Sunday, September 30, 2007
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
In Celebration of the Full Moon..
This evening I had a very sudden invite from an acquainted friend asking my to go to a bar with her. Her name is Nadine, and as said in a previous post, she's Alex's pal and ex-colleague.
And I got to find out why she invited me.
Firstly, Alex is REALLY sick, so I guess she need another soul to company her. Secondly, she need someone who can drink (lol, this I made it up). And last but not least we both share something in common; we both are in the media publishing industry but she's a sales executive while I'm a creative designer, working for competing companys.
Basically, she said she hate going to events like this club opening events alone, as assign by her company. So she called me. I was wondering why I am th chosen one. Thought she got a few pretty sisters who can do better. Haha.
The new nightspot newly opened is the Lunar Club, an Asian fusion bar, playing mainly mandarin, korean and japanese pop songs on its big screen or with its live bands.
The place is quite nicely designed with the typical China Maoist-inspired interiors. But the sound design heard at the first floor was bad, that it sounded like "getai". Perhaps the sound surrond was affected by the paintings hanging over our heads at the first floor. The only thing nice on the first floor was the freeflow of drinks for free.
On the second floor, the sound is better, with more comfortable seats reserved for the members and VIPs. There we spotted some famous socialites of the upper class.
We did some walk around to see but nothing much except for a big red statue I spotted; a communist-inspired art statue, which resembles our MM Lee!
Hahaha! What a political satire!
But anyway, after the visit to the club, we had a short walk together along the beautifull decorated riverside back to our transportation places to go home. During that, Nadine says, "Haiz.. Today is mid-autumn festival, we should be spending time with our families or with our love ones. Why are we doing together here?"
I wanted to laugh and then reply, "Hey! You're the one who ask me out!" But she's right of course. But I know I'll just be with my parents and grandma at home doing nothing but watching telly anyway.
As for love ones, I dunno if anyone misses me..
Who is my Chang-E?! (lol)
The "full moon" for the night.
This evening I had a very sudden invite from an acquainted friend asking my to go to a bar with her. Her name is Nadine, and as said in a previous post, she's Alex's pal and ex-colleague.
And I got to find out why she invited me.
Firstly, Alex is REALLY sick, so I guess she need another soul to company her. Secondly, she need someone who can drink (lol, this I made it up). And last but not least we both share something in common; we both are in the media publishing industry but she's a sales executive while I'm a creative designer, working for competing companys.
Basically, she said she hate going to events like this club opening events alone, as assign by her company. So she called me. I was wondering why I am th chosen one. Thought she got a few pretty sisters who can do better. Haha.
The new nightspot newly opened is the Lunar Club, an Asian fusion bar, playing mainly mandarin, korean and japanese pop songs on its big screen or with its live bands.
The place is quite nicely designed with the typical China Maoist-inspired interiors. But the sound design heard at the first floor was bad, that it sounded like "getai". Perhaps the sound surrond was affected by the paintings hanging over our heads at the first floor. The only thing nice on the first floor was the freeflow of drinks for free.
On the second floor, the sound is better, with more comfortable seats reserved for the members and VIPs. There we spotted some famous socialites of the upper class.
We did some walk around to see but nothing much except for a big red statue I spotted; a communist-inspired art statue, which resembles our MM Lee!
Hahaha! What a political satire!
Below are the slaves.. (including me)
"Ah Lee wants more beer!"
But anyway, after the visit to the club, we had a short walk together along the beautifull decorated riverside back to our transportation places to go home. During that, Nadine says, "Haiz.. Today is mid-autumn festival, we should be spending time with our families or with our love ones. Why are we doing together here?"
I wanted to laugh and then reply, "Hey! You're the one who ask me out!" But she's right of course. But I know I'll just be with my parents and grandma at home doing nothing but watching telly anyway.
As for love ones, I dunno if anyone misses me..
Who is my Chang-E?! (lol)
Monday, September 24, 2007
Good Time Flies..
My another weekend gone, just like that, with a blink of an eye..
Went out with my friends for movie yesterday after a whole day of work. While being the tired me dozed off in the early evening almost late for "Underdog", the movie.
The movie was funny but it is short. So it felt knid of fast. After the movie, we went for supper, or should I say mainly dinner as most of us, including me, hadn't got a proper dinner. Managed to chat our fill.
Today, I went out with almost the similar group of people to have dinner at Holland V and then have fun with boardgames at the nearby Settlers Cafe (again, like last weekend).
The games we played were Taboo, a screwed up Pictionary (cos' the pictionary dice imprints were gone) and lastly Citadel again. Though the games were still enjoyable, somehow I felt those games played wasn't fun enough. Though I won the Citadel game in the end, but I guess all of us weren't "evil and sinister" enough to play it, unlike me. Lack of backstabbing that kinda thing.. Which would make the game more fun like last weekend.
But anyway, I am just not satisfied with this weekend. Pretty dull. Lacked of serious laughter. Not even those laughter in the movie and the boardgaming session I felt its from my heart.
Something is bothering me, and I don't know what..
I guess it couldn be my job.
