I continued scrolling down the town.. while taking a short video using my digicam.. Nothing interesting, just bored and bothered.
After that I went home, feeling tired..
~~~~~
When I reached home.. I had wanted to ignore her today actually..
But she's too hard to resist..
Funny.. Every time the day I planned to ignore her, she'll always get to me first..
Another day has passed. And another it will come.
There isn't much work today. I'm actually happy I'm going to end this part-time job. But I'm entering into another frustration.
When will I get a stable job I like and get a DECENT PAY according to workload?
As much as I like to follow my heart to reject that job offer, I also really hate not having a permanent full-time job. I don't like to worry about my finance all the time you know..
No matter how hard I tried to explain.. it difficult for some to understand.. I felt that all my love ones don't understand.. Even my parents..
While, now I have to quit worrying and move on quickly
I had to personally deliver my portfolio works to a 3D games studio company in Chinatown from Orchard during my one hour lunch break, as I could not sent the big portfolio file to their email. Got fillet-o-fish along the way while I search for their company.
(I like this job, 3D concept artist position, my cup of tea.)
And when I reach there, no single soul was in sight of the studio office.. Its kind of weird that an office is totally empty and unlocked even when they all went for lunch at 1pm right? Anyway, I just left my portfolio and stuff on what I hope is the receptionist's table and hopefully falls into the correct hands.
Work was less stressful today as the boss is going to slowly pass over my position to an unlucky or lucky soul. Lucky is that the booses are really easy to get along with, but unlucky is that the latter might get low pay and big workloads.
After work, I went for a walk in town, thinking about what am I going to do next in my life. Went to Borders to browse a while, and suddenly, I wanted to buy the Holy Bible and I bought it.
Then I received a call, from my cousin's boss whom my cousin recommended, requesting me for a casual interview, I accepted the interview for tomorrow.
See how it goes.
There and after, I continued scrolling down the town.. while taking a short video using my digicam.. Nothing interesting, just bored and bothered.
After that I went home, feeling tired..
~~~~~
When I reached home.. I had wanted to ignore her today actually..
But she's too hard to resist..
Funny.. Every time the day I planned to ignore her, she'll always get to me first..