As you all know, I am unhappy with my job. Though Staurday didn't have much of an incdient, I still end up in a debate with my boss. My point is simply clear: "Why treat me like I am like one of your surbordinates when you were a publisher in your previous company, when you have 20 odd people and you have only one, which is me?"
And he obviously haven't see how come I worked better and smoothly with my lady boss, especially I have more things to do with her than with my boss. My boss had that kind of bad boss attitude of I give you things, you should do it your own, you're the designer.
That's totally lack of coordination and communication. The communication he sees it is when I so-called listened to him and get the things he wanted. But lacking so much guidelines and clues to what he want is always a problem. I am not a psychic you know.
He thought he was trying to knock sense into me.
But I think the problem is, he have to treat my like a partner, a fellow co-worker, rather than a surbordinate that he just order me and I do things. Come on, there's only 3 people in the company.. I don't see this "team" working properly..
This is what I learn in my managing project module during my poly days:
"A leader never over-runs the team.
A leader never JUST leave a team member to do his/her job and come back looking for the result later after missing for a time period.
A leader listens to the team member's suggestions first."
But of course:
"A team member never over-write the team leader's order
A team member work to an order pertaining to the team goal.
A team member do the task assigned by team leader."
And lastly:
"Not all projects, tasks are 100% successful.
No team leader or member is always successful."
(So don't fucking blame me when you don't get what you wanted. Design have different perspectives too.)
As a team member I never like to question a leadre's order unless there's a serious issue about it. But I think my leader to listen, but it came out from the other ear. Thinking that I'm just plain lazy trying to get the easy way out.
God damn it. I'm a lousy actor and I knew it. So I never try to act to be lazy..
I just hope he better wake up his idea. I really hate to quit becos' of him.
My another weekend gone, just like that, with a blink of an eye..
Went out with my friends for movie yesterday after a whole day of work. While being the tired me dozed off in the early evening almost late for "Underdog", the movie.
The movie was funny but it is short. So it felt knid of fast. After the movie, we went for supper, or should I say mainly dinner as most of us, including me, hadn't got a proper dinner. Managed to chat our fill.
Today, I went out with almost the similar group of people to have dinner at Holland V and then have fun with boardgames at the nearby Settlers Cafe (again, like last weekend).
The games we played were Taboo, a screwed up Pictionary (cos' the pictionary dice imprints were gone) and lastly Citadel again. Though the games were still enjoyable, somehow I felt those games played wasn't fun enough. Though I won the Citadel game in the end, but I guess all of us weren't "evil and sinister" enough to play it, unlike me. Lack of backstabbing that kinda thing.. Which would make the game more fun like last weekend.
But anyway, I am just not satisfied with this weekend. Pretty dull. Lacked of serious laughter. Not even those laughter in the movie and the boardgaming session I felt its from my heart.
Something is bothering me, and I don't know what..
I guess it couldn be my job.
As you all know, I am unhappy with my job. Though Staurday didn't have much of an incdient, I still end up in a debate with my boss. My point is simply clear: "Why treat me like I am like one of your surbordinates when you were a publisher in your previous company, when you have 20 odd people and you have only one, which is me?"
And he obviously haven't see how come I worked better and smoothly with my lady boss, especially I have more things to do with her than with my boss. My boss had that kind of bad boss attitude of I give you things, you should do it your own, you're the designer.
That's totally lack of coordination and communication. The communication he sees it is when I so-called listened to him and get the things he wanted. But lacking so much guidelines and clues to what he want is always a problem. I am not a psychic you know.
He thought he was trying to knock sense into me.
But I think the problem is, he have to treat my like a partner, a fellow co-worker, rather than a surbordinate that he just order me and I do things. Come on, there's only 3 people in the company.. I don't see this "team" working properly..
This is what I learn in my managing project module during my poly days:
"A leader never over-runs the team.
A leader never JUST leave a team member to do his/her job and come back looking for the result later after missing for a time period.
A leader listens to the team member's suggestions first."
But of course:
"A team member never over-write the team leader's order
A team member work to an order pertaining to the team goal.
A team member do the task assigned by team leader."
And lastly:
"Not all projects, tasks are 100% successful.
No team leader or member is always successful."
(So don't fucking blame me when you don't get what you wanted. Design have different perspectives too.)
As a team member I never like to question a leadre's order unless there's a serious issue about it. But I think my leader to listen, but it came out from the other ear. Thinking that I'm just plain lazy trying to get the easy way out.
God damn it. I'm a lousy actor and I knew it. So I never try to act to be lazy..
I just hope he better wake up his idea. I really hate to quit becos' of him.
Friday, September 21, 2007
Down.. Down.. Down..
I'm feeling so down and sian right now..
Work got some changes again.. Somemore it changed away one of my favourites designs..
Then my date cancelled a meet-up with her..
Tomorrow still got to do OT and don't know what to expect.. Sian..
Feel so lonely. Don't know why I always "gu jun zhuo zhan" (fighting alone)..
Someone save me please.
I'm feeling so down and sian right now..
Work got some changes again.. Somemore it changed away one of my favourites designs..
Then my date cancelled a meet-up with her..
Tomorrow still got to do OT and don't know what to expect.. Sian..
Feel so lonely. Don't know why I always "gu jun zhuo zhan" (fighting alone)..
Someone save me please.
Thursday, September 20, 2007
To Enter Crossroad Or Not?
Today is another new day for work. Which I'm quite numbed by the every morning routine.
Luckily for yesterday evening, I went to have dinner with Alex, and his pal Nadin. I didn't see army buddy Alex for a long time and I do miss going out with him.
(I also miss others too. For example, I can't remember June's face already.. Except that her face is white and bouncy.. Like a fishball *Grinz*. I also haven't seen my crazy buddy FRIEND for a long time too. Miss shopping or chilling out with her too..)
After dinner, we went to have a short clubbing experience at MoS for about 2 hours. And we went home before 12am. Lol. Short and sweet.
Good time to break-out the routine of work and going since I worked for 4 days already.
~~~~~
Haiz. The only difference between now and when I started of my work or mid-way through is that, I totally lost the passion to improve myself to work better for the magazine. I'm not as pro-active to the extend I would enthusiastically go and research during the after-hours to work for the better of my magazine layout design.
Why? Cos' someone always say I didn't put in my heart and effort when I really did for designing the magazine. Congrats to him, he got what the satet he wanted. Not that I didn't put effort and heart into my work now, but tis just that the "passion" is gone. Now, I tend to feel, "I finish my work properly and the best as I could, then I go and do my stuff", that kind of mentality. Different from, "Ok, I finished, but I look at it again to see if its nice and I re-do it again."
My boss' irregular mood swings and bad temper is one of the reasons where we got into this.
I do feel like quitting, but its going to be end of the year in 3 more months, sometimes I wonder, if I should press on just for the money's sake. But my design integrity has been insulted quite bad enough over the last two months already.
Today is another new day for work. Which I'm quite numbed by the every morning routine.
Luckily for yesterday evening, I went to have dinner with Alex, and his pal Nadin. I didn't see army buddy Alex for a long time and I do miss going out with him.
(I also miss others too. For example, I can't remember June's face already.. Except that her face is white and bouncy.. Like a fishball *Grinz*. I also haven't seen my crazy buddy FRIEND for a long time too. Miss shopping or chilling out with her too..)
After dinner, we went to have a short clubbing experience at MoS for about 2 hours. And we went home before 12am. Lol. Short and sweet.
Good time to break-out the routine of work and going since I worked for 4 days already.
~~~~~
Haiz. The only difference between now and when I started of my work or mid-way through is that, I totally lost the passion to improve myself to work better for the magazine. I'm not as pro-active to the extend I would enthusiastically go and research during the after-hours to work for the better of my magazine layout design.
Why? Cos' someone always say I didn't put in my heart and effort when I really did for designing the magazine. Congrats to him, he got what the satet he wanted. Not that I didn't put effort and heart into my work now, but tis just that the "passion" is gone. Now, I tend to feel, "I finish my work properly and the best as I could, then I go and do my stuff", that kind of mentality. Different from, "Ok, I finished, but I look at it again to see if its nice and I re-do it again."
My boss' irregular mood swings and bad temper is one of the reasons where we got into this.
I do feel like quitting, but its going to be end of the year in 3 more months, sometimes I wonder, if I should press on just for the money's sake. But my design integrity has been insulted quite bad enough over the last two months already.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
Oh FUCK Man.
Worked till pretty late in office yesterday. 9pm then I could reach home.
Was so fucking tired that my eyes were super strained and my mind couldn't focus. Was suppose to do some work at home after a 2 hour nap but I am simply too tired and I went back to sleep ay 12.30am again so I could do my work now..
But now, I realised I put my working files in my lady boss' USB drive instead of mine.. See how tired I must have been when I am in office then.. Fuck.. Now gotta go into office earlier to do those work then.. And I hate using my Mac mouse to do those work, I prefer my precision gaming mouse to work at home which is much more efficient.
My idiotic boss gave me some tasks of changing some articles but I didn't do it cos' I didn't have the time to.
And even though, those tasks were important and were suppose to prioritise for clearance first, I didn't do it.
Why? Cos' the idiot just put the papers in between the mock up file and didn't tell me its in there and expected me to flip through every page so I can spot it and do it. He only told me when he realised I didn't do it after another set of changes.
That's not proper work communication. And its not the first time he did that. There were several times he just passed me stuff, put things on my table or putting things in my USB drive (secretly when I'm away) with telling me with my ACKNOWLEDGEMENT. How the fuck am I to know there are new things coming in? Luckily for those, I always manage to see those new things suddenly appear in my USB drive.
Idiot. Still say work as a publisher in a publishing firm with 20 odd-people under him. I pity his ex-subordinates. Imagine the kind of havoc he must have create for the working environment for them.
Even my lady boss who was a branded watch boutique salesperson and an ex-SIA girl, with no big managerial experience status, do so much better than him in such a typical work tasking communications.
I work so well with my lady boss but I don't understand how come my boss is such a failure.
Oh well, poor character traits and bossy attitude I guessed.
Can't wait to submit my resignation by the end of this issue.
Enough is enough. A leopard can't change its spots. I don't hope to change him.
Worked till pretty late in office yesterday. 9pm then I could reach home.
Was so fucking tired that my eyes were super strained and my mind couldn't focus. Was suppose to do some work at home after a 2 hour nap but I am simply too tired and I went back to sleep ay 12.30am again so I could do my work now..
But now, I realised I put my working files in my lady boss' USB drive instead of mine.. See how tired I must have been when I am in office then.. Fuck.. Now gotta go into office earlier to do those work then.. And I hate using my Mac mouse to do those work, I prefer my precision gaming mouse to work at home which is much more efficient.
My idiotic boss gave me some tasks of changing some articles but I didn't do it cos' I didn't have the time to.
And even though, those tasks were important and were suppose to prioritise for clearance first, I didn't do it.
Why? Cos' the idiot just put the papers in between the mock up file and didn't tell me its in there and expected me to flip through every page so I can spot it and do it. He only told me when he realised I didn't do it after another set of changes.
That's not proper work communication. And its not the first time he did that. There were several times he just passed me stuff, put things on my table or putting things in my USB drive (secretly when I'm away) with telling me with my ACKNOWLEDGEMENT. How the fuck am I to know there are new things coming in? Luckily for those, I always manage to see those new things suddenly appear in my USB drive.
Idiot. Still say work as a publisher in a publishing firm with 20 odd-people under him. I pity his ex-subordinates. Imagine the kind of havoc he must have create for the working environment for them.
Even my lady boss who was a branded watch boutique salesperson and an ex-SIA girl, with no big managerial experience status, do so much better than him in such a typical work tasking communications.
I work so well with my lady boss but I don't understand how come my boss is such a failure.
Oh well, poor character traits and bossy attitude I guessed.
Can't wait to submit my resignation by the end of this issue.
Enough is enough. A leopard can't change its spots. I don't hope to change him.
Monday, September 17, 2007
Thank YOU!
Thank GOD I survived the almost 9 hour non-stop work yesterday.
As predixted, I was shagged and very tired when I reached home. Couldn't do anything more I wanted to. At least I don't have problems trying to sleep on the Sunday night.
But today is Monday again.. Still have to hang on till I finish the latest issue of the magazine = |
Thank GOD I survived the almost 9 hour non-stop work yesterday.
As predixted, I was shagged and very tired when I reached home. Couldn't do anything more I wanted to. At least I don't have problems trying to sleep on the Sunday night.
But today is Monday again.. Still have to hang on till I finish the latest issue of the magazine = |
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Busy: Juggling Myself, Friends, Family & Work!
This weekend is totally busy and a bit crazy. It just simply felt that the last 48 hours whizz past like its going somewhere. And the next half of the 24 hours is going to be so sickening.
Yeah, I'm going to office to work later. And I just finished about 90% of the work brought home for the last two and a half hours when I got only about 4 hours of sleep.
Time seems to be not enough for almost everything.
On Friday night, I went home, had my dinner before going out to St. James to meet up Claudy to club with her. I miss this clubbing girl. Always having fun. And with me, its Alvin (again!).
And we all went to club at St. James' Dragonfly, in celebration of Claudy's friend, Tony's birthday. With Claudy, there were her other colleague and friends whihc both Alvin and I did not know very well, and they were all older than us.
Generally I never liked St. James, as its music suck due to inconsistency, changing of music genre. But for the Friday night, it was fun. Maybe due to the Martell with mix, offered by Tony.
The night was fun celebrating Tony's birthday, with his cake and his never-ending flow of Martell drinks. I drank quite a lot that night whihc made me high and forget all my worried temporarily.
The most fun part was dancing R&B mix with Claudy and her girlfriends. Especially dancing with Jeslyn, who was on the high, trying to copy my moves, which is pretty amusing. I keep having to bring her up when she trying to get down lower by dancing like me. She got a pretty good excuse, why she couldn't do it, cos' she say she's older than me.
Ha.. Dancing with this group of people made me feel old, yet made me feel young as well. Funny feeling.
~~~~~
On Saturday, I went back home at 6am! And had slept for about only 3 hours before getting up for the day at 10am to join the family for my sis' pre-wedding event, receiving dowry and such.
Nothing much happening for the event, except that we ordered a 30 pax buffet from Casserole, but only about 10 or so ate. We left alot of food.
I wasn't in the appetite as I was lacking alot of sleep. I waited till 3pm for the Casserole friends to come and packed up before I went to sleep for another 4 hours till about 7 plus.
After that it was dinner for an hour, and then playing some computer game for another hour.
After that I set off to Holland V, to join Hong Yun, Junlong and Alvin for boardgaming at the Settlers. We played Cash and Guns, Hal Gali and Citadel. They were all fun. Citadel was the one whihc made me laugh my ass off as I was being evil aiming at Hongyun most of the time. But we cousln't finish that last round of Citadel as the cafe was closing. Tood bad. No winner declared for that.
After that we went to Buki Timah to play pool til 3am. I reached home and slept about 4am. Woke up at 8am then try to complete my work till now.
Think by the evening today, I'll be super shag. I hate working on Sunday to the core. Its bullshit (but kinda no choice..)!
This weekend is totally busy and a bit crazy. It just simply felt that the last 48 hours whizz past like its going somewhere. And the next half of the 24 hours is going to be so sickening.
Yeah, I'm going to office to work later. And I just finished about 90% of the work brought home for the last two and a half hours when I got only about 4 hours of sleep.
Time seems to be not enough for almost everything.
On Friday night, I went home, had my dinner before going out to St. James to meet up Claudy to club with her. I miss this clubbing girl. Always having fun. And with me, its Alvin (again!).
And we all went to club at St. James' Dragonfly, in celebration of Claudy's friend, Tony's birthday. With Claudy, there were her other colleague and friends whihc both Alvin and I did not know very well, and they were all older than us.
Generally I never liked St. James, as its music suck due to inconsistency, changing of music genre. But for the Friday night, it was fun. Maybe due to the Martell with mix, offered by Tony.
The night was fun celebrating Tony's birthday, with his cake and his never-ending flow of Martell drinks. I drank quite a lot that night whihc made me high and forget all my worried temporarily.
The most fun part was dancing R&B mix with Claudy and her girlfriends. Especially dancing with Jeslyn, who was on the high, trying to copy my moves, which is pretty amusing. I keep having to bring her up when she trying to get down lower by dancing like me. She got a pretty good excuse, why she couldn't do it, cos' she say she's older than me.
Ha.. Dancing with this group of people made me feel old, yet made me feel young as well. Funny feeling.
~~~~~
On Saturday, I went back home at 6am! And had slept for about only 3 hours before getting up for the day at 10am to join the family for my sis' pre-wedding event, receiving dowry and such.
Nothing much happening for the event, except that we ordered a 30 pax buffet from Casserole, but only about 10 or so ate. We left alot of food.
I wasn't in the appetite as I was lacking alot of sleep. I waited till 3pm for the Casserole friends to come and packed up before I went to sleep for another 4 hours till about 7 plus.
After that it was dinner for an hour, and then playing some computer game for another hour.
After that I set off to Holland V, to join Hong Yun, Junlong and Alvin for boardgaming at the Settlers. We played Cash and Guns, Hal Gali and Citadel. They were all fun. Citadel was the one whihc made me laugh my ass off as I was being evil aiming at Hongyun most of the time. But we cousln't finish that last round of Citadel as the cafe was closing. Tood bad. No winner declared for that.
After that we went to Buki Timah to play pool til 3am. I reached home and slept about 4am. Woke up at 8am then try to complete my work till now.
Think by the evening today, I'll be super shag. I hate working on Sunday to the core. Its bullshit (but kinda no choice..)!
Monday, September 10, 2007
Rat-ta-too-ee!
I got to watch Ratatouille the movie yesterday, along with Shiling, Vel, Alvin and Huiyan.
Its a very nice animated film, which is technically great and the story definitely tickle you funny bones. Enjoyable!
I wouldn't even mind watching it the second time = )
After movie, its dinner and KTV with my friends. Certainly help me put back the dread I have with work a while..
~~~~~
Dreadful..
.. but definitely not enough for me to solve the dreadfulness I have with work..
Yes. Its "dread", not "sian", "bored" or even "sick" of it.
Imagine the fear of designing something you may never get it, again and again. Its not about breakthrough (no point of getting a breakthrough when you thought its all so good and your boss initially like it so much, and its well done, your boss suddenly dislike it without a reason and tell you to do it again).
Its not about lack of inspirations nor lack of research. Inspiration takes time and its a luxury I don't have. And even then inspirations can go down to the drain so easily. If research is plagarism or 100% copy, its an insult to designer's intergrity.
Like Remy the chef rat in the movie, Ratatouille, I'm not the kind of person who follow recipes even though a great chef wrote those recipes. I feel and sense my work along the way and put my heart in it. That is my recipe.
Lack of pride and trust onto the designer's works, preferring other magazines' designs and saying your own magazine is unique is totally ironic and double-standard.
I am simply unable to fulfill bosses autocratic demands without proper support, help and basically understanding, trust and pride on how the whole thing goes.
Its Monday.. And the skies all so grey..
Depressing it is.
I got to watch Ratatouille the movie yesterday, along with Shiling, Vel, Alvin and Huiyan.
Its a very nice animated film, which is technically great and the story definitely tickle you funny bones. Enjoyable!
I wouldn't even mind watching it the second time = )
After movie, its dinner and KTV with my friends. Certainly help me put back the dread I have with work a while..
~~~~~
Dreadful..
.. but definitely not enough for me to solve the dreadfulness I have with work..
Yes. Its "dread", not "sian", "bored" or even "sick" of it.
Imagine the fear of designing something you may never get it, again and again. Its not about breakthrough (no point of getting a breakthrough when you thought its all so good and your boss initially like it so much, and its well done, your boss suddenly dislike it without a reason and tell you to do it again).
Its not about lack of inspirations nor lack of research. Inspiration takes time and its a luxury I don't have. And even then inspirations can go down to the drain so easily. If research is plagarism or 100% copy, its an insult to designer's intergrity.
Like Remy the chef rat in the movie, Ratatouille, I'm not the kind of person who follow recipes even though a great chef wrote those recipes. I feel and sense my work along the way and put my heart in it. That is my recipe.
Lack of pride and trust onto the designer's works, preferring other magazines' designs and saying your own magazine is unique is totally ironic and double-standard.
I am simply unable to fulfill bosses autocratic demands without proper support, help and basically understanding, trust and pride on how the whole thing goes.
Its Monday.. And the skies all so grey..
Depressing it is.
Saturday, September 08, 2007
背叛
by 曹格
雨 不停落下來 花 怎麼都不開
儘管我細心灌溉 你說不愛就不愛 我一個人 欣賞悲哀
愛 只剩下無奈 我 一直不願再去猜
鋼琴上黑鍵之間 永遠都夾著空白 缺了一塊 就不精采
緊緊相依的心如何Say goodbye 你比我清楚還要我說明白
愛太深會讓人瘋狂的勇敢 我用背叛自己 完成你的期盼
把手放開不問一句Say goodbye 當作最後一次對你的溺愛
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管 只要你能愉快
心 有一句感慨 我 還能夠跟誰對白
在你關上門之前 替我再回頭看看 那些片段 還在不在
Repeat
只要你能愉快
by 曹格
雨 不停落下來 花 怎麼都不開
儘管我細心灌溉 你說不愛就不愛 我一個人 欣賞悲哀
愛 只剩下無奈 我 一直不願再去猜
鋼琴上黑鍵之間 永遠都夾著空白 缺了一塊 就不精采
緊緊相依的心如何Say goodbye 你比我清楚還要我說明白
愛太深會讓人瘋狂的勇敢 我用背叛自己 完成你的期盼
把手放開不問一句Say goodbye 當作最後一次對你的溺愛
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管 只要你能愉快
心 有一句感慨 我 還能夠跟誰對白
在你關上門之前 替我再回頭看看 那些片段 還在不在
Repeat
只要你能愉快
A Date with my Bubbly Agent @ Giraffe
I am on a date with my bubbly insurance agent friend, Evon, during the evening just now.
I offered to treat her dinner at the Giraffe restaurant as she treated me once before. So I am returning her grace as a friend as well as favour of helping handle my policy from my previous agent even though she's not receiving commission for it.
It was a wonderful evening dinner chatting with lots of laughter as well as sharing our working woes and thoughts, while we both had salmon dishes for the main course which was not bad. After, we also had some desserts, I had some coffee ice cream while she had her tiramisu. Both tasted very sweetly nice.
We also enjoyed the place's ambience which its famous for, making us relax after work (even though I had quite a shitty day today), in the amidst of the greeneries of the Istana Park accompanied by the busy Orchard Road beside it.
Evon sure got a lot of "qian bian wen da ti" which make me laugh my troubles away. I also made her laugh by telling some of the lame things I did recently.
The dinner was just fun and great.
Hope to meet my bubbly insurance agent friend again ^.^
~~~~~
I had quite a shitty day at work today. Lacking inspirations and running out of ideas. I am already quite frustrated and sian that I couldn't make any breakthrough. So I submitted my best works I did so far.
My bosses weren't satisfied about the submitted works so my boss talked to me about it. Okay, I listened to him (with my other colleagues as my witnesses). But there was basically nothing much I could do except thinking hard and trying, experimenting with the designs. I came up with new designs different from the previous issues which I like but they don't.
(He said I hadn't been doing research on other magazines by looking through those nice layouts. But different design layouts have different images, colours, text type, text size and other factors, not all can be put into comparison as they basically HAVE DIFFERENT CONTENT FACTOR CRITERIA. Worst, they always plagarised other magazines' design layouts and asked me to do those layouts literally copied from those.
How ethical..)
Fine. They talked to me about it and I listened carefully what they really want, and I promised them I'll come back tomorrow Saturday to work on the rest of the articles, before I left the office for my dinner date.
But why when I thought that every thing was all right, after an hour I left the office, 15 minutes into my dinner, my boss send me this SMS, "I am very unhappy with your recent work attitude.. i wan you on Come back sat to complete all the layout. i wan to see them emailed to me during monday."
Firstly, I don't see why I am showing the so-called "attitude" problem when I tiredlessly work my brains during the day, managed to finish my tasks on time and submit those I completed to them, and when the day ends I should go home on the dot so I can go home and rest. And I had shown the courtesy to ask if there's anything for me to do at the end of the day in case of emergencies.
So going home on time when you finished your tasks that you controlled on how much you want to do is considered bad working attitude? Hey, I need rest for my brain. My brain is not a creativity factory machine that creat anything you want all the time okay. Even Einstein with extra 3% brainpower can't do that.
I'm so shagged out everyday trying to outdo my previous designs and now I don't have the right to go home and rest and you judge me like that by saying I have a "bad attitude"?
I don't get it. I'm already trying my best not to get demoralised by them rejecting my designs don't know how many umpteen times even though I think its fresh, new and I like it, but they don't.
I know what they're thinking, they're just thinking I am just a typical worker who just wants to go home on the dot. Please, I want to go home and rest not trying to siam work.
I don't know why he got the cheek to compare another competitor's magazine, "The Singapore T****r" is nice, and saying their magazine has 10 design staff, spending 6 months to work on their magazine, so their magazine is nice, while we got only me, him and my lady boss to work on our magazine and I don't know which idiotic customer of ours said our magazine was nice, in which that my boss vindicated we're stronger than other magazines.
And he's trying to make a point that IF our magazine is not nice, its GONNA BE MY FAULT.
Sorry, I believe 10 heads are better than 3, no matter what.
With this kind of "bossy attitude" from my boss, I wonder when will be the day when I'll break this working relationship and say goodbye to the company for good.
I am on a date with my bubbly insurance agent friend, Evon, during the evening just now.
I offered to treat her dinner at the Giraffe restaurant as she treated me once before. So I am returning her grace as a friend as well as favour of helping handle my policy from my previous agent even though she's not receiving commission for it.
It was a wonderful evening dinner chatting with lots of laughter as well as sharing our working woes and thoughts, while we both had salmon dishes for the main course which was not bad. After, we also had some desserts, I had some coffee ice cream while she had her tiramisu. Both tasted very sweetly nice.
We also enjoyed the place's ambience which its famous for, making us relax after work (even though I had quite a shitty day today), in the amidst of the greeneries of the Istana Park accompanied by the busy Orchard Road beside it.
Evon sure got a lot of "qian bian wen da ti" which make me laugh my troubles away. I also made her laugh by telling some of the lame things I did recently.
The dinner was just fun and great.
Hope to meet my bubbly insurance agent friend again ^.^
Coffee ice cream at Giraffe restaurant
~~~~~
I had quite a shitty day at work today. Lacking inspirations and running out of ideas. I am already quite frustrated and sian that I couldn't make any breakthrough. So I submitted my best works I did so far.
My bosses weren't satisfied about the submitted works so my boss talked to me about it. Okay, I listened to him (with my other colleagues as my witnesses). But there was basically nothing much I could do except thinking hard and trying, experimenting with the designs. I came up with new designs different from the previous issues which I like but they don't.
(He said I hadn't been doing research on other magazines by looking through those nice layouts. But different design layouts have different images, colours, text type, text size and other factors, not all can be put into comparison as they basically HAVE DIFFERENT CONTENT FACTOR CRITERIA. Worst, they always plagarised other magazines' design layouts and asked me to do those layouts literally copied from those.
How ethical..)
Fine. They talked to me about it and I listened carefully what they really want, and I promised them I'll come back tomorrow Saturday to work on the rest of the articles, before I left the office for my dinner date.
But why when I thought that every thing was all right, after an hour I left the office, 15 minutes into my dinner, my boss send me this SMS, "I am very unhappy with your recent work attitude.. i wan you on Come back sat to complete all the layout. i wan to see them emailed to me during monday."
Firstly, I don't see why I am showing the so-called "attitude" problem when I tiredlessly work my brains during the day, managed to finish my tasks on time and submit those I completed to them, and when the day ends I should go home on the dot so I can go home and rest. And I had shown the courtesy to ask if there's anything for me to do at the end of the day in case of emergencies.
So going home on time when you finished your tasks that you controlled on how much you want to do is considered bad working attitude? Hey, I need rest for my brain. My brain is not a creativity factory machine that creat anything you want all the time okay. Even Einstein with extra 3% brainpower can't do that.
I'm so shagged out everyday trying to outdo my previous designs and now I don't have the right to go home and rest and you judge me like that by saying I have a "bad attitude"?
I don't get it. I'm already trying my best not to get demoralised by them rejecting my designs don't know how many umpteen times even though I think its fresh, new and I like it, but they don't.
I know what they're thinking, they're just thinking I am just a typical worker who just wants to go home on the dot. Please, I want to go home and rest not trying to siam work.
I don't know why he got the cheek to compare another competitor's magazine, "The Singapore T****r" is nice, and saying their magazine has 10 design staff, spending 6 months to work on their magazine, so their magazine is nice, while we got only me, him and my lady boss to work on our magazine and I don't know which idiotic customer of ours said our magazine was nice, in which that my boss vindicated we're stronger than other magazines.
And he's trying to make a point that IF our magazine is not nice, its GONNA BE MY FAULT.
Sorry, I believe 10 heads are better than 3, no matter what.
With this kind of "bossy attitude" from my boss, I wonder when will be the day when I'll break this working relationship and say goodbye to the company for good.
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
korkor's New Spacious Cage!
I finally bought a new and bigger cage for my pet hamster, Korkor!
Its been some time since I last said about getting Korkor a new and bigger cage. Now I finally got it. I bought it from Pet Safari at VivoCity just now.
And immediately I set it up for Korkor after I got home.
I simply transferred Korkor' in his red house and when he woke up, he found a whole new exciting world! I'm definitely glad seeing him exploring his new home. I'm even more happy that he still wanted to use the running wheel as he hadn't been running on a running wheel for about 3 months! Even better, when he's running on the wheel, it produces no sound, which will not disturb me when I go to sleep while Korkor is running.
Beside the new cage, I also got him a new sand bathhouse and also a new running ball.
Hopefully Korkor's life will not be so boring anymore when I see him listless lying his head on the floor. But now, he'll have a more exciting life now!
I finally bought a new and bigger cage for my pet hamster, Korkor!
Its been some time since I last said about getting Korkor a new and bigger cage. Now I finally got it. I bought it from Pet Safari at VivoCity just now.
And immediately I set it up for Korkor after I got home.
I simply transferred Korkor' in his red house and when he woke up, he found a whole new exciting world! I'm definitely glad seeing him exploring his new home. I'm even more happy that he still wanted to use the running wheel as he hadn't been running on a running wheel for about 3 months! Even better, when he's running on the wheel, it produces no sound, which will not disturb me when I go to sleep while Korkor is running.
Beside the new cage, I also got him a new sand bathhouse and also a new running ball.
Hopefully Korkor's life will not be so boring anymore when I see him listless lying his head on the floor. But now, he'll have a more exciting life now!
Cool isn't it?!
Monday, September 03, 2007
Long Saturday
I had a really long Saturday.
Went to work in the late morning and had to work till about 4pm.
Then I went down to Clarke Quay to wait for the gang of people to arrived, to gather and cleberate the pre and post birthday of Jiexin and Lishan. Other peepes included Lishan's boyfriend Andy, Shingling and Chee Wee, Huiyan, Alvin, Vel and me.
Chee Wee told me to wait at Clarke Quay but said they were coming soon. But the "soon" was one hour. I didn't had my lunch and I walked all over The Central Shopping Mall.
Even after they arrived, along with Vel who dressed up quite amazingly, we walked all over the Clarke Quay area looking for a good place to east for about half an hour... (My poor legs and stomach)
In the end we end up settling our dinner at the Central's Billy Bombers. Alvin was lost finding the dinner place and had to settle his dinner alone after we all settled ours long time ago.
We all had a good time, especially the girls who were all too chatty and playful with each other, us the rest of the guys were generally transparent = )
But we're glad to see them so close. Seeing Vel meeting her old classmates aagain also made me feel good.
After the dinner, we all headed to Brewerkz for some drinks and contiuing our chat.
The place is quite a good place to chill-ouy with friends. Especially its a good place for beer boooze, which are very unique.
I had a smooth brown ale beer. And as usual, people were wondering if I can hold my liquor as my face (and the rest of my skin) were flushed red. I can only say I have good blood circulation = )
~~~~~
After the whole outing at Clarke Quay, Huiyan, Alvin, Chee Wee and I headed for Alvin's home for an overnight mahjong.
I had fun even though I lost some money. I know not everytime so heng I ownage on the holy table one. I was the biggest loser this time, but my lost is little compared to previous sessions amounted as I won much more money many times before =P
I had the whole Sunday daytime snoozing on my bed. So nice.
Been a long time I did that.
Clarke Quay on Saturday
I had a really long Saturday.
Went to work in the late morning and had to work till about 4pm.
Then I went down to Clarke Quay to wait for the gang of people to arrived, to gather and cleberate the pre and post birthday of Jiexin and Lishan. Other peepes included Lishan's boyfriend Andy, Shingling and Chee Wee, Huiyan, Alvin, Vel and me.
Chee Wee told me to wait at Clarke Quay but said they were coming soon. But the "soon" was one hour. I didn't had my lunch and I walked all over The Central Shopping Mall.
Even after they arrived, along with Vel who dressed up quite amazingly, we walked all over the Clarke Quay area looking for a good place to east for about half an hour... (My poor legs and stomach)
In the end we end up settling our dinner at the Central's Billy Bombers. Alvin was lost finding the dinner place and had to settle his dinner alone after we all settled ours long time ago.
We all had a good time, especially the girls who were all too chatty and playful with each other, us the rest of the guys were generally transparent = )
But we're glad to see them so close. Seeing Vel meeting her old classmates aagain also made me feel good.
Girls at Bill Bombers having camera taking sessions and having fun = )
After the dinner, we all headed to Brewerkz for some drinks and contiuing our chat.
The place is quite a good place to chill-ouy with friends. Especially its a good place for beer boooze, which are very unique.
I had a smooth brown ale beer. And as usual, people were wondering if I can hold my liquor as my face (and the rest of my skin) were flushed red. I can only say I have good blood circulation = )
~~~~~
After the whole outing at Clarke Quay, Huiyan, Alvin, Chee Wee and I headed for Alvin's home for an overnight mahjong.
I had fun even though I lost some money. I know not everytime so heng I ownage on the holy table one. I was the biggest loser this time, but my lost is little compared to previous sessions amounted as I won much more money many times before =P
I had the whole Sunday daytime snoozing on my bed. So nice.
Been a long time I did that.
